Last post. Spare me a heart.Loneliness, some say is a curse. I have recently started reading a person. Who has may be defeated the same. It gives me-inspiration that loneliness doesn’t mean death. But, it nowhere means, i plan to pursue it, i am desperate to get out of the circuit.
I am not afraid now of being alone, i don’t love it, but if i have to stay alone for a certain period of time, I am no longer planning to live in dark. The red rose i used to write about, it is still pending but no longer in darkness, numbness, laziness but in the form of energy i plan to convert it into my strength..
Apurva
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Chapter closed.
I loved the rain,rain took a chance at me.
It started pouring love,
forgot to have a glance at me.
Sent in flowers, and lots of kisses wet in love
Standing with wet streams,a heart already at sea.
It was held not together,
but i tried to pull along,
made a few calls,
reminding the canyon, shouting empty at me.
It’s hard not to feel the touch,
But its difficult to embrace the pain
I loved a lot shallow or deep may be,
But still loneliness shouts like a stain.
Empty i feel, lonelines still stays,
today the rain will fly again.
I will love it better, alone
what if i still remain.
……………..Apurva
Aab ishk ki sirf hasrat hai,
Shayar ke khyal mein,
sirf aarzoo hi baki hai.
Shayad mera khayal khud mujhko nahi.
Aab to khyal sirf zameen hai.
khote khote, dhundhata raha,
dhundhate dhudhate puchta raha,
aab to mera sirf khyal hi baki hai.
ek muskurahat ke saath keh gaya,
baghban teri nazar nahi.
dhundha raha,
shayad shahar mein meri kabra nahi.
un surkh lamho ki bhee ek tamanna jagi thee kabhi
shayad, teri bhee zarurat nahi.
Ek zameen hai shayad,
ya phir bahte zhoko ki hasrat
Hamsafar, jo aasman tha,
aaj hamnashi so gaya,
Mein aab dhundhta nahi,
samandar bhee janisar ho gaya.
Jo bhee hun,
mein sirf khayal nahi,
iskh tuzse na hua to kya kalam,
zindagi ka ek lamha aabhi baki hai.
……………………………Apurva
If It was meant to be love,
One forgot to let me know,
I stood in the sun,
And it just let you go.
I waited, may be you had been told.
Some one forgot to remind,
I was supposed to knock on your door.
None of what happened repeated back and again
you are lost for ever,
I am here, thinking how to live a bit more.
It is hard, but may be truth is straight,
Love ain’t no emotion,
It’s just a music score.
It’s just a music score.
……………..Apurva
Words create words,love creats loving,
Was just there reading a fella ilander.
felt like adding up..
writing to remember…
aalam mein tanhai,
zarurat to bagh karti hai,
ishk ke siva nazar,
is bagh mein tabassum aur bhee hai…
Mein kis khayal me khoya,
teri nazar ko dhundhata hun,
ishk ke siva,
zamane me safar aur bhee hai.
Kis mod par kiska hal iska ho jai,
Hamari taranum mein
ishk ke bina shabnam aur bhee hai.
….Apurva
I will write a later,I need to do a bit,
Still i keep on coming back to you,
Thinking i can write my heart and life with you.
I know i belong, a town not in this hill,
I know i stand, a bird, flying a sky in the sun,
Still i keep on coming back to you,
May be there is someone ahead,
May there is a peace that is born inside,
May be this is the peace that lies inside.
I write, but breath a sea,
I write again-n-again, but the peace comes
far away- with the smell of sweat and love.
I stand again, i love with two.
With none, standing loving,
still far away.
…Apurva
Smile and forget that we even knew each other. Smile and forget that there ever was a someone called us.
Its simple, just forget that ever there was anything called us.
Its simple, leave the last letter that was written.
So now! just go out, and ask for me,
I am not there standing for you.
Its happiness,
It belongs now with us.
……….Apurva
Its a small game,Wake up and take her name,
Close your eye,
And ask her passing by,
Add a smile,
have her sit by you for a while,
It will all come true,
If you loved her the best,
It will all be real,
If you loved her the zeal,
I too planned it the other day,
Line one halted me,
Still could not get her name,
Even till this day.
……………..Apurva
Do a bit, I won’t punish you tomorrow,
Live a bit,
I won’t try you tomorrow,
Sing a bit,
I won’t scold you tomorrow,
Smile a bit,
I won’t anger you tomorrow,
Dance a bit,
I won’t earthen you tomorrow,
Just, love a bit,
I will love you back in sorrow.
…………Apurva
How much can i love,
I think as much as heart i could hold together.
How much can you love me,
I know as much as heart i could gather from you.
I have had my limits,
today and yesterday.
I know you will have yours’
I won’t mind, you have held with me everyday.
I know, i am a bit different of a kind,
May be i can’t start loving the way you need,
but i know you understand, and don’t mind it anyway.
We all learn, i do a bit slowly then you,
We all laugh, may be a lesser
But i still won’t stop loving you,
Hope your love remains,
I am ready to start my changing
but i can’t untill you need me as much as i do.
……………Apurva
