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LIE a DAY

February 28th, 2007

Hi,
What is it that we like to do.What exactly is it that we lik to do.what is it that we guys do.It is a very weird question.But then i realized tht the day is not going to change faces,it is not going to make me win.But it must be me who must do the certain things to make it better.there is no need to have things go on bad or to keep the things flow as they are ..so many people just go with the flow ..but what can i say. that my life was usless? whose fault is it anyways .somebody who came into my life for a few years ..yours or may be mine..but what exactly will happen .what exactly must happen ..is what the point for question is ..i know that if some one comes in your life and says that it is over .it will effect you.it affects me. But u know what?..it ain’t that easy.you think u can forget the past ..can u ..no because the past has already changed the way u used to live..it is like that we are not going to win…but it is like looking at the bright sun then the  deep george done…where u are falling down..and now since u must be a part of the game of life….it must be excepted to be at the winning side.don’t look at the sun ..u are going down…look in the darkness because it is there from where a  bark will be there ..which will support u ..and will be the reason for ur survival …sun is not of any help if u are going down .it won’t hand u the hand if u are falling it is for u when u are  walking and there is thick forest ..to guide with the light..
…what i mean is just for different issues there has to be a different god.one is not enough…one man is one man if he knows nothing else….
…Apurva  

WE ARE A MAN

February 27th, 2007

Hi
what is it that u trust.Whom is it that u trust..is it really true or is it a fake trust.We are used to the last kind of trust..Live with the last kind of trust..and call it with the misspelt word ..compromise….a great achivement of MG turned to shattered peices….the point is that we are not the only    one who are effecting ourselfs but the whole nation is gettinh messed up in the factor ..i do agree that this tactic is very useful when u are a politician ..or are playing a politio game ..infact  when  i look at every man around me it does feels to me like they are playing a political game in life…But lets think about it are u really politicians…i dont agree to it .if u willl start living a politician u will end up being one…from where will we find a  way to learn .to know the nature.to know the heart of true love , heart of the true  discoveries ..how and when will make new discoveries..and  new invensions..when are we going to think about making great structures on land and on sea..who will endeavour the frontiers of the great games ..who is going to go to a lost mountain a climb it up …will go in the deeps of  literature…..ern for not being a best by showing yourself better then others..stop being a thumb for your parents ..for your so called family..they need us … more than that ….we need them ..but who are u to stop the life to go on..i know our roots belong with our parents..but why to lead a life that later on can make us  same kind of parent…
lets cross the boundries of our own heart for once .while talking to a person ..just don’t think how will it effect me..but either think how should i behave in accordence to my thoughts…that is difficult but is required ..for who u are is what the next generation will be….Apurva

WILL IT PAY..

February 26th, 2007

Hi,
Today i had a fight with my only family. There is a story i always adore,of, jonathan livining stone seagull.What  i love is, may be the similarity between the character and me.The difference, i don’t know, can i compare with  it or not, the point is- can i really be like him.He himself was bounded by no functions .why is it that even we are not that free as we are born.it is so difficult ..i am telling you- the truth is that i am  not going to loosen up the game knots …and the game master isn’t either going to change the rules of the game.Several times i have been accused of living in my own world which itself  if is not fake than not even true either .. i am angry .. i am calm ..both can come together in a very volcanic way. the silence is what u see and adore..but no one feels like to soothen it up …the head can be a very difficult thing if it is messed with..can be difficult to control. i always had the power of will weakened up in front of the want to help others .Be a good part in the life of others. one man standing  with only one intension of being a part of every man’s success..the dellima though can be understood is not that much of easy to  comment on ,reason being the shallowness of our judgement .and the track on which we man live. each one of us has perticular way of thinking ..and we have inherited the worst mindset passed to us by our indian godfathers ..that the way  we know is the only one..why is it that our way of action,our way of thinking ,of judging is not free..of the our own past notions and experience..the only thing that we indians lack as a person…as a society..is the freedom of thought .freedom of not stamping our thoughts on the people around us there is no as such freedom that we allow people around us to enjoy

let my wings spread up ..
let my heart fall in love with a strange cloud.
let me and my dreams fly to the unseen desert..
i know u wish me well
save me from the harsh ends of the storms at the corner,
i know that you love me
but let me know, let me find out why is it that i hide from you,
why my heart  thumbles more when i am silent at night,
when the wind passes freely touching my cheeks,
i want to love you, but there is something that calls me at the lost sunspot,
Pls let my heart fly, let my heart pass by to that desert, thirsty
for if i live with you , i know i’ll always love you ,
but i’ll never find out why was it that i could not love myself ,

I know you cannot understand,
I know  you are right, that u are correct but
still there is something that is wrong
that is calling me out of the cage of being right,
that is flying past me,saying yes it is heaven where you are being called
but, would  you really be alive there?….
..Apurva

WHAT DO YOU THINK

February 25th, 2007

Hi what exactly is a night ..its a obsession, for life,
for peace , for the deep ends of your own life, silence never else a better voice..just need to listen to it  ..Apurva

The Day,The Decision, and Your Head

February 25th, 2007

Hi,
How exactly can a day start? there are several ways ..good , bad,so..so…, cool and several other ways ..you have a different be true you have a diffierent idea …that’s it ..but why i am i here ..for a decision..is it so..well..every one is here for the same ..then we have to decide.We have to think., one thing that i know about us guys ..as i have seen ..that’s the last thing that we do.What exacty should be done ..what exactly should be the status of our life, of our thoughts..that is what is missing out of the life.decisions start with the word money and end with the word relationship..wells so what is it that u think..that it is going to matter and how much is it that the life is going to matter to you..that is really to be thought..why can we not think for a word that can not be synonimous to the words relation or money .Nature has a rule what u think what u speak is what u turn into ..its what u dream that makes u ..the one u want to be..We are lacking that ..U ask others why india is not america, japan , germany…because they dream different then u ..the man there dreamt a nation..they dreamt a better life..that’s why they have what we are jealous off…and we say we have not been given…it is what u dream..what u act for ..just need to think abut it, is it possible….Apurva

Its the same untill the same is killed

February 25th, 2007

Hi
Well one big thing the day will never come untill u will open ur eyes..or move out of the dark room..can this country change untill we will try to bring out …instead of  justifying the every day happenings ..if there has been no such change in the past 60 years …what is  the meaning of justifying the old ways …that this went wrong…last time ..one thing is there that i understand ..if u wish to change than change ..if you can not change by the last way then change ur ways…Apurva

Days can they be allowed to pass by ?

February 24th, 2007

Hi,
Today is among some of those days..when everything is just the same ..that is what i think it makes it most special for me ….today i did nothing .except for the regular..one day that i hate the most…..for it comes every now or then..but today is especial because i am outlining this day .
We must love this type of day …reason because …it is the most general of our days..
too many man just blow off such days ..saying it has been wasted..but they need to understand it is the best day for it really represents them..what u have what u do ..when u are not looking..at the step ..when u are blind ..or not looking u move by instinct..this the only reason..that used to make me angry ..because it is what the truth is …i am simple..first i was a simple  man only concerned with his work….a middle level student ..now i am a shy man , afraid to be with a girl..still killing me with the thought…of the same …i am a regular guy who has landed up into  a call centre…that is it.It is kind of being afraid of what u are. It is said ..it is nice that u r afraid of today because it will change ur life..i say ..nope u are wrong… it has to be the other way ..be proud of what u are ..because this is what u really are..and only if u are proud .of today tomorrow will be better that is it .
I was thinking whole day ..sitting idle several times ..why had i exactly done studies and had dreams if this is what i was going to do.i don’t have answer to that ..Yesterday ..it used to frustrate me ..but now a days . i think and then i forget it ..because i already have wasted a lot on thinking ..now it has to be something better..
i still don’t have the answer what will i be tomorrow…where will i be ..but i know one thing now..i will never regret today ..for it is me as a usual ..that is the real best ..not the make up best ..the true one.if i improve over this that that will be an achivement.though it doesn’t mean that i am not proud of my today ..its jus that i want to know more…
and want to know as much i can…which ..can not happen if go on being in this company as a call centre guy….Apurva

A little by little.

February 22nd, 2007

Hi
Simple as the sun if  thoughts can get.
it is easy to realize what can come in the way of dusk,
it will be a simpls rain ..to cool the wind ,
or can be a cloud ..to bring the last memories in a painted ocean .
..Apurva

CAN WE BURN THE SUN

February 22nd, 2007

When i think of a girl .. i generally don’t find much in my choice..or may be there is too much in there ..i  find my self attrected to one of my seniors.. ..reason i really dont understand but may be it is the determination that attracts me to people…it is the tiger’s heart that reflects in a eye  is what attracts me…it is like saying i like to be with people who have the heart of being kings..in their work…..even in girls when i think about it is not only how great that they look but is is also their wildness abut life that turns the head..for if the life is going to be any thng then why not to have the heart as you have why to compromise with something less where u will be better and the second one is lesser ..it has to be equal..but as far as it is concerned .. one thing that i lack over here..is the heart to leap as the tiger himself….but am i silent watch man ..who looks at the prey all the time .but some where i a little bit of concerned .which results in a frustration that can kill ..a generation….Apurva

WHAT IF I CHANGE

February 20th, 2007

Hi
Risk is some thing tht remains the same ..no matter if  u do it or not..the times when y r not risking is a time u are taking a risk ..a fatal one, that is for sure.because than the risk is taken by the life itself..and now it is a uncalculated one..that is i am a part of a  game where uncertainity is the key player ..u don’t know the final outcome of the risk taken..and the moves also have to come unprepared …thats it .Apurva