Soliloquy- Tribute to a Friendship???!!!

NO I don't want anyone who don't understand me .Who don't understand my feelings .who don't care for me who don't pick my call or even sms me ..After calling you for 4^th time and sms-ing u for 5^th time u msg me saying that u were at a party I give a sigh of relief thinking u might'v had a cocktail party after which u normally don't speak to me But then u call up to say it was not that sort of party, it was with your cousin and family just a casual get together .U said u didn't want to speak to me in front of them hence delayed Y u didn't understand me??? Y u didn't feel my tension (U said u have immense pressure 4m your work side as if its a Month end to meet ur targets .)That was as a slap on my face A slap for my foolishness A slap for my thinking that u were my best friend What do u mean by friendship then??? U need to check time , date and horoscope to speak to me ???? U need to make sure that nobody is near u to speak to me???Why????

Did u ever think what I wouldv felt when u told me this???

2 days b4 u were bit angry to me as we couldn't complete our talks as my parents came after purchase. It was u who had taught me not to speak on phone with anyone  when my family members r there with me U said they shouldn't feel disturbed of our talks as I don't spend more time with my family- (Im working) But I had never ignored u. Be it good or bad Be it  a smile or a tear .Busy or idle Be in a hospital or enjoying a vacation. I had always managed to speak to you .To share with you .I don't have waited for time or date or numerology or sun sign to speak to you.

This is not for the 1^st time that u r hurting me U had hurt me earlier also Hurt to the core that it started affecting my personal and professional life. No one .no one till this time had hurt me like what u had .Even then ..at an instant of ur call I wud 4get everything .i would hav got a volcano ready to burst .burning my heart .but I could not let anything to u earlier I was flooded with tears but when I felt it upsets u more Iv managed to stop that atleast infront of u When I care u more, u say u don't like that even if its from ur sister or father When I care u less, u say I'm not interested in our friendship So if I felt discussion between us could sort this problem ..u say I m highly sentimental and u r not at all interested in that and u abruptly cut the call. Obviously u wont meet me as others would see us. U always wanted to maintain a secrecy about our relationship Why???…..Tried to find an answer but failed .U r smart enough to keep it unrevealed . Whatever be I'm really exhausted .I had always thought I am smart enough to understand others feelings and always had relationship only with whom I can gel with. I was so proud that I didn't had bad times in any of my relationship ..But !!???….Now I know I am wrong U had shattered my whole belief with which I had build my individuality .I don't like disturbing others .whoever it be But till 2day I was not sure what u had felt each time when I call u or see u (Of course  not always) .I don't know how much u can understand my feelings .but its true its really hurting me when one of your most valued belief shatter in front of u .so simple as a sand house which gets washed away by the tides .intolerable da .excruciating . 

But above all Why did I again come to you after all these ??? You had some qualities which I like the most I had always felt –to like somebody is to like them as such including their goods and bads And till now I have tried to maintain that in our friendship too But I cant stand this any more Thanks for everything you have done for me for enjoying all my boring talks and thoughts .for coming with me to my friend's house at that late night .for consoling me in my days at hospital when I was a bystander for my sis-in-law and many many fond memories which u had left for me Thnxxxxxx a loooottttt da M—-iiiiiiiii ..