my scrbblin’s

global warmin?
darnd liars!
it’s gettin colder
here
for me,
every year
every month n day
without u,
ur warmth..

u showed me this place
when we passed by here;
u said u loved it
n i said that was queer.

we cudnt stop here that day
n years hav passed by since;
i remember em all, every bit,
n how i teased n made u wince.

that was me then, stupid n silly.
but of all the souls who passed by me
none cud see thru my absurd wit
the way u did, i’m proud to agree.

so i’ve come all the way
to stand here today;
n i wish i cud stay,
here, evry single day.

miles and miles
of dry cold sands,
an endless oblivion
and high wold lands.

trapped in this circle,
an orbicular horizon,
where darkness rises, sets
and turns stale and wizen.

even so, i’ll move on
if you tell me this,
that this is your shadow;
not darkness nor abyss.

a sleepless night
passed quite quietly
immersed in thoughts
and memories sweetly
cherished and kept
alive, though lightly,
in the very depths
of my heart, silently..

i remember that walk with you,
a long long walk on the beach.
we never looked at each other,
near, yet out of each other’s reach..

you never looked at me that day
perhaps coz you weren’t sure
of what to say or would happen
or just wanted to feel more secure.

our journey has always been like the wind,
knew where it was headed but could never change.
and so, all of sudden, as that season ended
it changed course and set off in a direction stange.

it’s been long, but i think each day
why you never said those words to me.
you knew me so well and how stupid i am,
slow to realize and feel your love for me!

dear, wat hav u done?
u went away without a word.
gave me all u had,
hid nothin nor deferred.

and wat hav i done?
never saw ur love for me.
late, even when i’m sad,
n lost, wat else can i be?

i kno no words can bring u back
i kno no words can change the past
nor b good enough to b even said
yet i keep comin back with more

perhaps coz they give me some hope
perhaps cos they try to tell you
that i was a fool to let u go
n so i keep scribblin some more

all the while u wer with me i never realized.
n now it’s too late.

ur gone..
n all that u said hav come true.

i guess i knew u loved me..
but never that u loved me so much-
more than ur life.

i understand, now.
but u leave me with no choice.
come down once, tell me wat do i do now?
come down jus once,
so i can look in ur eyes,
n tell u- i luv u too.

i see u werever i look today;
thought this happens only in movies.
i hear u voices at evry corner today;
never thought somthin would take me like this.
i feel ur fingers runnin through my hair;
wish i went blind or never could open my eyes.

i miss u more each day
miss u much.. so very much..

this day i remember u
a li’l more than i always do.

(i know u never liked it so
but ol’ habits die hard)

n so on this day
the sixteenth of december
i write these this way
for all i can do is remember