Its different!!!
Hi,
How hard it is, sometimes, to trust the evidence of one’s senses! How reluctantly the mind consents to reality.
- Norman Douglas
some things are there you feel you should have done before. If you know you have to do it then why to give it a second thought. Its more dangerours to be silent then to do. For a silent mouth doesnt mean a silent heart. It keeps on grumbling. I should had have written this post yesterday itself.. but some how i kept off..it took its toll.
Its hard to face a fact, to accept life is one and only thing that is necessary but a man generraly doesn’t like to accept it. I have been attending some really good lectures on economics and trade since last week. last two days i had a lecture from a very learned person, but there was a big difference in this one. Sir was having physical issues… but he was there teaching and briefing us..i was there just there next sitting in front of him..i was attendign the lecture but my head was disturbed ..” if it can happen to him it can even to me..he had his knowledge to keep him going, what am i having?
this question was one thing that my mind could not let go. I have been stunded by the practicality of the situation..its easy to say every such person is normal , i dont feel a different but its wasnt that easy for me to accept the truth. he had his magic that when i listened him his appearance did not matter. but some times when my concentration broke and i looked at him, it kept on shocking me. Its not easy to accept it.. i have been acting normal, i am not i had started grumbling , carelessness took me over , i woke up late, reached office late, did irregular work, today worst of all missed my weekly run. its was shocking for me, for todays run was very imp for me. and i missed it , and you know its hasnt been like me to miss my daily run that too on
this is what i wanted to write about the happenings, it was stupid of me to think so much on it, it was my first experience with such a person, i ll adjust soon. you must have some one to talk too.abut such matter.otherwise it really hurts hard. now my head is not getting off of it, and i dont have a way to take it off either, but i realize one thing , if it is , it is. I can not do anything about it, what is importent for me is my life, my day , my work,
if i cant escape a ghost , then i must accept it and move on, i have to work for better standerds and better life.
what best i can do is just live it, my life is importent, my run is importent, i have to do the first things first , god will bring peace or a way to it, my head if can not rest due to a disturbence, then it has to be realized that if not today , then it wont tomorrow either, simply because it just doesnt know the way, if it knew if would had have spoken yesterday itself, i cant live in a hole and say its dark, if its dark here, then, move on, its not here means its not here, go on to a next destination, its not promised the answer is there, but atleast its better then sitting clueless, may be, may be answers are waiting there, but one thing is certain ,they are not here, lets go…….
Apurva
