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During 1967: When asked to a janitor at Kennedy Space Center- what is he doing?  He stood with his legs crossed leaning on his broom and said, ” I am helping us go to the moon”.

A  very odd view got developed in our country, developed countries are better. The racism struggle was going on even till as late as 1987. Several of american states took that long to approve laws which gave equal rights to afro-americans. But still they made it a point that the country as whole must never go down. Even if there were difference, none carried, was allowed to carry acts which hurt the progress of the nation as a whole. Effect! Even with the differences if the country/ economy/ agriculture are growing- everyone grows. You think you are being exploited- OK! think of the diffference your own voice will make if you are prosperous against you, one, who has no resource for himself.

A  socially challenged person, who keeps on mourning for his exploitation. Can be of 2 types-
he keeps on asking for help, gets/ not gets help.
he develops himself, earns for himself, raises his voice towards exploitation. A different world in whole, for him and his decendents.

Martin Luther King Jr, had pointed out a great prospective to his people- we all together have money more then the 10th largest economy of world. Now if such a force goes on for an exchange together- is a really powerful force.

We like to put forward a point: we stand at our place and don’t do anything. I find a lot much of guilt in the statement.  Think of the guilt that: a man working in mines in latin, must be suffering, several of them find highest degree of exploitations carried over on his family. He can not speak either. His condition can result in more pathatic situation then of ours. Guilt: Not guilt but a better present has to be the driving force. Brakes only help to control, accelerators are the one which speed us up.( both are never on the same pedal)

We don’t speak up, because we are morally/socially not protected by government.  Does that mean, we can not go ahead and help some body else in need.

Schuller teaches: A field with crops is always better then a field without weeds. Instead of removing only weeds, try to plow your field.try to grow in your field.

We want to remove corruption, change the world. Remove all the weeds in the world. People need to eat, survive-if  they will not get food easy, they will get it otheway. Why not to try to build a better world by doing our work best, by doing better work.

There is great proverb which runs around: You only live in the world you wish to.

Politicians come from society, society comes from youth, youth comes from colleges and schools and streets, they come from our homes. Change ourselves. Everything will change. You can’t be same and get something new. New comes when we are fit for the job. I am a strong believer: I get only what i deserve, so when i want something more, i have to change, adapt to what i want, qualify for it.  We will get better, when we get better.

The benchmarks are made, they never were always there. There is no problem. Its just we don’t want to look at the real truth.
Let us look at the problems we cry on:

Education: we have more colleges and school: then any other country, still no of people who become really educated is very less.

Unemployment: The sectors in which we are concentrated: have  among the highest professionals in the world. IT: Highest professional: INDIA, Law, Financials: Manufacturing as some more, physicians. Infact, Our dear Developed countries: don’t have even equal no of professionals in these sectors( they insourse indians). (are these the only sectors in the world?? Developed contries don’t think so)

Overpopulation: First India is being projected ahead, because of its population, only country with the proper number of manpower there in the world.

I just came to know  a detail( i had some how missed it) about Kiran Bedi’s  Tihad Endeavour: Sh was not there on a promotion: She was there under deputation. I just had missed it. I just had.

And the last thing that i will say on this matter. Don’t you think everything is connected.
We have people who need jobs, we also have people who need education, we also have people with money, we also have need for new development projects. We need good politicians, we also have youth who want to change the world.

We need technology to change our rural world, we also have technocrats.

Its the old indian problem: In orissa people will die by hunger, and in punjab we will have rodants ruining grains. Doesn’t it hit a chord.

…………Apurva

Dear Friend,
It starts, it just starts up. you have to apologize. It starts with that. It has already started. Though one thing did amuse me..why in the world will somebody not write back after receiving critique. There is a nice theory, Grid analysis. One of the basics of it is handleing critique. You have to be open to every word which comes to you(we are good at it) but what is more importent is- replying it back and ready for an answer to hit it again and contineue the process untill both the parties reach to a common ground. It does not mean one compromises and pulls back the feelings and our actions it means: development, we are humans not computers( that is what i use this site to convey, i don’t talk about the world, i don’t talk about the lives, personnal or official). Look at my posts from a point of view of- how  our brain works.

I don’t suggest that the western or eastern or southern culture is better then us, i only have suggested an analysis that allows us to think freely without allowing our preconceptions to interfere.
The only thing for which i have ever praised the american society has been their exercising of their freedom to act as per their instincts, Freedom to choose- is what i have only explored through there posts. Americans or smeritians or japanese are not better then us, they are not superier, they are not over developed-
The only difference between us and americans, germans, japanese is - FREEDOM TO CHOOSE, FREEDOM TO ACT, FREEDOM TO PERSUE HAPPINESS.
It is not that we have had not been given these by our consititution, but  we do not exercise them freely, everyman who has risen about a level  has/ had a unique personlity, we do not exercise that.
We use the things that have been passed to us by previous generations without asking our heart: do i want to follow. They were not wrong when they used those convictions, no my lady! they did their best, i just want to say, today the things are different, i just want to tell you, they did their best, but did not succeed.
Remember??? Persuit of Happyness( not the movie)- “Chris!  You can’t be miles davis co’z he has already got that job”.

A lot many of us do not agree,  those who want to try track the present and past of South america, you say we are developing, track them on, they are dying with hunger, you talk about people dying due to terrorism, their they  still die like slaves: and i am talking about post WW II world.  I am talking about 2008 not 1908.

You come to me and say: We are developing i will tell you:  you have a house, you have a security. Out there in the world: No : 2003-2008 3,00,000, people have died in a war of territorial conquest in Darfur. You tell me about man killing another due to race, religion in india: 1994: Rwanda, 8,00,000 people were massacred: man to man, only to curb etinic differences. The world has watched it happen, we talk about our being developing.

Those who call First world developed, our forfather’s have watched, japan reach ahead even after lossing everything, and if keep on being the same, be rest assured we will stand watching, Latin amarican countries(Ecuador, Bolivia, Guatemala, and Paraguay) becoming the next japan. Evo Morales, Rafael Correa, Fernando Lugo, Hugo Chávez Frías these are the leaders who wake up every morning with a bullet named for their skull and they knew it since the day, they started working.
Don’t you tell me that we are developing m’dam. Coz, world does not think so either. It is jsut that we don’t care.

A world is being made out there every moment by common man, Bolivia has just passed it’s new constituion, that is called courage, standing in front of gun and still making lasting change.

I ain’t not preching here my lady,  i am a mechanic- i don’t qualify. I am just creating a diary, one which will stand by me when and whenever i need it So that i don’t get lost of my own dreams and freedoms whenever i go down. 

Happy Valentine’s day
Apurva

Hi,I received a comment on my last post. Too bad this side doen’t allow discussions.
Was not different then what i had not heard before. But the language did stuck me. Bad time comes, we crib to god…..things start going good…i shouldn’t have cribed….next minute things changed

AMAZING.!!!!
I did have been told and taught this thing by my family, close friends and some strangers(The auther of the comment is not at all addressed here). But the answer—–THAT’S LIFE.

Its one thing, that i have been unable to accept, weather it has come from my family, friends or anybody else.
No comments but i just am unable to accept it as life. Life is not a situation, where we just drop in. And the cycle goes on. I know somehow it is incorrect. I don’t know how, but it is incorrect.
We own our lives, It just can not be just life. There has to be more to it.
…Apurva

Reasons don’t make up the world. That is one thing that i am starting to learn. When i started to write here, well i was, 21, i guess, looking for an out from my full time job and its stress.
Where was i! Yes! i had started this post way back. Trying to write all the time, I have been planning a computer since then, so that i can write day and night, but money stays at its place. I keep on doing things.
Too, many things are there, i have asked God to bless me with. I think may be he has given them too, but may be still i am learning, so i don’t know. My closest possibility of a girl friend walked away from myside and i could not understand, for one year atleast.

I have been seen in different colours by everybody. Several say i am slow, some have said they have seldom seen a man quicker then me. Several say i am stupid, some say, they could never find a better decision maker then me. But all the time, i have remained alone. Those who liked me, walked by, who disliked me- i walked them by. Life has just went by.
Very soon i will be 25. I still stand at a point of uncertainity about myself about my life.

Several questions are passed on to me- marriage, career, market, decipline, health, world peace, maintainence, learning, women, girls, investments, sex, what else… only god and i know what else.

By several standards, i am heavily questioned, about all of them i have rejected as garbage. But that does not resolve the issue, its like you can say  the pack is headed noth instead of south. But still the winter will be  here soon. Flying is necessary. That is what the question is.
Winter is near by?? I don’t ever understand which questions to ask. I can find the answers, but who will write the questions.
Do i am the one who writes the questions too????

….Apurva

You all may think what is going on, but i will explain later. It’s a repeat day, you know some times you have to go back, to end.

Its been some thing, its been a heart it has been lying there..
it still is ..difficult to understand ..but it is still there…
alienation,
it can bring disastrous results..more disastrous if you just come out
of it…just like a kid who had been convicted when he was just 10
..and now he comes out of it when he’s 22…..and he watches too many
people around him..too many feelings …there…
i have tried to express it..but its difficult….but lets say if u can pour it out what’s the issue….
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with the setting sun
i still look at the rising star,
remembering that just around the corner,
there is a heart still crowned with loneliness,
i love the sun,i do love the moon,
as i walk with wind,
dream and run just as the birds fly by,
still when the sun is about to set,
still when the moon is about to rise,
and the moment when the shadow is larger than my heart,
for a momemt may be,
i realize, I have a heart,
lying in the street of loneliness,
and a stranger is passing by…Apurva