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Hi,
I was there standing in the dark,
Standing next to silence,
I was there standing at a bus stop.

I was there at the night,
I was there standing ,
lost, waiting for a ride,
there was I, in my shoes,
i was there  waiting for  a bus.

There was a friend standing next to me,
i was  there alone , standing with the wind,
there i stood with the cute little stars,
and with a paining  leg,
I was standing there with my phone,

I was calling my friend,
i was there standing next to a stranger,
I was there lost in my thought,
Wind just came and then left,
I again went on, in search of next stop,
Bus was not there,
She was not picking up the phone,
I was not afraid,
I was not lost,
I was broken,
I was not exhausted ,
I was burnt,
I went on,
I ran on,
I kept on,
I Stood there at the square,
I was new to the lane,
I was not lost,
I was broken,
I had to choose a way,
She was not picking up the phone,

I stood again,
I ran again,
I was  running at mid night,
I was breaking at mid night,
I was there at a known  corner,
I was afraid,
I was hard,
She is not answering, second day is gone,

Then the bike came i was not running,
I was sitting back on the steel,
I was not is pain,
I was not lost,
I had lost something ,
I was not dead ,but my pain was dead,
Will she ever pick up the phone,

I was at my door step,
I was at my gate,
I was  tired ,
I couldn’t smile ,
I was in pain,
I went in, I went to my bed,
I slept off, i had to get up,
I was lost,
Am  i calling too late?
Has she  left the phone in her pocket,
Is she feeling sleepy,

I woke up early in the morning,
I changed my clothes,
I made my bed,
I gulped some water,
I took a pillow,
What will happen tomorrow,
And i dozed off, I had to be  up early,
I ll try again,

I was up early,
I did my morning,
I went out early,
I made a call,
Ring went on
and a minute passed,
I was there i was standing there,
I was feeling the  breeze ,
The tea was cold,
I was alone ,
I was hungry,
I was late,
I went on,
I did no,
I was there with the day,
I was there with my job,
I was there smiling,
But i was cold ,
I was tired ,
I took a break,
I made a call
I gave a ring,
I  gave another ring,
I gave another ring,
Then i switched my phone off,
I have to go back,
I had to go back,
The day was on,
I was still on the desk,
I did my work,
The day was gone,
My day was up,
I was up,
I had to go  home,
I  went on,
I was in the cab,
I was with the songs,
I was with the Night,
I was there with the phone,
I gave a ring,
It went on , I kept the phone on,
I went off,
I have written a heart,
I have to get up, I have to go home,
I have packed up,
The life is silent,
The moon is on, stars are up,  songs are mild,
The day is up,
I am on my way,
I am hungry,
I am hungry,
I will have a tea,
I am happy.
I ll not call  her again…

…………Apurva

HI ,


Just when i thought  a new day has come,
i saw a new sun,
i saw a new light,
and it was there
day smiling day loving , and day chatting in may language,
i was feeling great, a new day is dawning,
i should have been happy.

then the dawn changed to morning,
morning to the day,
i was there with my day ,
i was there with my heart,
i was there- working,
i was there- living,
the day had begun,

Somewhere, i realized day was always right,
day is the same as always,
i felt i always had the same day,
i was happy as ever,
it was just a new day,
it was a better morning,
sigh! i didn’t enjoy it,
it was not a drum for a new day,
it was not a declare of a new life,
it was a better morning,

yes, it was a better morning,
it is eve now,  but i am feeling still better,
wasn’t it a better day,
no, it is a better eve,
it is a better dusk,
its not a drum for a better time to come,
it is! is a lovely moment ,
i think,  i ll be calling some friends ,
ill be meeting some songs…
i ll be loving some more moments,
for it is a better  life than the last moment,
and i’ll call her.
for this day couldn’t get  better,
it is the best moment of my life.
and same will it get from me..
….Apurva

What perticularly is the matter for the management that runs in India,

What pertucularly is there in our management style that is downsizing the efforts of the people working with the company. The our companies work with  a simple goal when there is any oppertunity ..give every thing that you have as for the left time..take the day with a smile alone.
Is this method really productive enought, is this stretegy really good enough.
As per as the first part is concerned yes it is …when you have an oppertunity ..just push ahead with full strength and the business will get the best out of it. its like the day when govt has handed over the oppertunity to have a open feast of  food.The matter of concern comes over the last part of the stretegy ..that is just brush your teeth and come back smilling for the day . ..to finish your files and say hello to your  customers.
The worst ..where a the company suffers is the employee part man have no oppertunity to go ahead no one pays attension on them no body is caring for them, as if they do not exist The exitement of the life ends for them.It is just another day when they have nothing to get..nothing to have just another day. It can turn fatal , people living as machines working as machine dont give their best to the customers. For them it is just another day.That means the customers might not get what they had bought in the starting. In india the best way of advertizement is  mouth to mouth  adverlizement..
Consider the situation of a company that is  providing its services to the customers.Best one during festival, its get  abut the 1 lakh customers with its cool offers and service promise..Then when the festival season ends its services comes down to  a say 80%. of what was promised ..this  means that there are custmers who are  returning without getting setisfied.This bulge is the one that will act as the negetive advertizement for the business..because the life of several people also goes on without the festivities..they do buy on odd times, that is when your , promotion department is not active in market.
here they go to the old customers..and if they say product is bad, you loose cutomers.

and such a bulge which keeps on incrementing during this season enters the well planned festive season .now  starts multiplying..exponencially, you dont loose one or two but the mouth to mouth publicity multiplies it ten folds…and several future customers are lost.

In short we can say is, if you are in india then how you treat your employees does matter a lot for the company profit.and the future of the company.

Hi ,
today i was on phone with one of my friend…
she had been called to pune for admission in the MBA courses by  bhartiya vidhya peeth university..She had secured what ..a 131 ..marks..i dont know how much that means..but she said it was enough…. i dont know .how much it was but she was happy ..she said i am happy i ll get MBA marketting in Pune ..I said cool …that was yesterday ..today ! she was angry ..reason she could not get what she wanted…reason …she was infrmed the closure for the free seats is closed at 135.. i can understand ..its cutoff..but when she told …that people with 92 marks got admission..to the same course …i was little amazed..i was least of amazed when she said …  these guys took it under MANAGEMENT QUOTA…i was really amazed when she said tht she asked the counciller for the reason(i generally dont ask such question under the INDIAN  EDUCATIONAL SKY ..i am already used to it.(.i belong to MP).)..
and i was really disappointed ..when i heard the councillers reply that that under the management quota  the person only needs to deposit 3,00,000 for admission..and any one with such lower marks and only with such money …can now have admission…
question is why i was disappointed….well i have been looking at such senareo since my childhood ..its a common doing in MP….if u have dont have money ..theres no certaininty …..I was little disappointed  ..because .. like a city in pune… with university like BHARTIYA VIDHYA PEETH & MBA…such things are on. that too openly
But i am too much concerned that now such things are happenign openly..(i beleive it must be in there policys ,thats why the persons could boast it so loud.)
It does lets me have a shiver in my head..what exactly are we people doing …what exactly is the way that we man are following.. can the dream 2020 perseived by my Honorary President  Dr Kalam  be realized through such a work..i know eduation doen’t make much of a diffierence in india but..yes   character does….. what kind of character will it generate .in both ..first in the man who get the admission….they realize the power that money brings abut …which makes them careless abut the educational  requirement and more hungry for money …which again will be passed on to their children with more intensity..and for those who lost the battle  …their depression  abut the   life increases ..their trust in their education decreases ..their  desperateness for money  is hightened ..such man (who have had  too many of such experience..).. loose their trust on education….their trust on hard work(just dont tell me that it is their fault that they cound not get better marks..no one is a geniour..not every one has silver spoon in mouth …and neghter every one is John Nash.)…..and what result ..is a man who  teaches their new generation more abut the most importent thing  ..money ..without which the life can shatter…some thing that must change..some thing that must change is this character…i do understand ..that what is happening can not be challenged ..some thing that can not be changed quickly…but cant we people think more about it …get to a solution ..and have things settled up so that the end product gets  ..the better man out …in the development cycle…not more in the money cycle….
though i am happy abut one thing  that  the lady had the strength of facing the truth …and had the strength abut a better college that has called her for  interview. for the same stream that she wants to be in…i  do applaud to her strength of words on phone .in which she strictly  buried her..grievne of a lost ground …of a lost path ..
May God let her have a better oppertunity ..and a better future…Apurva

I want to sleep,
i want to have a night,
i want to close my eyes with a smile on my face,
will you let me sleep  my heart ,
will i have the sleep in my eyes ,
i can not promise will i have the peace of the dreams,
it is not, i want to lie down,
it is not, i want to wake for an empty day,
but i want my eyes to smile when i go to bed,
why is it that a sleep is so heavy for my brows to come down,
i am here in this land , on this day ,
wanting a simple sleep, but u know i just cannot have the  sleep,
for my head lies there in pain,
my heart sours in death of the day,
that has passed , mourning on a dream,
paralysed by the lost grounds,
it is awaiting for an endless day to end,
waiting for the light of the sun that is about to shed its last yellow,
its having  a offering of the night ,
but it is not looking for the same yellow  for which it was here for,
lost in the desert of self silence,
it is searching for the smile,
that will let it have the pleasure of the dusking drift,
i await for u my sleep,
awake in my dreams ,
awake in my days ,
i am here awaiting ,
that a day will come when
when i will have the day at end,
and the sun will take me at the moon light…
i await with the closing eyes
for tomorrow i ll awake with the searching eyes,
insomniac as ever..

What can i name as the start of the  day,
each morn when the sun rises ..
or each word that i hear at noon ..of the man away,
is it the waving hand of the friends close by,
or a letter from a lost  home,

what is a day i wonder ,
is it the rise of a man from the sleep of the night,
or is it the sweet voice i hear from the birds,
can it be the rhythm of the song on the radio,
should i call the voice of my customer as my day

You taught me a day will rise when i will open my .
….finish it later..!

love the day for it may never come again ..it takes 200 days to build a castle ..and only one second to bring it down…i wonder…
why is it that a man stands back..and again stands back…and againg fights back ..
and goes on ..even after failure..it is the hunger that jut cannot be satisfied ..the mas who live with the quality…stay awake..for a new day i waiting..i havn’t seen it my self..but i too beleive…each moment..each day…the rising .sun..the rising ..day..every thing…that is .i beleive…Apurva

Hi ,
persuit of happiness…..bruce willes
Each man has a day in his life and has a life inside it, i wanted to have it , i want the life for myself…..so that i could live it …i wanted to live the life…..it feels like  i wanted not the life but my perception of what life is ….and when  it turned out to be different i felt i am lacking something…how was it exactly that we found out what  type of life is a good life..i don’t understand it ..it is really difficult to understand ..but …we are all made to understad what exactly it means ..are we ? or are we made to live it , i say we are made to live it ….
not to think abut  it .we have to decide which place we want to go up….up the hill or up the life…..or up the sky ..thts our choice..my choice …

understand what exactly is it that we want….

i live a heart , i live a head …
i live a game , i live a day ,
and i want more
more in life…more in heart
so much more all in a  day of one and only star..
i am here for my day .
for a lost sun and and a lost way,
i await for my heart…
i await for now  and then 
 i am here for the day and for my heart …that is

Hi,
This is a day, once before i used to think being here means to me, today i had a day off..from my job …i have been sitting here ..surfing ….it just feels like moving out in space..so many stars to go to..so many galaxies to wander into..i am a human who has never stepped in the blackness of the space…i wonder how the other fellow man ..know which galaxy they want to conquer…..they are flying past me in there spaceships..may be they had a very powerful telescope back at home ,or they have calculated there way to the horizon correctly..the equations of which are still not clear to me..(or they have been contacted by the aliens of a planets who have taken them under some spell to come there ….i am not claiming that aliens are carnivorous..just may be they have some work with a human..)..what ever the reason may be each one is moving …at enormous speed some where in the horizon..good luck to you..as per as i am concerned.. i am still here hanging in the midst of nowhere..still looking at the horizon….where to go to..there is lack of fuel….where exactly is it where my ….parent star ..is ..why are all the stars so beautiful…so great ..i wonder which one to go to ..if i ignore….all the others ..i feel monotonous….i feel i am missing the black holes..i am missing super nova ..i am not looking at the beautiful solar system..or may be missing life itself ..for which i am out here…..what if the planet i land on is a desert or it turns to a systme whose sun has started to die..and there are no lively planets out there..its crazy ..but its true..what if what i am saying is true ….
it scares me ..but any ways i have to make a way a ship hanging is as good as a junk yard…..but one thing is sure ..there is one star that i adored since my childhood is there one place..what if i take a way for it ..i know everything is beautiful..i know but just if i do that may be it is barren ..but then i ll be out there ..and never in my life i ll have the dissatisfaction that i didn’t go for that one ..a desire will always haunt ..me…see when every thing is uncertain…then why not be get certain..abut the love we always wanted……if it fails to satisfy me then i can move ahead.but what if i move to the millionth galaxy and turn out to be the best seller ..yet when i look back i find on star ..still on my mind and unexplored …??its worth a try .isn’t it ..Apurva

HAVE  U EVER  WAITED FOR SOME ONE TO CALL ..
IT HAS BEEN UR BIRTHDAY  AND U WANT SOME ONE TO CALL U BY TO WISH …
SUDDENLY UR FAMILY CALLS TO WISH U LAUGH..U LIKE TO HEAR THEM BUT U ARE LOST …THINKING FOR SOME ONE ELSES CALL…U JUST CAN’T  THINK ANY THING…IN THE EVE U REALIZE MAY BE THE ONE DOESN’T EVEN KNOWS THT IT IS A SPECIAL DAY..
SO U GIVE A BENIFIT OF DOUBT ..AND SMS ..
HEY TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY..WOULD U LIKE TO WISH ME..
THEN U WAIT …NEXT DAY COMES AND ENDS ..STILL NO  CALL BACK.THEN U FEEL AWSOME….U WANT TO THINK SO MANY THINGS ….FEEL ..LET”S CALL AND ASK WHAT MIGHT HAVE HAPPENED ..BUT THEN THERE U ARE .THINKING WHY NOT .A SINGLE SMS…IT HURTS BUT THEN U THINK ..I DONT EVEN KNOW THE ONE REALLY GOOD ENOUGH ..THERE  IS MILES OF DIST BETWEEN BOTH…MAY BE SOMETHNG HAPPENED …SO U CALL BACK THINKING MAY BE   THEIRS A SURPRIZE WAITING ..OR U ARE CONCERNED WHAT HAPPENED ..WE TALK REGULARLY…WHAT HAPPENED ????BETTER THING IS JUST TAKE UR MEAL AND THEN GO BACK ..TO SLEEP …THEIR IS AN OFFICE SHIFT TOMORROW MORNING..BUT JUST WHY  HASN’T  ANY ONE CALLED ….APURVA