anonymouspoet’s blog

Some random thought blabbering .nothing related to poet’s life, just an imagination exercise.. J pic taken by Gunja

Exploring through my soul,

the rain poured dark and slow

in the shallows of my self

slipped drop by drop

sands of time running low

Mocking at the promises

which I have to keep

living every expectation

burning every emotion

sarcasm of time fathom a blow

Shadows of darkness made

Soothing is now the night

Shining sun outside my window

Straight into my eyes .

Moon has lost its glow

Someday .Sometime .

Another place when the sun sets

I can't change the past .

The future aint known to me

I live today the present is mine

Lemme walk in the rain,

Light the night with the moon again,

let the darkness flow .

-Varun

Ek ped ki kahaani bhi hum insaano ki kahaaniyo se kitni milti julti si hai….I realised this after I wrote something……

ek shehar hai sastaa sa, jahaan ki tamaam takdeero ke saath

betahashaa bhaagti sadako se ghiraa hua,

sapne daudate hain un bejaan si raaho par

ek thoontha ped rehta hai usi chauraahe par

main use saalon se dekh raha hoon

kabhi wo hara bhara hua karta tha

har koi apni khwaahish ka dhaaga uspar lapet jaata

umar guzaar di thi usne…..

logo ki khwahisho ko poora karne me

phir bhi maine dekha use ilzaamo ki baarish me bheegte huye

har ik patta jab bhi toota uski shaakh se

uski tees me wo khwahisho waale dhaage bheeg se jaate

daudate sapno ke dhuye me wo jhulasta raha

lekin baarish kam nahin hui

aur wo khada khada baarish me bheeg kar bhi sookhta raha

jab talak patte saath dete rahe wo hawaoo se jhagadta raha

garajta tha patto ki sarsaraahat ko awaaz banakar

aaj patte bhi saath chhod chuke hain

to dekhtaa hoon main…

khada rehta hai khamosh tez hawaao me bhi

maazi se jaise koi awaaz hi nahin, koi shor nahin

aur aaj bhi log khwaahish ka dhaaga to lapet jaate hain

magar de jaate hain anbana saa taanaa

ki ye ped kitnaa badal gaya hai

magar fark hai, ki uske jado me patto ki khwaahish waise hi saans le rahi hai…
aur shehar, jahaan ek ki takleef doosare ka tamaasha hai
phir se ilzaamo ki baarish kar raha hai
magar us ped ko farak nahin, kyun ki patto ko khone ka use darr nahin

–Varun

 Wrote this poem at Guwahati Ever since I have grown up and have known that love exists, the very logical question as to if there is a soulmate, has been a food for thoughts and a subject for my poems as well another answer to the thought..I give you.. "Humsafar"

Pic: Tawang Trip 2006

Kaaghaz, Kalam, Dawaat ka rishtaa shayar se bahut hi gehra hota hai. Ye wo zariya hai jis se ek jazbaat kaaghaz par utartaa hai aur in sab ke rishtey se ek nazm ban jaati hai . I give you "Kaaghaz, Kalam, Dawaat aur Main"

shayar ki kalam se toot kar,

ye syaahi bhi roti rahi

kaaghaz me kho jaana hi uska dastoor sa raha

ghazal ban kar shayar ki,

lapet kar seeli si aarzoo

chupchaap kaaghaz ke aagosh me soti rahi

khwaahish ki syaahi sookhne se pehle,

katra ktara bikharti rahi

kalam se judaai thi jo,

kaaghaz se milne par nikharti rahi

choom kar kalam ke labo ko,

syaahi ho ruswaa rukhsat ho rahi thi

jaise jaise shayar kalam badhata raha

ek ghazal bankar syaahi

kaaghaz ke chaukhat par dastak deti rahi

Kaaghaz ummeedo ka darwaaza khol raha tha

shayar apne dil ki baat

kalam dawaat ke zariye bol raha tha

rishta shayar ka kalam,

kaaghaz syaahi se zindaa ho raha tha

ban raha ek surkh afsaana,

pehle jo kaaghaz, sirf ek pulindaa raha tha

-Varun

While listening to music and walking down the roads certain thoughts and verses started to flood my mind and I jotted down in my cell phone''result was this poem' I give you 'Unns Ka Kalmaa'

Pic: Taken from a forwarded mail

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Ya khudaa tu itni mehar kar de

duaao me meri itna to asar de

harfo se main tere gham ko mita doon

meri kalam ko wo lamba safar de

Meri khudi ko tu aaj parwaan chadha

ki parinda parwaaz bhul jaye,

khuda mujhse meri razaa pooche,

aaj khamoshi meri awaaz me ghul jaye

Tujh se roshan ya khuda khudaai meri,

is bheed me akela nahi, sath mere tanhaai meri

Tanhaa Khushi sachh si shokh hasina meri,

doorr nahi ab milan se judaa judaai meri

Teri rehmat hai, teri justaju se hai

pakeezaa har rubaai meri

Ankhahi yaado me tujhko hi kehta rehta hu,

ansuni fariyaado me tujhko maanga karta hu,

maula mere, ik armaan mera sisak kar sajde karta hai

Dhoonda jisko zamin falak,

wo mera yaar mila de,

paaya jise nahi kabhi wohi hai khoya,

ki mujhko mera pyaar dila de

Saat janam ka milna gar na sahi

Toh bas ik uska sath har baar dila de…

Awaraa kadam chalte gaye,

unhe ye raaste juda se lage

Patharo ke manzar se guzre to,

har pathar jaise khuda lage

Tere shehar ke raste anjan kaha rahe,

guzra tha main inse fakat kuch arsa pehle,

ankho se inhi raho par tut kar bunde, dariya sa bahe

Aarzu ki teri jaise parastish kar li

dekhne aye dekho kitne diwane

Mehfil ka naam to mujhse roshan hua,

na milkar bhi mile do anjane

Dekhta reh gaya main piche mud kar tu chali gayi,

mere haatho me teri khushbu aati rahi,

main bahut der tak yun hi dekha kiya,

tu aaj talak yaad aati rahi….

I wrote this poem way back in Guwahati…pondering on a poet’s story..thoughts just flowed uniterruptedly …and the poem followed…I am resposting the poem…

Again, no relevance to anyone dead or alive…it bears no indication of poet’s mind state…

I tried giving thoughts to their words, I tried giving words to their silence, I tried giving salvation to thier inner most thoughts and thus “A story of a poet” through a poem itself….I give you “Ek Shayar Ki Kahaani” Hope you all agree to me!

Is anjaan se duniya se dard maine itna liya hai

maamuli se insaan ko ik shayar bana diya hai

kho kar bhi sab kuch maine khushi paayi hai

sile labo pe shabdo ki gaanth lagaayi hai

ansune lafz aapas me baat karte hain

guzaarish me sune jaane ki ye din se raat karte hain

maangte hain din beeta har lamha, ek nishaani to shayad mil jaaye

haseen shabnami shaamo ka dard shayad fir se khil jaaye

jud kar tootate khwaab aankho me sheeshe sa chubhte hain

pal pal nikla lamha ban ab mere dard dukhte hain

ulajh ke reh gaya hoon sawaalo me, mujhe zindagi kyun pareshaan karti hai

gumshudaa hai pehchaan meri is bheed me, maut mujhe kyun hairaan karti hai

apne aap se jeetne ki koshish hai meri, jeetne ko tarasta hoon main

ban gaya hoon sahil pe chhaya baadal, tumhari bhi aankho se kahbhi kabhi barsata hoon main

saahil bhi doob jayega ki aankho me itne toofaan liye hain

dil pe lage zakhm ab dukhte hain, ki meri rooh ko veeran kiye hain

duniyaa ne har khwaahish ki hai, ki mujhse mera ehsaas maang liya hai

hasti aankho me paani ki boondo ko kuch yun taang diyaa hai

hastaa hoon main wahaan jahaan ro na saka, ashko ne bhi saath yun chhoda hai

jaagta hoon main wahaan jahaan so na saka, neend ne bewafai ki, mujhse mooh yun moda hai

lekin…lekin andhera hai agar pehloo me toh

andheron se bhi roshan shaam main kar jaaoonga

apne khwaab ki khushiyon se auro ka daaman bhar jaaoonga

ghazal ban gaye shabdon ko ek din shabd main banaaoonga

shayar hai jo maamuli insaan use waapis main laoonga

–Varun

ehsaas bahut hain is dil me
ek ehsaas aur tu karaana zindagi,
thaame meri ungli, tu bhi
chupke chupke se, dabe paaon
mere ghar bhi aana zindagi….

Pic: Me and Tanu (my cousin)

Teri shabnami shab si zulfo par

aa ek fasaana likh doon

teri saanso se judaa, dhadkano sa madham

ek taraana likh doon

hoon bequaraar tere jhukti aankho se

peene ko jaam bhar

tabassum si khwaahisho se inpar

main deewaana likh doon

nashtar teri mohabbat ka,

hijr ki bewafaai nahin

aagosh ka paimaana likh doon

meri saanso me ghul rahi teri saanso par

hai chaayi bebaaq se bequaraari

apni saanso se dhadkano par teri

aaj ek zamaana likh doon

paas tu aa itna, ki kareeb sa bhi faaslaa na ho…

kaampte hontho se tere larazte labo par

mohabbat se zyaada aashiquaana likh doon….