31st October, 2012
Life makes you learn your own lessons with passage of
time and that too without giving you a realization of the same.
Last six month met so many people. All gender and of all age
groups. Knew about there life and about them. They opened up with me…..like
never before. My mind goes back to each one of them, recalls theirs faces,
talks with them and the different things related to them. Traveling and meeting
new guys makes so much of difference. Your mind sometimes gets stuck….the way
computer does once they have more then what they can act on. Surprising is even
after these encounter good and bad, sensible & non sense, existing and
lost….I still feel. I still think of all………I know will forget them with the
pace of life and only few will come along on the walk of life as friends or
professionally known people. But somewhere I have got a deep impact….don’t know
the depth of the same and till what time it will effect me or how much it has
already effected me …..now I take words very lightly and they don’t effect me
the way they does six months back.
Seen people so liberal with words but just words no other
involvement. It surprised me. Some don’t say a word but just their actions
speak more then anything can do…..this make me curious to understand them
The status, money and the profession of the person make a
difference but still your light pocket can not obstruct you from gaining
knowledge or thoughts. I met a driver who spoke so wonderfully and behaved
better then any educated man. Going through his vision of life ,his family and
dreams was a different experience. I felt once you have all the basic things
you don’t value them you want more and at any risk…..sometime at any cost….or
you don’t know whats the cost is.
In young guys seen two very opposite sides which just
obstructed me from making a biased one sided impression. Seen the way they gets
attracted for just physical beauty and the way their mind is clear for what
they want. The way a short relation being started and if its not as per their
plan its being ended. No if and buts no natural style of growing a relation.
Everything is tailor made otherwise not accepted. Like we go market to purchase
something needed with a set mind frame.
Seen people being more experimental with shopping.They shop
without thinking but they never smile or talk without thinking. They never
spend on anyone without evaluating the transaction but can pay huge bill of
branded cloths which they may not wear/need.
I smile when I think of people who came close in a short
span and who touched me, made me learn to be open and more transparent. Who
given me a vision that life is a temporary status and we should share and laugh
with people. This smile frowns when I recall incidences which made me wrong by
being an open book for others and too friendly a women to be mistook. Mind and
heart gets confused and debates what’s the right way of being in the world…..
secretive for others or open to them without doubting their intentions, without
scared of being judged.
Complex relations are increasing these days as people enjoy
the high they get out of it. The simple and straight things do not stimulate
them anymore. Every moment they want something new and this search makes us
rude too especially with soft hearts.
I hate this learning but yes I am loving this
growing…meeting people…..sharing their life and having my lessons even if I am
exposed to being judged misunderstood and hurted.