Self Awakening!

Well.. its 3:43 am on the clock… and m all jus wide awake, knwing nt wat to do.. felt i shud scribble smethin in the middle of ( gonna be sunrise soon) .. wee hours! my mind s totally blank nw.. i ve never stayed awake for this long… last time..i actually was awake the whole nite was durin my thesis day.. and its been a year and a half frm then… At this point of time..i feel at total peace with myself..ready to forgive myself for that i ve been thro d day.. life seems so strange at times.. d things once u desired.. are nw of no more interest.. i alwez wanted an Ipod.. and i got it.. but i dnt use it much often… the desire s jus no more.. i ve alwez wanted to be surrounded with frenz and ppl.. but off late..i prefer being alone.. its jus tat, i find sme kind of peace.. tat solitude…tat lonliness.. the silence that evokes all mist feelings.. s a kind of stress buster to me.. i dnt knw hw far it works wid others. Offlate i wanted to do things which i have alwez kept away frm doing.. for many reasons, my mind s like one junkyard filled wid so many unexplored paths ,,,, sme hesitation to accept reality .. its an illusion to sme, maybe.. but the truth is… hw many of us have tried to satisfy our soul..rather than doin satisfyin our egos! smetimes..m nt true to myself, why do i have to convince myself….harsh reality smtimes plays deadlly wid our lives tat the mask may have to worn thro out the life… hw i wish, i cud be a child again, careless and yet free like a bird , wid dreams and hopes of a never endin fairy tale. i used to literally believe in santa claus.. till my sixth grade, and all about tat fairy..who gives money for broken teeth kept under ur pillow. wen i think of them nw.. its almost a trip down the child hood lane. well being an adult, given its adavantages.. the life i lead s almost stressing me out.. deadlines.. politics… corrupt.. and i cant jus run away like tat..and i held myself responsible for such a life. i knw wat it takes to turn around TO A BETTER LIFE..and M GONNA DO IT CAUSE M WORTH IT! its 4:14.am nw.. guess m nt gonna sleep.. m already feelin on a high jus by thinking of a new day ahead of me.. and m gonna live it to the fullest! no matter wat.. itz ma life. well most of the people must have gone thro situations..wher you feel the need to change and rite nw m goin thro those phases… m nt tat practical wid my thoughts, coz i dream a lot..the transition may be a temporary phase but m looking forward to a being a better person at soul and heart and most of all being true to myself and to trust myself , i definitely wanna lead a holistic living at the end of the day! m rite nw lisenin to DiDO s… the best day of my life and.. it seems so true…

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I got out of bed at all

the morning rain clouds up my window and I can’t see at all

And even if I could it’d all be grey, but your picture on my wall

it reminds me that it’s not so bad

it’s not so bad


I drank too much last night, got bills to pay

my head just feels in pain

I missed the bus and there’ll be hell today

I’m late for work again

and even if I’m there, they’ll all imply that I might not last the day

and then you call me and it’s not so bad

it’s not so bad and



God I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life

Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life



Push the door, I’m home at last and I’m soaking through and through

then you handed me a towel and all I see is you

and even if my house falls down now, I wouldn’t have a clue

because you’re near me and



God I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life

Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life