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Second thought: launch pad

January 21st, 2013
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As discussed in the earlier posts, I have raised my doubts on the current believes of life, I was, unfortunately, able to get the answer to the development we have made via technology and machinery as another type of system. the travelling particles.

Unfortunately, that gives me an idea of what the next question would be and what the next answer could be, so I as well should get away with them quick.
Somewhere in future time, we will grow more energetic, more advanced then today and we would need not to travel but still we could travel, in simple words - radiate life. Another system. I am still not demoralized to ask next question.
—————and i have lost this post too….(I don’t know what I wrote in there but above was retrieved)
next question?? ? ( I don’t know)
why are we? to run the system? this freaks me out. Lord would give me vision, thoughts, an art of shaping words, give me smile, give me feelings only to run a system? that freaks me out. I don’t want to catch that explanation. 
–let me refresh myself- I want to know the answer to the question-
why should I be going to my office tomorrow and doing what I do everyday? or for heaven’s sake do anything that I do in a day- wake up, cook, travel, watch movies, eat, sleep, read. 
For most of them, I do have an answer- to keep my imagination alive. I mean wasn’t it my imagination that brought me this post. 
Answering at least one thing- that I must go on- because that is how I can find my answers. If I was not doing things apart from eating, waking up, sleeping, doing my job. I wouldn’t have been here- asking these questions, if I was doing just that, SURVIVING as a middle class person. 
Okay, so I will change my schedule now. make it better, read, go for walk, go on excursions. because I need an answer, (I need lots of answers). 
why are we?
In fact, now I also can say, why should I excel in my craft, because that is what I know right now and If I stop then that is all that I will know, if I wish to know more, I got to go on. (That’s a win for my boss I guess :) )
cheers & smiles.
…Apurva
PS. the question still stands- why are we? The purpose of our being? The reason for our existence or the reason for existence of anything?
 

second thought: Evolution

January 21st, 2013
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In the last post, I talked about time and the reality(my respect) that it must pass on and that I must, in flesh, degrade with it. I also talked about the way the current purpose, as I have been preached, feels to me. And I also said, I am not feeling easy accepting it. 

I have a dual life, lives that can not match and also can no longer be separated from me. That means I am a rider of two boats both in different stream, in the same world, but different waters and they can not be separated. If they can be merged, I do not know of the ways. A few say, I am thinking more then I should. but then again, one can not return. what ever we have been taught, are being taught all says, in unison, only one thing- the universe is a system and everything in it has it’s place. that is what the current high profile sciences  are teaching us that is what our ancient cultures have been teaching us. 
but if that is true- why give us imagination? why give us the second thoughts? 
Standard explanation is- there are notches & there are loop holes. there are ends and there are ambiguities.
that is all very easy- if you accept that all is a system. a single system.  I don’t know if I am ready to accept that.
Why would lord give me the capability to see and interpret colors if it was not supposed to yield a beautiful moment. Emotions do have a place then; they can not be, just a byproduct of the system around me. 
what if all was not a system? 
what if we were not meant to be born and die only because we must. (as a result of a successful intercourse)?
what if we had a choice beyond what we know?
what if I don’t go to my office(only) to work and thus play my part in the system?
All was running well, if we accept the ’system plan’ until we learned to make machines, we speeded up the systems. all was again running well, until we learned to fly, all was running well, until we learned to travel in ships and planes. all was well until internet was devised. 
I, who was, somehow born to do my work as my ,inherited, systems worked. Today, roams in the world. Talks to people around the globe and talk of people around the globe. is not so. 
I know what the most advanced of you will say- the next stage, where molecules can travel carrying their energies. Another system. Oh yes, another thought to ponder upon.
(cont.)

Second thought; away! O clock tower, away!

January 21st, 2013
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People around me, friends & foes alike. have chosen their tracks. Satisfied or not, they have accepted the track they walk on and give it all of theirs. 

Second thought, if they have one, it reflects not in their dealing with the life. 
I on the other hand, still find second thoughts engraved in my mind. I try to convince my heart of the reality that is around, the truth that exists on the ground, in front of me. But it listens not. 
I know not that the people around me think about, me or my day but I know, that I am still a simple man. Apart from my excursions around the world, via words and thoughts, I still am a simple human being, yearning for the same life that everybody around me errs for. 
What to do with this second thought. Osho, in his audio’s once said- ‘mind; when it wants to avoid something, it pushes you for the impossible.’ [wordings not exact]
is that what is happening to me? is my mind playing games with me?
Life can not be simpler for me, I have learned of that. Words weave the world around, whether I write them or not. 
Everyday, i wake up, have second thought about my day. thoughts which bind me to my bed and to my room until the clock commands a decision and my brain chooses the logical option and my day begins. I like my best self thus goes on- lives the day or should i say- spends the time. until the hammer of schedule lightens and I am alone again. since the hours are mostly over, so is the load of clock. 
Then, I decide to die again, into my tomb knowing what the body and my brain leisure- food & entertainment. as the night falls. sometimes i wake up, sometimes I rest in peace. But the whole lies dead in the tomb. Everyday, I do the same thing. A day, like today, when I resist and thus break off the chains of schedule, break myself free. the brains but still lies dead. For it knows not what it must do,  except of cursing me for letting it out of its daily misery.
The sun has already traveled half the sky. The body yearns for food, or rather the mind wishes it to eat, to pass some more time, or to make me lazy again. return back to sleep, let the clock slip; so that it does not have to indulge in the tiresome job of trying to field against the unknown.
Another child of the middle class curse, spelled upon us by the monster of greed and the system of uniformity -’give them a bit of everything so they do not think or yearn for more but to remain in their zombie sleep; running, never out running, the system.’
But today, I am here, a bit away from my schedule. telling my brain- hungry, if I am; in pain, if I am; lonesome, If I am; guilty of not doing my daily labour, if I am; I wish differently. This post is, even if it turns out blank, an effort to find my route.
Second thought, that is what it is.
(I am typing with one hand decorated with a cramp bandage.)
Second thought.
 (cont…)

Grains of India

September 1st, 2010
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After so many days- I took my courage and decided to watch news again.
I been reading a bit. But frankly been avoiding the news since a month. What is the use if you are not going to work on it.

The news patterns have changed a bit. Got better.
The news was different for me. I found it better. I remember when there were only reactions by people. But here I could watch people taking charge of situation.

Several points that attracted my attention

The free distribution of grain- This is first time that government has been taken head on- constitutionally to distribute the rottening grain stores.
They gave their reason (same every year). But  this time they had it.

I did heard a good reasoning from officials- the cost of distributing free is too high. Infact their reasons given against against high selling price of the stored grain was quite good. But  if we take the example of past years and calculate the cost of grain that goes in dump  due to non-distribution. I am sure we can get a really low price for the grain that it wants to sell.  Take a reasonable amount of grain that goes to waste every year(which always happens). Consider that as a regular cost in it’s books and lower their current prices accordingly. I am sure the final books will show the goverment agencies reducing their losses. 

Just take the market value of grains we loss each year + the cost incurred in getting rid of that grain and find a reasonalbe price to increase it’s selling. (off course the goverment officials involved may feel  they would loose a lot of personnal profit; then again the increased number of commisions would make them up)


Second main point being put in question by officials is of reduced purchasing power of society.
That is a major question, that does comes in question whenever we wish to sell the grain purchased from farmers( at higher then market cost) to the market. I will say we(as government have put ourselves in jeoperdy).. please do read the next post.

I am realizing, lots of points have come up in last few months. Points, where we are not missing something  and loosing too..
CWG, Education bill.
Good news our growth rate increased last quarter.

I will be writing. ( my job search can go to hell, This is more importent)

See you very soon.

……….Apurva