Its Going Downhill…..

                                                                                                         31st May,2006  
If yesterday was bad, today was worse ..I still haven't won my friendship back and today a bit of the guilt I was fighting against yesterday has entered and settled itself inside me .i don't think its planning to leave very soon by evening, my results were out and I was not mentally prepared to handle my parents .they weren't angry, no, I cud have handled that .they were hurt .it was killing me to see them like that ..i had no explanation to give .it was all my fault ..
……..Like I had mentioned yesterday, the past week has been a roller coaster ride ..started off having a great time with my close buddies somewhere in between a relationship that ended before I could realize it and that nearly ruined a much more important relationship with a  dear friend .left me feeling confused and upset .i thot I cudnt feel worse till today when I found out I could! .i don't think I can sleep a wink knowing how I've let down the people I care for .i'm scared I'll lose the one assured source of support and comfort in my life .who will I turn to then? .but thinking about it isn't going to help ..sooner or later, I know things are bound to get better ..i just need to be patient and have faith .He will bring me out of this, wont He?