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		<title>myths</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[For awhile now, I have been mulling over the idea, of writing on the topic of Myths&#8230;.while myths r fascinating, not to say the least, and any myth, will find scores of debatable issues surrounding it, what i find even more fascinating, is that many of these myths, if disected through and through, have at [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><BR><font size="4"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">For awhile now, I have been mulling over the idea, of writing on the topic of Myths&#8230;.while myths r fascinating, not to say the least, and any myth, will find scores of debatable issues surrounding it, what i find even more fascinating, is that many of these myths, if disected through and through, have at their base, certain very intriguing truths attached to them.</span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Myths do not ofcourse stand rational questioning&#8230;so they r often scoffed at or at the least, met with amused tolerance, by those given to logical thinking&#8230;.and there r those who very simply accept it as THE TRUTH for the simple reason , that it has come down from generations&#8230;., that it has been advocated by Great minds&#8230;.and therefore, it has got to be true and there is no questioning the wisdom of ages&#8230;..This is one of the reasons why Myths get labelled as &#8220;Superstitious Beliefs&#8221;, by the logical thinker.</span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; I have always maintained that in the face of the Harsher Realities of Life, Man turns out to be the most Vulnerable of all creatures, simply becoz, he is the one creature, that is AWARE of his vulnerability&#8230;.the human mind is the one entity, that realizes its vulnerablity, in the face of the inevitable realities&#8230;the mysteries that the whole phenomenon of life is shrouded with..and therefore all the more difficulty in coping with these REALITIES&#8230;That brings me to the point&#8230;..<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">THE NEED TO COPE&#8230;..</span></span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Science ofcourse explains the Objective World&#8230;&#8230;governed by&nbsp; mathematically precise principles.But our world is more than that&#8230;..the inner Subjective World of thoughts , feelings, aspirations, fears&#8230;&#8230;the driving forces underlying the Core of our existence&#8230;&#8230;.What about these&#8230;..?..It is here that <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">the need arises&#8230;to find&nbsp; Answers that have to match the innumerous Questions that arise from within.Here is where Myths play an important role&#8230;..</span></span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> I therefore look upon Myths as the Direct Result of our attempts to understand the world around us and the world within us&#8230;&#8230;.</span></span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Seen in this light, Myths, whether eastern or western, Hindu or Greek or Roman&#8230;..they seem to cater to but one requirement&#8230;Man&#8217;s need to cope with his needs &#8212;&#8212;physical, emotional,spiritual, even intellectual&#8230;.., thereof leading to a desire to better understand the world around him.Which brings me to the most important issue in question&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.Do we blindly accept every myth as the Eternal Truth?&#8230;..or do we scoff at it clubbing it&nbsp; as Blind Belief?&#8230;</span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; I wud say..NEITHER attitude does justice to the sacred nature of these myths&#8230;</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">&#8230;.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">THE FIGURATIVE ASPECT&#8230;</span>&#8230;.that is what we tend to miss out on&#8230;.<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">If these myths r looked at figuratively, then there is neither need for the scientific mind to scoff at it, nor is there need for blind faith&#8230;&#8230;<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">For figuratively speaking&#8230;&#8230;</span></span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">these myths serve as windows to Eternal Truths&#8230;&#8230;&#8230; </span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">I am going to borrow&nbsp; at&nbsp; this point this passage from Devadutt Pattanaik, which illustrates to some extent , the point which i am trying to make&#8230;.</span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">&nbsp; &#8220;The story of virgin births and parting seas&#8230;&#8230;. in effect is <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">advocating the existence&nbsp; of an entity who is greater than all forces of Nature, put together&#8230;</span>&#8230;.. A God with six heads, and a demon with eight arms, <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">projects a Universe where there r infinite possibilities, for the better or for the worse&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..</span>.and so on&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.&#8221;&#8230;&#8230;and so <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">every myth is a Treasure trove&#8230;&#8230;.containing&nbsp; answers to many of the mysteries that plague our mind , from time to time&#8230;&#8230;..</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">.we just need to look that much deeper&#8230;..and with broader visions&#8230;&#8230;..</span></span><br style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">It is not&nbsp; my intent in writing this post to stir up a debate for or against myths&#8230;.just that seen in a proper light, myths have answers to many questions&#8230;&#8230;and i intend delving into these realms further&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..</span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></font></p>
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		<title>24-A  DIALOGUE</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:52:40 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[&#160; DEBY: Jen&#8230;&#8230;u r more critical of our religion than any other&#8230;..usually it&#8217;s the other way round&#8230;.&#160;JENNY: I know enough about other religions, to be able to appreciate them..I do not know enough about them to be able to be critical about them&#8230;.The religion into which I was born&#8230;.I know it through and through&#8230;..i am [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><BR><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">&nbsp; DEBY: Jen&#8230;&#8230;u r more critical of our religion than any other&#8230;..usually it&#8217;s the other way round&#8230;.</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><font size="5"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br />&nbsp;<span style="font-style: italic;">JENNY: I know enough about other religions, to be able to appreciate them..</span></span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">I do not know enough about them to be able to be critical about them&#8230;.</span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">The religion into which I was born&#8230;.I know it through and through&#8230;..i am therefore aware of all its plus and minus points.</span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">&nbsp;While I appreciate the many gud aspects&#8230;&#8230;i am in a position to be critical of it too&#8230;</span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></font><br />&nbsp;<font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 153);"></span></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: U tend to bend more towards Hinduism&#8230;&#8230;..</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><font size="5"><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">JENNY: What I know of it, is in keeping with what I believe in&#8230;..it is incidental&#8230;..</span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: What about the rituals and superstitious beliefs&#8230;u r so analytical otherwise&#8230;.</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><font size="5"><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">JENNY: In many of these practices..if u go into the origin of these rituals&#8230;.I find there was a scientific basis for them&#8230;&#8230;..which was not quite understood by the common man, of the time&#8230;.so maybe those who understood the relevance of these rituals, put it forth ,with a touch of religion&#8230;.which the common man understood better&#8230;..tell him to do it in the name of religion..it made sense to him. &#8230;scientific explanations did&#8217;nt&#8230;..</span></font><br style="font-style: italic;"><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: They worship the snake&#8230;.does that make sense to u?</span></font></p>
<p><font size="5"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">JENNY: If u notice Naag panchmi co-incides with the harvesting season&#8230;..The snake is a friend of the farmer&#8230;&#8230;it keeps rodent population down&#8230;..A farmer loses more to rodents than to anything else&#8230;.So in effect, the snake is a natural saviour for the farmer&#8230;like a God&#8230;</span></span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: What about the no. of fasts that they keep..in the name of this and that&#8230;..</span></font></p>
<p><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">JENNY: Abstinence&#8230;evry now and then, is good for health&#8230;.Fasting occasionally helps clear the body&nbsp; machine&#8230;flushes out toxic components, that accumulate in the body&#8230;.Even the different food items that they prepare for every festival&#8230;&#8230;it is connected with the prevalant weather conditions&#8230;.Ever heard of the&nbsp; neem bath, they take at ugaadi?&#8230;Ugaadi co-incides with the on-set of summer&#8230;..and neem is good for heat-related problems&#8230;.what better way to start the summer, than with a neem bath that helps beat the summer heat&#8230;it is so soothing&#8230;&#8230;.and having a tulsi plant in the vicinity&#8230;.tulsi&nbsp; is high on medicinal value&#8230;. also a good air-cleanser&#8230;..what better way to </span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">ensure its&nbsp; proper care than to entrust it to the woman of the house&#8230;.plus whether anyone cares to admit it or not a family&#8217;s welfare very much revolves around the woman&nbsp; of the house&#8230;.make her go round it a couple of times in the early morning fresh air&#8230;it works wonders for her health, both mental and physical&#8230;there&#8217;s a lot of wisdom and knowledge hidden in these so-called superstitious practices&#8230;&#8230;</span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></font><font style="font-style: italic;" size="6"><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><font size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: u&#8217;ve got an explanation for every ritual of theirs..????</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font></font><br /><font size="5"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">JENNY:No&#8230;I&#8217;ve read about a few things&#8230;it makes a lot of sense to me&#8230;..The rest ..there must be some explanation&#8230;One has to delve deeper&nbsp; to get at the facts&#8230;</span></span><br style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: what about superstitious beliefs&#8230;mirror cracking&#8230;cat crossing the path&#8230;..</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">JENNY:Yeah, there r many that make no sense&#8230;..one has to learn to distinguish between what makes sense and what does&#8217;nt&#8230;.but there r very interesting stories about how these originated&#8230;..that&#8217;s why it&#8217;s important to know the origin of these things&#8230;.u know what to follow&#8230;&#8230;. and what not to&#8230;</span></font></p>
<p><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY:What about Islam?&#8230;Dont hear u speak of it often&#8230;&#8230;</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">JENNY: The few Muslim friends I have , have a heart of gold, Deby&#8230;.That&#8217;s all I know of Islam&#8230;..And if these friends of mine&nbsp; are anything to go by&#8230;then Islam must be a great religion&#8230;..Tried to get a copy of the Quran in English, many times&#8230;.though&#8230;did&#8217;nt manage to get one&#8230;.I&#8217;d tried learning the Urdu script, u know that&#8230;.Ofcourse that was becoz&nbsp; i had gotten interested in reading the original manuscripts pertaining to Mughal history from the National Archives&#8230;..Had I learnt urdu..I might have read the Quran&#8230;then maybe I cud speak about it&#8230;&#8230;</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY:What about the Purdah&#8230;.?</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">JENNY:Well, if the woman in question is more comfortable in a purdah, than without it, that&#8217;s fine&#8230;..tomorrow if i felt the need to wear a purdah for some practical reason, I&#8217;d surely use it&#8230;&#8230;but if it were to be forced on me, in the name of social etiquette, then NO&#8230;!!!!&#8230;..then it wud be more of a statement on the males in the society than anything else&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"></font><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: And what about Polygamy&#8230;?&#8230;Some of the people in the neighbourhood&#8230;u know how it is&#8230;.</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><br /><font size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-style: italic;">JENNY: For one thing, a person can love more than one person at a time&#8230;there r so many nice people out there ..if u have ur mind and heart open&nbsp; u can very well fall in love with anyone who touches ur heart ,cant u?/&#8230;.why deny it&#8230;?//though u dont have to marry everybody and start a family with evrybody,,,,nor can u indulge in getting physical, with evrybody,&#8230;&#8230;practical problems wud ensue., which a person cannot handle&#8230;&#8230;so&nbsp; common sense shd prevail here and this applies for everybody&#8230;,muslim or otherwise&#8230;&#8230;even the desire for a male issue&#8230;.lets not debate that&#8230;it is something very personal&#8230;.But if the polygamy thing is a sign of MCP-ism, then definitely it &#8217;s a question, to consider , is&#8217;nt it?/</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-style: italic;"><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-style: italic;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Actually,U know . after the Holy War in the Gulf, Polygamy was advocated inorder to equalize t<span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">h</span>e male-female ratio in the society of the time&#8230;Some of these practices were introduced as solutions to a period-based problem.They shd&#8217;ve been erased with the problem. Unfortunately, they have outlived the period that they were meant for.</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-style: italic;">And there are those who take advantage of that&#8230;..</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-style: italic;"><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">But i do so love the biryani prepared by my Muslim friends&#8230;and the puran-polis from my Hindu friends&#8230;served to me with so much love&#8230;it&#8217;s great to live&nbsp; in the midst of such diverse cultures&#8230;I am lucky to be an Indian&#8230;.and the Urdu shayaris&#8230;the Ghazals&#8230;..Even where clothing is concerned&#8230;..I have such a wide range to choose from&#8230;..the salwaar-kameez, when I feel like it&#8230;the saree..there&#8217;s such grace in it, if draped well&#8230;.there&#8217;s no other apparel that can beat it, is&#8217;nt it?/</span></span></font><br style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0); font-style: italic;"><br /><font style="font-style: italic;" size="5"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">DEBY: but u&nbsp; r in ur jeans or trousers most of the time&#8230;</span><br style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></font><font size="5"><br style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">JENNY: Comfort level, Deby&#8230;..U have to be comfortable in what u wear&#8230;&#8230;that shd be the deciding factor&#8230;not somebody&nbsp; else&#8217;s whims or fancies&#8230;.</span><br style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0); font-style: italic;"></font></p>
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		<title>23-Jen&#8217;s innermost conflicts</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 01 Apr 2009 16:32:01 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[    &#160;from Jen&#8217;s diary:&#160; &#160; &#160; &#160; &#160; &#160;&#160; All in all, when I look at the 
people around, I find their attitude towards life,just 
right&#8230;.. &#8230;&#8230;..they are not too analytical&#8230;their 
analysis, of things ends where their own 
requirements end&#8230;&#8230;.beyond that they could&#8217;nt 
care less&#8230;&#8230;.and they&#8217;re happy&#8230;.never taking 
anything too seriously&#8230;.u&#160; find [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><br />&nbsp;<font size="5">from Jen&#8217;s diary:</font>&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;<font style="font-weight: bold;" size="6"><span style="color: #FF0000;">&nbsp;</span></font><font style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;" size="6"> <font size="5">All in all, when I look at the </p>
<p>people around, I find their attitude towards life,just </p>
<p>right&#8230;.. &#8230;&#8230;..they are not too analytical&#8230;their </p>
<p>analysis, of things ends where their own </p>
<p>requirements end&#8230;&#8230;.beyond that they could&#8217;nt </p>
<p>care less&#8230;&#8230;.and they&#8217;re happy&#8230;.never taking </p>
<p>anything too seriously&#8230;.u&nbsp; find them </p>
<p>everywhere&#8230;.wherever u go&#8230;&#8230;.they survive </p>
<p>becoz they r like&nbsp; that&#8230;.be it matters of </p>
<p>principle&#8230;of dealing with people&#8230;..with </p>
<p>incidents, with their own feelings..their </p>
<p>beliefs&#8230;their religion and their work&#8230;&#8230;..I try&#8230;I try </p>
<p>to be like them&#8230;I do succeed many a times, but </p>
<p>the inner self asserts itself&#8230;the undercurrent of </p>
<p>intensity&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;that is not satisfied with mere&nbsp; </p>
<p>survival&#8230;..my sense of fulfilment comes from </p>
<p>giving the heart a full run, when it comes to </p>
<p>experiencing joy or pain&#8230;.love&#8230;or faith for that </p>
<p>matter&#8230;<br /></font></font><font style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;" size="6"><span style="background-color: #CCFFFF; color: #FF0000;"><br style="color: #3333FF;"><font style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;" size="4">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I cannot see God in the church&#8230;.rituals and formal prayers </p>
<p>have no meaning for me&#8230;., but in the things&nbsp; that fill me with </p>
<p>admiration&#8230;in man&#8217;s capacity to build bonds with others&#8230;in the </p>
<p>littlest of things, I&#8217;ve experienced HIM&#8230;.Tribute and thanks rise </p>
<p>from my heart&#8230;&#8230;..that is my communication with God&#8230;..that is my </p>
<p>prayer and my experience of divinity&#8230;. Joy and serenity have been </p>
<p>mine for the asking&nbsp; becoz they have sprung from within me, not </p>
<p>from without&#8230;&#8230;.U may never find me in the church evrytime u go </p>
<p>there&#8230;&#8230;.but I know I take God with me wherever I go&#8230;&#8230;.he is there </p>
<p>with me and around me&#8230;..in the people i meet..in the people I </p>
<p>love&#8230;&#8230;.in all of His Creation&#8230;.</font></span><font size="4"><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF; color: #3333FF;"></font><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF; color: #3333FF;"><font size="5"><span style="background-color: #FFCCFF; color: #3333FF;">&nbsp;</span></font></font><font style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold; background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;" size="5">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br />But there is the other side&#8230;&#8230;My mind has always </p>
<p>been of a questioning nature &#8230;.formulating </p>
<p>ideas,creating, editing, forever evolving&#8230;.never </p>
<p>stagnating&#8230;..in fact this is the secret of my</p>
<p>success in the workfield&#8230;.but my analysing </p>
<p>does&#8217;nt stop at that&#8230;..it extends to the world </p>
<p>&nbsp;around me&#8230;..to religion..to faith, to pain &amp; </p>
<p>suffering, both mine and that of others&#8230;.this is </p>
<p>what churns up the turmoil within me&#8230;.making me </p>
<p>experience Hell with an equal intensity, with </p>
<p>which I experience heaven&#8230;..If I do not tackle</p>
<p>this part of me&#8230;it might just take over&#8230;&#8230;my own </p>
<p>attempts r falling short&#8230;hence the need for </p>
<p>communication&#8230;.but anyone i think of talking </p>
<p>to&#8230;&#8230;is enslaved by the trappings of the </p>
<p>community he belongs to&#8230;thereby narrowing his </p>
<p>outlook&#8230;..what most fail to understand is that </p>
<p>one&#8217;s choice of the mthd in which one practices</p>
<p>religion shd be based on one&#8217;s stage of </p>
<p>development&#8230;the so-called guiding forces shd be </p>
<p>forces that enlighten, not forces that barricade,</p>
<p>within narrow perspectives. It is this tendency of </p>
<p>religious groups and of society that suffocate the </p>
<p>mind and spirit&#8230;.creating a so-called conflict</font><font style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;" size="6"><font style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;" size="5">&#8230;.</font><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #CCFFFF; color: #3333FF;"><font size="4"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><font size="5"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">&nbsp; Life has given me countless&nbsp;&nbsp; opportunities to </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">see the beauty of God&#8217;s creation&#8230;in the things </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">around me&#8230;in the relationships I share&#8230;.in the </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">music I listen to&#8230;&#8230;in the poems i&#8217;ve read&#8230;&#8230;.in </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">the profound thoughts left behind by people that r </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br /><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">gone&#8230;in the littlest of things&#8230;i&#8217;ve experienced </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">Divine Bliss in all these&#8230;.I&#8217;ve never failed to thank </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">God time and again &#8230;&#8230;my heart has soared up </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">countless times&nbsp; to God in tribute, in adoration, in </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">veneration&#8230;I&#8217;ve seen His hand in all the gifts He </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">has blessed me with&#8230;.all the qualities for which I </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">get appreciated&#8230;..respected or even loved&#8230;&#8230;..my </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">mind has never accepted credit for anything&#8230;my </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">heart has always admitted before God, that the </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">credit goes to Him&#8230;for He has made me what I </span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">am&#8230;.</span><br /></font></font><br /><font style="color: #FF00FF;" size="5">&nbsp;<span style="background-color: #FFFFFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I&#8217;ve had opportunities .of reading the best </p>
<p>that that there is to read and understand&#8230;..the </p>
<p>best works of man and God have never failed , </p>
<p>when it came to enriching me and above all, my </p>
<p>own experiences both beautiful and ugly, have all </p>
<p>been learning experiences for me&#8230;But I see </p>
<p>various other things which make my mind still </p>
<p>dare&nbsp; to look God in the eye&nbsp; and there looms large </p>
<p>between Him and me a very Huge Question </p>
<p>mark&#8230;..a Ques before which, Religion and Faith </p>
<p>crumble like empty promises&#8230;&#8230;..</span></font></span><font style="color: #FF00FF;" size="5"><br style="background-color: #FFCCFF;"></font><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF; color: #3333FF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #00CCFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; A very simple , tender , <br style="color: #00CCFF;"><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><span style="color: #00CCFF;">compassionate heart&#8230;coupled with a </span><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><span style="color: #00CCFF;">very harsh, complex mind, which </span><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><span style="color: #00CCFF;">becomes ruthless , when it questions </span><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><span style="color: #00CCFF;">established beliefs&#8230;.this becomes a </span><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><span style="color: #00CCFF;">very difficult combination to live </span><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><br style="color: #00CCFF;"><span style="color: #00CCFF;">with&#8230;..</span></span><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF; color: #00CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #3333FF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; The point&nbsp; is who do I <br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">communicate with&#8230;&#8230;The christian </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">tells u follow Jesus..the hindu says </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">&#8230;follow Ram &amp; Krishna..the muslim </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">will say something else&#8230;&#8230;.It does </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">not matter to me so much who I </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">follow&#8230;it is what I follow, that is </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">important&#8230;.i am not a bird&nbsp; to be </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">caged by any society, religious or </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">otherwise&#8230; I am a bird that breaks </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">barriers and soars high up in the sky </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">and explores all that there is to </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">explore in God&#8217;s beautiful </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">world&#8230;&#8230;but when I soar up there&#8230;..I </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">see not just the Beauty&#8230;..but the </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">ugliness as well&#8230;promises, real or </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">otherwise, of either earthly or </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">heavenly rewards, fail to motivate </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">me&#8230;nor would achievements of this </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">nature give me a sense of fulfilment </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">in&nbsp;&nbsp; its&nbsp;&nbsp; entireness&#8230;.I am always left </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">feeling hungry and thirsting for </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">more&#8230;&#8230;.Ive heard preachers </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">galore&#8230;..some of them do impress </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">my mind&#8230;&#8230;.I salute them from the </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">bottom of my heart&#8230;but the </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">rest&#8230;they make me wish for a </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">Krishna of the Bhagwad Gita&#8230;with </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">whom I could interact&#8230;.who could </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">meet my resistance with an inner </span><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">strength par excellence&#8230;&#8230;</span></span><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;">&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;</span></font><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF; color: #FF00FF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF;"></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[  &#160;&#160; Jen ki shikaayat&#8230;.
What the body requires&#8230;everybody is out to attend to &#8230;&#8230;&#8230;and they r satisfied about a job well done&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;What the mind &#38; heart require&#8230;&#8230;..they r heedless about that&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.
&#160;&#160; So friends, before we go into the episodes that ensued in Jen&#8217;s life&#8230;&#8230;a glimpse of what went on in her mind&#8230;&#8230;..One of a [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span> </span><span> </span><img src="http://ri.rediffiland.com/homepimages/home3/214/7f3d35810719645ef7872edc18190ee9/homep/images/1238424591" style="border: 1px solid #D1D3D4; padding: 2px; float: left; margin-right: 5px; margin-bottom: 5px;" vspace="0" hspace="0"><br />&nbsp;&nbsp; <font size="4">Jen ki shikaayat&#8230;.<br style="color: #000000;"></font></p>
<p><font size="4"><span style="color: #339999;">What the body requires&#8230;everybody is out to attend to &#8230;&#8230;&#8230;and they r satisfied about a job well done&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;</span><br style="color: #339999;"><br style="color: #339999;"><span style="color: #339999;">What the mind &amp; heart require&#8230;&#8230;..they r heedless about that&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.</span><br style="color: #339999;"></font></p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;<font style="font-style: italic;" size="4"> </font><font style="font-style: italic;" size="4"><span style="color: #993399; font-weight: bold;">So friends, before we go into the episodes that ensued in Jen&#8217;s life&#8230;&#8230;a glimpse of what went on in her mind&#8230;&#8230;..</span></font><font size="4"><br style="color: #993399; font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"><br style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"></font><br /><font size="4">One of a series of entries in her diary:</font></p>
<p><font style="background-color: #CCFFFF;" size="5">Divine energy is all around u&#8230;&#8230;allow it to flow&nbsp;&nbsp; </p>
<p>thro&#8217;&nbsp;&nbsp; you&#8230;..</p>
<p>u become an ex-pression of that DIVINITY..</p>
<p>.U become a beautiful part of CREATION</font><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF;"><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF;"><font size="5"><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF;"><span style="background-color: #CCFFFF;">Evil forces only deflate u&#8230;.! It is only Positive Energy&nbsp; </p>
<p>that makes U soar up in the skies&#8230;.In ur ability to rise </p>
<p>up is the secret to ur success as a human being&#8230;.U </p>
<p>justify HIS reason for having created U</span><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF;"><br style="background-color: #33CCFF;"><br style="background-color: #33CCFF;"><span style="background-color: #CCFFFF;">KHUDA ko toh mai bahut maanti hoon&#8230;uske bagair </p>
<p>meri zindagi nahi chalti&#8230;..agar nahi maanti toh logon </p>
<p>ke ibaadat karne ke tareekon ko&#8230;mere liye zyaada </p>
<p>zaroori hai, mere dil ki aawaaz ko sun -na&#8230;.is dil ki </p>
<p>awaaz mein chipi hoti hai kaheen na kaheen , khuda </p>
<p>ki awaaz&#8230;jo tumhein kabhi galat karne nahi </p>
<p>deti&#8230;&#8230;phir baaki mai altar pe candle jalaaun ya </p>
<p>nahi&#8230;kya fark padta hai&#8230;mai church jaaun ya nahi </p>
<p>kya fark padta hai&#8230;..?///</span></font><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF;"><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF;"><br style="background-color: #CCFFFF;"><font style="background-color: #CCFFFF;" size="4">The&nbsp; next entry&#8230;&#8230;.</font></p>
<p><font size="5"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;">Aaj ghar pe kuch aisi baat ho gayi., mai ro di&#8230;&#8230;TED </p>
<p>aaya tha, bhai ke saath&#8230;..he saw my&nbsp; tear-stained </p>
<p>face &#8230;. &#8230;.Ab uska sms aaya hai&#8230;..forwarded msg </p>
<p>hai&#8230;</span><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;">Agar aansoo na hote, toh aankhen itni khoobsurat na </p>
<p>hoteen</span><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><br />Jo dard na hota, toh khushi itni keemti na hoti</span><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><br />Jo maangne se mil jaata agar sab kuch&#8230;.</span><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><br />toh Khuda ki bhi zaroorat na hoti</span><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;">I wrote back to TED&#8230;..</span><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;">Yeh toh , kamzor dil ko tassalli dene ka aur bhi </p>
<p>kamzor tareeka hua&#8230;.The strong mind overcomes all </p>
<p>obstacles in its path, achieves its goal and then </p>
<p>thanks God, that without u God, this would&#8217;nt have </p>
<p>been possible&#8230;..for me , this is faith&#8230;and this is my </p>
<p>tribute to god, if ever there was one&#8230;.</span><br style="background-color: #FFFF00;"><br style="background-color: #33FF33;"><span style="background-color: #FFFFCC;">The suggestion that troubles and tribulations r meant </p>
<p>to keep u in touch with god&#8230;does&#8217;nt it rather raise a </p>
<p>big question about the Divine Nature of God?&#8230;that </p>
<p>he has filled the earth with such untold suffering only </p>
<p>so that his creation would be in touch with Him?////It </p>
<p>must be a weak mind that tries to justify the need for </p>
<p>suffering on this earth. For me, this would rather put </p>
<p>an end to my faith in God..in the Divinity of His Nature</span></font><br style="background-color: #FFFFCC;"><br style="background-color: #FFFF99;"><br /><font size="4">A THIRD ENTRY<br /></font></p>
<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<font size="5"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp; If given a choice,&#8230;what religion would I like to </p>
<p>follow?/// the principles&nbsp; that dictate or inspire my </p>
<p>code of conduct are essentially the&nbsp; basic principles </p>
<p>of every religion that is practised all around me&#8230;&#8230;I </p>
<p>do not subscribe&nbsp; entirely to any single faith&#8230;..I am a </p>
<p>product of the country of my birth&#8230;..with its </p>
<p>Christianity, Hinduism, Islam&#8230;and what have </p>
<p>u&#8230;.!&#8230;&#8230;.. I am also a product of the 21st century&#8230;..I </p>
<p>have a legacy not of Christianity alone, but of the </p>
<p>Krishna of the Gita, the Vivekanand whose </p>
<p>philosophies r timeless, the Sufi saints , the Rajyog </p>
<p>stream of thought, Akbar&#8217;s Din-e-ilahi,and countless </p>
<p>others including Tagore, Kabir, Tulsidas, Wordsworth </p>
<p>, John Masefield and several others ,both&nbsp; by-gone </p>
<p>and contemporary. Coupled with this legacy, my own </p>
<p>theories based on my experiences and experiments </p>
<p>with truth&#8230;&#8230;.I cannot be bound by any one school of </p>
<p>thought&#8230;.I need to work things out for myself&#8230;.. I </p>
<p>refuse to labour under any delusions&#8230;.. I wish to </p>
<p>strip&nbsp; the Truth of all these illusions &amp; delusions and </p>
<p>see it for what it is&#8230;&#8230;.What I see there is in total </p>
<p>contrast to what my religion tells me to see&#8230;in </p>
<p>essence, I am speaking of the concept of god, as </p>
<p>portrayed by religions&#8230;.this is in total contrast to </p>
<p>what my vision is showing me. &#8230;and it is this concept </p>
<p>that forms the basis&nbsp; for the faith &amp; religious practices, </p>
<p>right?/ After everything is said and done&#8230;I am but a </p>
<p>human&#8230;I need Faith, just as any other&#8230;</span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; This very need makes me write:</span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; God is but a complement of man&#8217;s requirements</span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Man&#8217;s need for God is in direct proportion to his </p>
<p>inadequacies&#8230;.</span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp; So the question is, Is he really the God one wishes </p>
<p>Him to be&#8230;..</span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; If one studies the happenings around </p>
<p>you, one is forced to believe that all happenings </p>
<p>around u r set in motion on a basis of, or rather a </p>
<p>principle of Cause and Effect. Purely&#8230;!! Every event </p>
<p>therefore occurs within this framework. What I find </p>
<p>objectionable is when&nbsp; ur&nbsp; religion expects u to </p>
<p>believe that things occur beyond this framework.</span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><span style="background-color: #99FFFF;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; If a guy &#8217;s bike went out of control and </p>
<p>he bumped into something and got hit fatally in the </p>
<p>process&#8230;the cause&nbsp; is surely the bike mechanism or </p>
<p>whatever led to the mishap&#8230;.now if u r going to tell </p>
<p>me that it happened becoz that was God&#8217;s Will, that it </p>
<p>was his Destiny, that we must accept it becoz that </p>
<p>was God&#8217;s will&#8230;now dont u expect me to buy that </p>
<p>story. Then I would question u about the &#8216;All&nbsp; </p>
<p>Mightiness, All Powerfulness&nbsp; of ur God, that u </p>
<p>profess to believe in&#8230;.and I would hate Him becoz he </p>
<p>did not stop the bike from collision&#8230;&#8230;Look at the </p>
<p>pain the mother and wife and child of that man is </p>
<p>going thro&#8230;..I would accuse ur God of </p>
<p>heartlessnesss&#8230;no, dont expect me to accept that </p>
<p>crap&#8230;I&#8217;d rather believe that God does&#8217;nt interfere in </p>
<p>these matters&#8230;.Cause &amp; Effect is what I&#8217;d rather </p>
<p>believe in and leave it at that.So then all this crap </p>
<p>about .&#8221;.have faith&#8230;evrything will get sorted out and </p>
<p>all these rites to appease God&#8230;oh none of it makes </p>
<p>sense to me&#8230;.these practices make me sick.. I </p>
<p>neither love nor hate ur God&#8230;..Let me find out&nbsp; what </p>
<p>He is for myself ..u believe what ur heart tells u to </p>
<p>believe&#8230;dont force ur belief on me&#8230;.</span><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"><br style="background-color: #99FFFF;"></font></p>
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		<title>17-gory details</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 23 Mar 2009 16:33:37 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[    Jeff&#8217;s niece&#8217;s wedding&#8230;.the wedding hall&#8230;...From her diary;&#160;I tried sitting in one place&#8230;.in a corner&#8230;..so that 
nobody would talk to me much..but then this doesn&#8217;t work out.From out of the 
blue..there&#8217;s always someone&#8230;I tried to make myself 
busy&#8230;.so that no one could stand with me for more 
than two min&#8230;But the children&#8230;I [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><span> </span><br /><font size="4"><span style="color: #3366FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">Jeff&#8217;s niece&#8217;s wedding&#8230;.the wedding hall&#8230;..</span>.</span><br style="color: #3366FF;"><span style="color: #FF00FF;">From her diary;</span><br style="color: #3366FF;"><br style="color: #3366FF;"><span style="color: #3366FF;">&nbsp;<span style="background-color: #FFFFFF;">I tried sitting in one place&#8230;.in a corner&#8230;..so that </p>
<p>nobody would talk to me much..</span></span><br style="color: #3366FF; background-color: #FFFFFF;"><span style="color: #3366FF; background-color: #FFFFFF;"><br />but then this doesn&#8217;t work out.From out of the </p>
<p>blue..there&#8217;s always someone&#8230;I tried to make myself </p>
<p>busy&#8230;.so that no one could stand with me for more </p>
<p>than two min&#8230;But the children&#8230;I could&#8217;nt keep them </p>
<p>in one place..they kept running about..and out of the </p>
<p>hall to play.How cud I leave them&#8230;..I kept going out </p>
<p>to keep an eye on them..to see they were safe&#8230;from </p>
<p>the shadows, Jeff suddenly came upon me..&#8221;.U r </p>
<p>coming out so often to draw attention u b*****&nbsp; !&#8221;he </p>
<p>said&#8230;Get into the car, just now&#8230;we r going home &#8230;.&#8221;</span><br style="color: #3366FF; background-color: #FFFFFF;"><br style="color: #3366FF; background-color: #FFFFFF;"><span style="color: #3366FF; background-color: #FFFFFF;">Damn the tears of mine&#8230;.they r never in control. </p>
<p>They just start spilling..I just went n sat in the </p>
<p>car&#8230;lest someone shd see me crying. He pushed </p>
<p>Diana n Roy in&nbsp; and got in after me . We came home </p>
<p>without taking leave of anyone&#8230;&#8230;with him abusing </p>
<p>me all the way..and the driver trying to pretend hard </p>
<p>he could&#8217;nt hear anything&#8230;..ph.calls asking me why </p>
<p>we left in such a hurry. What do I tell them&#8230;..am </p>
<p>having a tough time keeping my voice from breaking. </p>
<p>Damn me&#8230;why cant i ignore him?&#8230;Why do I have to </p>
<p>get all emotional n teary-eyed?gud I did&#8217;nt invite any </p>
<p>of my staff members&#8230;there wld have been so many </p>
<p>unasked ques on the work scene&#8230;</span><br style="color: #3366FF;"></font><font size="4"><br />Another entry&#8230;<br /></font><br /><font style="background-color: #FFFFFF;" size="4">This guy from Germany was here yesterday&#8230;Janice had sent him&#8230;a </p>
<p>German&#8230;.her husband&#8217;s&nbsp; friend&#8230;come on a tour&nbsp; of India&#8230;we were to </p>
<p>put him up here for the night&#8230;.the guy had to be made to feel at home </p>
<p>here&#8230;.. he would&nbsp; take experiences from here back home&#8230;Indian </p>
<p>hospitality&#8230;.jeff&nbsp; could&#8217;nt&nbsp; even carry off a normal conversation with </p>
<p>him&#8230;i still stayed aloof, knowing what jeff would do to me&#8230;..finally when </p>
<p>the silence became heavy, jeff himself came n said to me that i must </p>
<p>attend to the guest&#8230;it turned out the man was a buddhist&#8230;..he started </p>
<p>out with feeling uneasy in the&nbsp; strange surrounding&#8230;soon we got to </p>
<p>talking..he wanted to know many things about india..about &#8230;indian </p>
<p>cultures &#8230;i&nbsp; had to keep the conversation going, while i served him </p>
<p>dinner&#8230;.and i can talk about these things&#8230;so by and by the man </p>
<p>loosened up &#8230;enjoyed the dinner n talking to me,,,and said </p>
<p>so&#8230;.formality demanded it too&#8230;..he retired to the guest room..least </p>
<p>aware of what was in store for his hostess ,for having attended to him&#8230;.I </p>
<p>could sense the violence building up in Jeff&#8230;but still what i was in for..i </p>
<p>never could have imagined &#8230;&#8230;i was tired.. i just tried to fall asleep, </p>
<p>hoping Jeff would fall asleep too &#8230;he put off the lights and advanced </p>
<p>towards me &#8230;i cringed&#8230;.he was upon me&#8230;pinning me down..but this </p>
<p>time he took me totally unawares&#8230;his knees were on either side of my </p>
<p>neck..and God ..that thing&#8230; he was pushing it down my throat&#8230;..as </p>
<p>deep as he could..i was suffocating&#8230;&#8230;..and that uggh going down my </p>
<p>throat and i was swallowing it,gulping for breath, &#8230;..he was raving n </p>
<p>ranting&#8230;&#8221;b****..prove u r mine&#8230;..prove u r mine ..&#8221;</p>
<p>does this type of thing&nbsp; happen between other couples?//..how do i </p>
<p>know&#8230;i cannot ask somebody this sort of thing&#8230;.</p>
<p>i hate u jeff&#8230;.i hate u&#8230;&#8230;from the depth of my heart&#8230;.i curse the moment </p>
<p>i married u&#8230;..God is this the hell they speak of&nbsp; ?//&#8230;if so, what is my </p>
<p>fault?//</font><br style="background-color: #FFFFFF;"><br /><font style="color: #FF00FF;" size="4">i do not wish to add anything to this today&#8230;&#8230;.i must take ur leave&#8230;<br /></font><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"><br style="color: #FF00FF;"></p>
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