though people generally celebrate their birthdays, every year they feel sad at the end of the day, feeling a bit older. with the approaching birthday, what i feel is that the lost things over which i would cry are not my age, or colour of hair. i am very sad that i have lost all my childish manners, my smile and my energy of a youth. i would like to get back the optimistic childhood or sweet adolescence. 

it is very surprising most the days i have written diary are the saddest days of my life, but it cann’t be possible that nothing happy has happened ever, but people easily forget it, and remember always the sad incidents