is it better to be a bird or human???

As i wake i went straight in my balcony. it was 5:45a.m. My life was was aimless. i had nothing, lost everything…i had been in love with her from last 7years. i could not spend even 1 day without her and today i had to live without her….Its true…love is just like wind- you can feel it but cant see it. she now lives in some other country and here i am left in India. how could i live without her presence, without her care, her smile….as i was thinking i saw a bird in the sky…a bird can fly wherever it wants. I asked god- “why didn’t he made me a bird?”. she used to live in a flat which is visible from my balcony. when she was here she used to see me from her window. now that same flat, the same window makes me cry, makes me realize that she has gone…gone far away. Its not that my love can get into pieces just because she is away but last time when she met me she told me that now she wont come back and her eyes said that don’t wait for me…i still remember those happy days, even the day when she asked me “mujhese kabhi door to nahi jaoge na?” she had tears in her eyes i wiped them and she hugged me tightly as if she felt that i would go away. and today she is the one gone….If god didnt wanted me to be with her all life then why did he crossed our paths in this journey of life???