aday’s blog

Stand my love, Stand with me,

Today untill tomorrow, untill i get immersed in sorrow,

be with me,

I will jump, jump again into the blood that i am,

Unto then my love stay with me,

Hold me, hold my hands, when i am about to fall,

Hold me with your smile,

hold me with your eyes

When i burn again,

hold me closer to let the heat die.

When i will burn  a world a world apart.

Walk with me my love,

I wish to grow a new start,

I wished to delay, but the moments are never held for far.

I will stand, just be with me love,

I wish to keep the new start.

When my soul- falls in dispare else the devils burn the space,

stand with me, for i only wish to make a new start.

Just when i walk the soil and the mist of dust

Stand with me, lonely! Don’t let me fall apart.

May God be with us foreve and ever………….

……..Apurva

To hate is difficult, when you know  that to love is better.

But the feeling seldom lets go of you. Seldom do you ‘not realize’ the fire burning you up. To philosophise is easy, easy to say- just do it. For some, may be, things are just snaps of the fingers. For some may be moments are just a matter of memory. For me, it’s been hard.

Justifications, reasons, logic, sense, love, what matters the most, you, I, importent….Lots of words, lots and lots of words, i heard them all. i have lived the pain of them all. Today even after so many years- only one thing remains visible all through this crap.  Those who say these words again-n-again, i know one thing about them, they are not me.

The best man who gave me a solution to all this, who could tell me why??..Convert the fire within- That person, i have yet not met.

But yes, i must thank those who have been with me, the best they could give me was love. It has been this love that has kept me alive and smiling. Encounters with past, the fire never came down. the fire is still burning. What i own today, is a seprate section in my heart which has the showers and smells of love, smiles.

I don’t want to delude myself, by saying after this encounter, the fire will be off, but this is just a test, have  my angels and I loved each other. loved so much as to supress the devil within, to keep the fire where it is, but not to burn the new flesh that today i am.

Mein dard nahi, muzhko ek pal aapni baahoan mein chupa lena.

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Dard ka mukam chode jo aarsa hua,

aaj phir teri aankhon mein,

muzhe mera bachpan dekhna hai,

Jo piroya tha ek khwab, aaj phir muzhe

tere daman mein  uska dard dekhna hai.

Aarman nahi sath tere safar ka,

Lekin pal bhar ke liye,

shamshan ka aaj bulava hai.

Woh musafir to nahi milenge,

khwabo ke khoon ko phir ek bar dekhna hai.

Is lamhe ko dard me chupaya tha meine aanganro mein.

Aaj lauta hai tu, aaj lauta hun mein,

ek pal me safar hoga, ek pal mein tu nazar.

ek pal me safar hoga, ek pal mein tu nazar,

dekhana hai, ki khoon ki mahak aaj bhee taza hai.

ya samandar, ishk e jindagi mera humsaya hai.

………………………Apurva