It has been a long , forlorn wait

Yet hope flickers, convinced that its not too late

One day the heavens would open its gates

And shower their blessings

Merging our fates.

Once more brightly the sun would shine

Fighting its way through the dark dismal night

Flooding our minds with light

Warming our hearts with its heat

Once more melodiously the bells would chime

Creating waves of happiness far and wide

Spreading around the enchanting mood

We shall unite. your hand in mine

Happy once again, beneath the nitid moon

i close my eyes

yet I see his smiles

I shut my ears

Yet his voice sounds so near

I try to build a wall

Around my heart

Lest he should try and break it apart

But fruitless effort it is all

For where is the heart

That it would break into parts

I shut my mind

Wanting to leave all his memories behind

I touch my lips

With my fingers

Feeling the warmth of his breath

That still lingers

I pull my blanket

Hiding under its covers

Hoping to banish his presence

Which still hovers

Together my wrists I tie

From reaching out to the phone to dial

I stare hard at myself

Telling that I am strong

But deep down

I know I am so wrong.

He is not the one to look back

And see the destruction that he left behind

And so I continue to mimic

The motions of life

Hoping someday God would be kind

Evening descends

Wrapping the city in its cloak of darkness.

The silent shadows jump and leap

As loneliness keeps me from my sleep.

It is a sad and still night

When I realise the hardest part.

That I am all by myself

Nursing a broken heart.

So easily he walked away from me

He doesnt realise just what he did to me

He doesnt know how much he hurt me.

He lives his life

Smiles his smiles

Just fine without me.

Each hour .. each minute

When my mind knows that he has gone

No one knows the heartache

As I try to carry on.

I wont shed a tear

For obviously he was not happy to be here.

I want him to give back the memories

That once made me smile

He  continues to linger in my heart

While each passing day reminds me

That our lives are miles apart………..

Your feelings for me are dead

It makes my heart as heavy as lead.

You dislike me

Or even maybe hate me.

The tears that i have shed

Doesn’t compare to

The anguish and pain

That my soul has felt.

Why was your love a lie?

Leaving my heart to bleed and die.

Based on misunderstandings

Your reasons were all lame

And for the hurt you dished out

I will never again be the same.

Hope you are happy now

Free from my love

That weighed you down.

The hard lessons of life learnt

Has left me dry eyed and burnt.

So I turn around

And walk away

Say my goodbyes…

I will never stop loving you

I would only try and learn to live without you.

Tears would always stain my eyes

Even though i wear a smile in disguise…………………

Since I felt that I belong.

Its been so long

Since I saw your smile

Heard your footsteps cover that extra mile..

Heard the whisper of ur voice           

Felt your arms embracing me

Its been so long..

Since I felt the warmth of ur breath

Saw the twinkle in your eyes..

All my longings vented through one deep sigh

Was it your

Or was it my choice

To let the love slip by

Is it less of a bother?

To never again set eyes on each other ?

All the images and memories

Have been washed away

All the love gone bad

Turning my world to black

And now my bleeding heart

Cradle of broken dreams

Beats on and on .

Without a reason to be………..

Under the star studded sky

I dance alone in the night

The moon holds me close..

The night embraces me

As my feet move with the rhythm of the wind

I dance within the darkness

Hiding in the shadows

I hear the whispers in the breeze

So soft and lovely

The music flows

And then I hear the rhythmic beats of the rain

A star blinks through the veiled clouds

I dance for pain

Hoping there is still love to gain

Tears mixed with broken memories

Spilling on to the ground

As I twirl around.

Wrapped in the arms of the night

As the clouds erupt

Into waterfalls of fury

I dance all alone

Till theres no dance left in me……

In the trapped darkness of my loneliness
Heart and thoughts fade away
I crack open a space in my mind
Where i keep my dreams
Hidden and locked inside
Revealing bright colors and gay patters
And sounds filled with laughter
I sweep away those dreams
Like dust under the carpet
Sometimes for the briefest of time they become
Fantasies filled with life
But when I seal the crack
I am left alone
Trapped in the darkness
Struggling to hold a dream glowing and gone
A lifeless dream
scattered into the winds that howl…….