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पल के लिए - मेरे वक्त आज कुछ और गम हैं

December 27th, 2010
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किसे कहूँ कि तेरी,
मर्ज़ी से हुआ,
था मैं सफर,
हर मोड़ मेरी मर्ज़ी से हुआ|

कौन कहता है कि मैं,
मुलज़िम नहीं
हैं ये कदम मेरे,
था वक्त मेरा,
जो मोड़ लिए,
वो खुद मैने लिए|

अब बैठा हूँ,
दरक्त से दूर,
सोचते हुए किस ओर
छोड़ आया मंज़िल
किस लिए?

शायद कभी,
तैरना सीखा नहीं
शायद कभी,
समंदर पार का सफर किया नहीं|
शायद ख्वाबों
को देख कार चूमा नहीं
शायद, जो मैं देख कर हैरान हूँ
उसका ही नाम जिंदगी हो|

बैठा हूँ दरक्त से दूर,
साथ ना अरमान  हैं,
ना कोई नज़र
सिर्फ मेरी परछाई है
और कुछ पल,
तोड़ने को तनहाई
उन्हे  पी लेता हूँ
दर्द हैं वो सभी,
लेकिन साथी हैं|

……………..अपूर्व

 

फिर कहीँ

December 27th, 2010
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एक बार फिर, एक मोड़ आया
हो बेख़बर, बन अनजान फिर चल दिया|

सोच कर चला था कि तू रहेगा साथ मेरे
सोच कर चला तो कि देख कर मेरे अरमान
तू  साथ चलेगा,
हो बेख़बर,
बन अनजान फिर चल दिया|
 

अब हो काफिर चलते हैं  कदम
मोड़ पर ठहरते नहीं
हर दुकान से गुज़रते हैं,
किसी गुल को निहारते नहीं|

लेकिन छोड़ तो आए हैं गुल,
तू बेख़बर, अनजान चल तू निकल तेरे गुल कि तरफ,
में खड़ा हूँ इस मोड़ पर,
यहाँ से मेरी मंज़िल कि ओर
भी एक मोड़ में होगा,
अकेला ही सही
लेकिन मंज़िल हैं,
शायद वहन कोई और हमसफ़र होगा, शायद|

……………….अपूर्व

                          
                      

existence

December 21st, 2010
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Good Morning,

I am walking my way towards the bus stop. Suddenly, I find myself looking at a machine.  Suddenly, I am looking at the high rise buildings. What was I looking for, I mean, under every condition I had to go and catch my bus. I mean, the buildings weren’t even connected with me. They were kilometers away from my house, kilometers away from my office.  But nonetheless they made me happier, I was smiling.
They were memories. Memories, that i have somewhere in my mind. Good memories. They made me remember of the good times I had. They were a part of my mind, just like when I sit down quiet to access my current situation and find a new way ahead. Whenever I sit down, I sit quietly and try to access the present, past and a probable future. Future- where I will lend up, what should my steps, present- how much happy I am, and past- where I was. 
Now this post is mainly about past. About Memories.
just to share with you. I am a normal person.  And like us all, i have, good memories, bad memories and times about which I can’t say, what they are. They pass by and I say “normal times”,  ”Nothing special”
and so many times I realize whenever I move back to access my past, I realize that I have stored mainly bad memories Memories that had something unwanted happening. 
What I just want to say is; Have we tried to keep good memories with us?  Have we tried to keep the achievement with us, The good times- the family gatherings, the time spend with a beautiful girl, or the  moments we spent searching sand or may be a mountain, when we were loved, when we loved. 
 I watched “heroes”  last month.  I liked the opening of one of the chapters.  It talked about memories.
“The private assortment of memories that we choose, defines us”
The memories that we remember the best, live the best, mind keeps them alive, considers them as important( because we read them again-n-again). and builds all around them. They are the “most favored” mind cells. So mind too keeps on creating around them; assorting new memories according to these favorites; creating another floor of our life as per our choice.  So!  if you are thinking good, you will have a good floor in your memory apartment. if you are thinking bad, you will have a bad floor in your memory apartment.

This is what defines us and our future too.  I heard that future is not written. Yes! it is created with every memory we choose to keep but can be demolished with a change in patterns. So watch out what you think, what you remember. You can’t choose your experiences but what you remember out of them will define your future experiences. 
So, if you had a bad time yesterday and you are feeling down today. Wait for a second and try to find a few cheerful moments you had yesterday. Something will change. And yeah! today in the evening, take a minute, while you travel back to your home, and remember a few good moments you had today, that is all. Your day tomorrow may change. And if does!!  I would suggest, you take an hour out this weekend & go through some good memories. You know, rebuild that old memory section that hurts you. 
For every frown there is a smile. You just have to look the right way.
… Have a good day ahead. 
…………..Apurva 

The rhythm

December 17th, 2010
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With each beat, I paint moments,

A time when sun will rise

With full pride, brighten up the sky.

With each beat mist will subside.

 

My flute will design wings

to pick you up;

Dear drop! To take you

to your holy journey.

 

Pick your heart up,

prepare to leave with me;

I guide you, towards an unseen sea.

 

A route filled with birds & warmth,

brothers from rivers & falls.

awaiting to mix with our song.

Even clouds are designed,

For you to rest & feel.

 

Look at these painted adventures.

The rocks to meet

Fishes awaiting a kiss

And turtles needing your touch.

 

 

O drop! Leave sorrow behind,

The pond was built for this day,

And so was me.         

Free our souls!

Listen to my call, rise

We all call, O beloved!

Waits, the moment called life. 

Awaits here another child

December 16th, 2010
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Upcoming series of poetry is pure inspiration from what I experienced in Karnataka,  the beautiful land, people, culture and off course the music. Sounds which feel inspired from the forests and the rivers.

Sending my love to the land, nature and the people.
Awaits here another child
O mother! I  travel
over the rocks & the sands,
My heart singing, calling
Seeking you inside,
writing, bowing, praying,
over the creeks, inside the huts,
travelling along the coast line.
O mother! I travel 
over the plains and the jungles,
My soul feeling and smiling,
seeking your light, 
kissing, drawing, singing,
among the trees, next to springs
travelling days and night.
O mother! I wish,
you come over and bless our streets,
teach us love again,
O mother! appear from the deep blue sea.
…..Apurva 

Pen

December 14th, 2010
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Hi,

What to write question always haunts me. Which topic should I touch? These questions can take a lot out of you. But then I remember,  important thing is to write. Not what you write. I don’t mean, write scrap. But When you know that you won’t  cross the line. Then write. What comes is always good ( until intended)..
Short poems.. short words. write anything. I mean write everything. How else do you progress….by practice.. that is it. No other truth exists. Do and it will be done.
….Apurva 

Destinations and dreams

December 9th, 2010
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What it takes to change your life? 

A dream? but what does it take to realize a dream. it takes courage (and a lot more)
I used to feel, if I could challenge the world, challenge it’s structure.  I can gather enough inner strenght to make my dreams happen. It worked a bit.(only)
I am finding it( the hard way) that more then the strength to challenge the surroundings, What is needed  more is the courage to challenge myself. 
The first one to react is me. Anything that happens because to my actions, first affects me. The way my defense, offence, memories, emotions react and learn from it.  I mean, you can fight with everything in the world( loose or win) but if the challenge is from inside, what would you do?
Nothing too much. You can leave the course or  force yourself to stay on. That is not called realizing your dream. 
Very easy to slip behind the walls of schedules(which do not matter), rituals, hardship, money, relations as many walls you wish, the negative inside will generate. Changing you into something that you don’t like but you become.
I did jumped off a cliff and then closed my eye wishing to avoid the rocks below. It is dangerous, stupid but is is not abnormal. We all do that. I did that, still do that. But it is not the human way, the human way is face your choice with your eyes open, watching the rocks as they approach  towards you.
Not easy, yes! but if you are dreaming, Be ready, because’ it takes a lot. I don’t know what actually it needs, in fact I don’t even know which is my dream.  That is the way it goes, confusion leads to clarity.
and I am a lot of underwater. Lot of confusions. 
But then again, if  we did not try, what is the meaning of dreams?
……………Apurva 

Back again

December 4th, 2010
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Hi! 

It has been a long time since I published anything. 
I will be writing again, very soon.
what is it that I have in store.
1. some poetry written with inspired by Classic Kannada music. 
2. a few other poems on love, loss and music.
3. A new article on grain management( this time onwards, I will post regularly on this matter)
    the unfinished(half published articles of “unions…” 
4. a new version of “unions..”, to make it applicable on any small area.
5. and may be a new section/blog(not yet decided) - showcasing African countries; could be anything culture, structure or economics, but it will be a poetry.
So hold on! I have lot of stuff on paper. 
with smiles.
..Apurva