As I See It -Broadcasting my thoughts

lets put it this way– Thanks to an innumerable “what the f#@$ ?” kind of situations, I have turned into someone who is extremely lazy in getting things done and closing the same– say like adding a “full-stop” to the tasks in hand– one after the other.

Well last year, this very day, I was freakishly sick– and yet there were five commitments for the year. They were:

1. Someone freaks me out in the office… the solution is to “ignore” completely. I have waited for quite long, and now no more. It is time I put my best foot forward to protect my own integrity. Its high time
   
2. Something needs to be done by the end of the year– if not this year, it will never be again. So it would be done this time.
3. My Boss— I would not bug his head. Actually the point is, he is my Boss, and he has something called “Manager’s discretion”. So it is up to him to decide what is good and how to improve things- Not My Headache anymore.
4. Office work needs to be perfect this time. It is a fight to excel over what I had done previously. So be it product, be it subject matter (revenue assurance and credit risk management), or be it Linux— need to prove myself as the real SME.
   
5. Lastly, something on my plate— there are a couple of things I need to do for my own self– exercise and languages to learn. This time language is the first priority– even exercising for body fitness comes later.

Here is how I fared in these:

1. Achieved. 99.999 % purely achieved. Its time, this year to make it the perfect 100.

2. In hopes of greener pastures, this was completely ignored, and by the end of the year, the veil of “every-thing-around-is-good-and-happy” ws removed from my eyes, aand i have been brutally punished. This is the last year to achieve that– else, I’m screwed for life.

3. Well I know i give my best effort to achieve this, and it turned out he himself ate away my head — for literally not many faults of mine. 

4. i have given and proven to be the SME of Revenue Assurance in the company. No one understands RA as well as I do in my company– just that people are not ready to accept that. Some Great Men needs to dump failures to make themselves clean. That is not in my hands.

5. Missed by miles.

So it is 3 out of 5– a 60% achievement. — Bad score.

Now it is 2010, and somethings need to be be settled — once and for all.

1. Take back everything that was mine. If i had spent half the time I spent on and for the company on myself and my own life– I would have been in a better position and situation in my life. So this year– 2010 is about getting a hang on my own life– and spending at least 6 hours if not more for my own life– My own life is my studies, my blog and my achievements for future.

2. Office Hours is 9.30am to 7 pm — and a full stop after that. Office is NOT my second home anymore. Office is not the end of the world anymore.

3. Bring back my Good health and adhere to a strict routine– only to aid me to do EVERYTHING THAT I WANT TO DO– not what the company wants me to do. For the company, in the scheduled hour— have a strict routine as per the circulated KRAs. 

4. Spread and be cheerful with colleagues yet strict w.r.t work. There are some people in the nerd land. But gotta deal with everyone. The biggest point to achieve is NEVER TO FREAK OUT. Tough but gotta do it.

5. Save Every Possible Penny– other than buying books.– This year has been stressful in terms of spendings. 2010 needs to be the year of savings.

The Motto of the year 2010 is  there is a great need to outperform one’s own self– Learning is the process, perfection is the by product. 

For a very long time, I had not been in my own habits–

31 Dec 2008– The day in the entire year before which I was never more sick, and this continued on the 1st of Jan 2009.

Don’t know what happened: but it helped to take a couple of new year resolution:

1. Someone freaks me out in the office… the solution is to “ignore” completely. I have waited for quite long, and now no more. It is time I put my best foot forward to protect my own integrity. Its high time
   
2. Something needs to be done by the end of the year– if not this year, it will never be again. So it would be done this time.
3. My Boss— I would not bug his head. Actually the point is, he is my Boss, and he has something called “Manager’s discretion”. So it is up to him to decide what is good and how to improve things- Not My Headache anymore.
4. Office work needs to be perfect this time. It is a fight to excel over what I had done previously. So be it product, be it subject matter (revenue assurance and credit risk management), or be it Linux— need to prove myself as the real SME.
   
5. Lastly, something on my plate— there are a couple of things I need to do for my own self– exercise and languages to learn. This time language is the first priority– even exercising for body fitness comes later.

So wishing a Happy New Year to me, to start with!

(excerpt from the lost blog)

Blogging- the boon of the web 2.0 technology. This is a good place for people like me to spend some time with my own self.

It is not the first of my blog posts– I had been posting from my college life. But that was a separate blog. It was the time, when things like “heart break”, “loss of friends” and stuffs like that happened! I did not delete that Blog. It still remains!! It reminds me of those days in which I had been “hurt”. Good that I was hurt back then– today nothing hurts anymore. Basically that blog was more of “personal feelings posted” for people to read and comment –”trying to gather solace from outsiders” kind of idea. This time it is different. This is kind of reviving the way I used to see things!!. I don’t want to write something that sometime later I would not be able to read– my handwriting is really bad! So, you may say this is the Mr.Diary kind of place for me, and this is the first page in the “diary”.

Thus for now, I’m ending with this start.