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Far Away From Home

Just a step and here I am
Just a step and far away from home
No Mama’s kisses, no Daddy’s scold
No sweet words when I am down in the cold
No beloved’s arm to walk me there
No soothing voice when trouble seems to care
And all this because I am far away from home!
I’m far away from home
Far from the land where I roamed
Far from my loved ones, far from my dear ones
Far in this land of gold.
But someday I hope to be back
In the place I belong
In the sanctity of her arms
In the warmth of my home.
And if I were to die 
Here far away from home.
Let them know my dear God
I loved them
No matter if I was far away from home!

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Mumbai Knight - A Short Script

Fade In

EXT. WESTERN EXPRESS HIGHWAY – NIGHT
It’s past midnight. There’s a slight drizzle falling. We are on the stretch between Kalanagar Junction and T Junction. Cars are zooming towards the southern part of the city. A silhouette of a young man as he walks hurriedly in the same direction to reach home, a bag slung over his shoulder. There are cars too going in the opposite direction.

A car looses control. Bang! It knocks into the silhouette. A shrill scream fills the air. Out of the blue a few people appear running on the scene and look in the direction of the sound.

MAN #1
Lagta hai accident hua.

MAN #2
Are woh waha pada hai.

4-5 people, young and old run towards a body now lying on the side of the road in a shaded spot away from the glares of the street lamp.

MAN #1
Marr gaya kya?

MAN #2
Nahi ab bhi jaan hai.

MAN #1
Zyada umar nahi lagti uski.

MAN #3
Chalo police ko khabar karte hai.

BOY (OS)
Ha jaldi police ko khabar karte hai.
Woh use aspatal lekar jayegi…

Man #1 turns around to face us. A close up of his face.

MAN #1
Are jaane de bhai. Kaye ko police ke
lafde mein padta hai. Woh car wala
bhi bhaag gaya. Apun bhi nikal lete
hai nahi toh lene ke dene pad jayege.

The 4-5 men all walk away in different directions leaving a young BOY hardly 14 or 15, looking at their retreating back in surprise.

BOY
Ajib log hai. Insaaniyat naam ki cheez
nahin. (loudly) Police nahi toh kam se
kam ise aspatal toh lekar chalte hai.

The men just turn around to look back as they continue walking. The Boy looks at them and then looks down. He then looks up as the headlight of a car falls on him. His POV:

A car is coming down the road at a speed.

The boy runs in its path, flailing his hands in the air to stop the car.

BOY (yelling)
Rukko rukko. Meri madat karo. Yahan
accident hua hai.

The car zips past the boy. He looks at it and then turns around to see another car. He waves out again.

BOY
Please saab rukko. Yahan accident hua hai.
Please saab ruko warna yeh mar jayega.

The car doesn’t stop. The boy turns to look back at the victim which is more of a silhouette lying on a road. Its body is twitching.

BOY (whispers)
Nahin. Marna nahi. Main gaadi rokta
hu. Please marna nahi…

The boy sees another car and runs towards it waving out his hand. The car zooms past. The boy looks at it in disgust. The car has passed the victim and then the sounds of the screeching of the breaks as it comes to a stop. The car reverses. A smile appears on the face of the boy as he walks and then runs towards the car.

DRIVER (VO)
Lagta hai accident hua hai.

WOMAN (VO)
Chalo na darling, mujhse dekha
nahin jaa raha.

DRIVER (VO)
Ek minute na. Lagta hai zinda hai…

WOMAN (VO)
Off fo. Sara nasha uttar diya. Ab
chalte ho ya tumhe raat akele bitani
hai?

A woman’s head peeps out from the window of the car and looks back at the Boy running towards the car. A car is coming down the road behind the Boy.

WOMAN
Chalo jaldi karo warna hum par yeh
accident ka ilzam padega.

The boy is about to reach the car when it zooms away.

BOY (shouts)
Oh saab thero. Main aapki madat karta
hu ise aspatal leke jaane… Oh thero
saab…

The boy sits down dejectedly on the pavement under the street lamp.

BOY
Mumbai bhi ajib shaher hai. Koii kisi
ki parwah nahi karta. Bus bade haadse
hote hai toh aa padte hai maddat karne
ko. Bumb blast ho ya baarish ka kehar ho…
(pause) Pur (indicating in the direction
of the body) aise haadse mein koii kisiko
madat nahin karta. Kyon?

The Boy watches the cars zoom past. Nobody bothers to stop. One or two does slow down and the Boy’s eyes shine with apprehension but soon fades as the cars keep moving.

BOY
Hey bhagwan please marne mut dena.
Ghar par log intezar karte hoge…

The cars are now less on the highway. The boy with a dejected look on his face shudders a bit. He looks back where the body of the victim is lying. He painfully gets up and walks towards it with heavy steps.

BOY (tearfully)
Kuch der aur intezar karte hai. Subah ho
jayegi. Koii na koii madat karega…

The victim still shaded in darkness gives one big shudder and then twitches a bit.
The boy looks down at it tearfully and then around him with dying hope. He gives a loud scream……

BOY
Koii madat karo iskiiiiii

The boy’s breath is now coming with breaks in between. Behind him a car slowly approaches and in the headlight we pan down to see the face of the victim momentarily lit in the headlight. He looks same as the boy with identical clothes. The boy with one long breath slowly collapses next to the victim. He then crawls with difficulty to lie on top of the victim’s body. We see the two bodies merge into one. The victim gives one big shudder and then is still. We realize that the Boy was the spirit of the victim.

The first rays of the morning sun sets on the victim as a hand pulls a white sheet to cover its face. Lot of legs of people are visible standing around the body. We pan to see the lower portion of a police van parked nearby. A few pairs of khaki trouser wearing people are walking around.

Fade out.

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Main Aur Meri Tanhayi…

Main aur meri tanhayi…
Sometimes going, sometimes idhar ko aaying
She not leaving me and I simply crying
Kyon nahi woh jaaing… mujhe chhodd ke for dying!

Gumsum sa rehta hu, ankhon se rohta hu
Of course aur main kahan se crying
Teri yaad karta hu, tujhe bhool na chahta hu
But damn it, is this paradox worth trying?

Sunset watching, waves touching
My feets mind you and not what beneath my chaddhi lying
Doobing doobing aisa sochta hu 
But damn it, even the sea not hard trying…

Guess I’ll go home… kal fir coming
And fir try try till your bheja frying
in the hot sun by the sea side
If Hannibal alive, woh kyon nahi mere bheje ko khaaing 
And I with a muskan on my face… I happily dying!

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Mumbai Knight

The night was dark. A slight drizzle was falling over the city. Few cars were rushing homeward with their occupants, everyone in a hurry to catch a few winks before the dawn rose again. So was this man as he hit the accelerator hard. Suddenly he lost control of the car and as he tried to veer the car safely, he realized that he had knocked someone down as he heard a loud thud followed by a high pitched scream that filled the air.

Damn it, he muttered to himself. He didn’t bother to stop and see whom he had hit as he took the bend and raced away. He was lucky. Nobody had seen him but the scream was heard by a few people. They appeared on the scene out of nowhere and looked around at the lonely stretch of the road.

 

One of the men noticed the silhouette of the body lying between two lampposts, in a shaded area at the side of the highway.

 

‘Over there.’ He yelled to the others.

 

The five or six odd people ran across the street towards the body.

 

‘Is he dead?’ One of the men asked looking at the body.

 

‘No, there is still life in him.’ Replied the man who had noticed the body.

 

‘He seems very young’.

 

‘Let’s inform the police.’ Someone suggested aloud. A young boy’s voice called out from amidst the small huddle, ‘good idea. They’ll take him to the hospital. Quick let’s do it.’

 

The man who had noticed the victim turned around. ‘Forget it! We’ll get into trouble if we call the cops.’ He started to walk away. ‘We better go before we get into trouble.’ He added.

 

The men quickly disappeared as they had come leaving just a young boy looking down at the silhouette of the victim lying in the shaded spot. He quickly turned to look at the disappearing men.

 

‘Strange’, he muttered to himself. ‘They should have at least taken him to the hospital.’ Loudly he yelled out, ‘Please let’s take him to the hospital.’

 

One of the men simply turned around without stopping and behaved as if he hadn’t heard his request. He shrugged his shoulder and then disappeared down the road. The young boy looked down where the victim lay and then turned around as he heard the sound of a vehicle.  He saw a car coming down the street.

 

He quickly ran towards it, flailing his hands in the air to stop the car.

 

‘Stop stop, there’s been an accident.’ He yelled aloud.

 

The car zipped past the boy without a second thought. The boy saw another car headed in his direction. Again he waved out as he yelled at the driver to stop the car and rush the victim to the hospital but the car wouldn’t stop.

 

In the dark, the boy could see the body twitching a bit. He slowly whispered to himself, ‘Please don’t die. Please. I’ll stop a car to take you to the hospital.’

 

It was then he noticed another car coming towards him. The boy ran in its path. But the car simply zoomed past him on its way. The boy watched in disgust as the car passed the victim. He cursed the driver. And as if the driver heard him, he braked the car to a stop. The boy looked at the car and then slowly walked towards it, a weak smile now visible on his face. The voice of a man reached his ears.

 

‘Looks like an accident.’

 

‘Come on darling, I can’t see this.’ A woman’s voice replied pleadingly.

 

‘Just a minute. I think he’s still alive.’

 

‘Stop it. Let’s go or else you’ll have to sleep all by yourself tonight.’ The woman sounded adamant now.

 

The woman put her head out to look outside in the rear. The boy was running towards them now. Behind him, another car was coming down the road. She turned to look back at her male companion. ‘I said let’s go or else we’ll be blamed for this mishap.’

 

As the boy reached the vehicle, its driver suddenly changed the gear and the car zoomed away. The boy ran after it yelling for the car to stop but it had already disappeared down the road. Dejected, the boy sat down on the pavement under the street lamp. His face bore a tormented look as he looked in the direction of the victim lying on the side of the road.

 

‘Strange place this Mumbai is.’ He mumbled to himself. ‘Nobody is concerned about an accident victim. Why is it that Mumbai only rises to help when a big incident happens be it the blasts or floods. Why not such poor victims of someone’s rash driving.’ As he sat there thinking aloud, he could see cars zooming past. Weakly he would raise his hand to stop them but nobody bothered to even glance at him. One or two cars did slow down and the Boy’s eyes shone with apprehension but soon faded as the cars keep moving.

 

‘Please God’, he prayed. ‘Don’t let him die. His family must be worried for him.’

 

Time went by and now there were few cars passing by on the highway. The boy with a dejected look on his face shuddered a bit. He looked back where the body of the victim lay. Painfully he got up and walked towards the victim dragging his feet.

 

‘Just hang around buddy for some more time’, he pleaded softly as he walked. ‘Just as morning breaks, someone will surely help you reach hospital.’

 

The boy looked down at the victim tearfully and then around him with dying hope. He raised his face at the sky and gave a loud scream. ‘Somebody please help……..’

 

The boy’s breath was now coming in short gasps. Behind him a car slowly approached and as it neared, the victim’s face momentarily shone in the headlight beams. His face was identical to the young boy’s and wearing similar clothes. The boy with one long breath slowly collapsed next to the victim. He then crawled with difficulty to lie on top of the victim’s body as the two bodies merged into one. The victim gives one last shudder and then was still. The spirit had died with its body.

 

The first rays of the morning sun slowly spilled on the victim as a hand pulled a white sheet to cover its body. A crowd had gathered to watch the spectacle. A police van stood nearby and a few cops were making notes of the scene. The Knight had turned to morning

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Marathi poem

Hey guys, my first attempt at Marathi poetry… please do let me know if I have erred anywhere…

“Kalat nakalat waat visarlo
Kalat nakalat haath sodlo
Kalat nakalat paool bikharlo
Disha bhete na, tujhe vichar sutena
Kadhi tari punha bhetu
Punha jivanat ekmatra houu
Donghant antar asail tar kay
Prem chotya goshtine kadhi sampe nai…”

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Payback

It was still some time before the orange balls of flames settled in the deep waters of the vast Arabian sea off the coast of Queen’s necklace but Jeeva’s mind was else where. He had only thing on his mind. Suicide. He was simply tired of this wasteful life he was leading. Things were not happening as it were meant to happen. His job sucked and his girlfriend had deserted him. Depressed and lonely, he had made it firm he would end it all today as he walked aimlessly down the promenade looking for an appropriate place to jump in the sea when the time was right.


 


Thud! The impact was strong as someone bumped into him and a bouquet of flowers smashed against his face before it went sailing across in the air and fell in a pile of dusts. A couple of joggers ran past each lost in their own thoughts, their feet trampling the flowers. Angrily, he turned around to find a girl kneeling on the ground and with one hand feeling the floor for the flowers. The other hand held a white stick while dark glasses covered her eyes. Her lips were covered in a frown. She must have been in her early 20s and beautiful marred by the absence of her eyesight. Suddenly she looked up in his direction. ‘I am sorry Sir. I am really sorry. It was my fault. I wasn’t smart enough to detect my way around. Jeeva stopped in his track. He looked down at the girl and then he stooped low on his knees.


 


‘Are you looking out for your flowers? He asked her apologetically.


 


‘Yes, I can’t seem to find it. Would you help me with it please?’ She asked with deep remorse.


 


‘I am sorry’, he said softly. ‘The bouquet is spoilt, trampled by some joggers…’ His voice trailed off.


 


‘Oh dear… oh dear… oh dear’. The words came out with a big sigh. She kept the walking stick down and slapped the palms of her hands to wipe away the dusts. She gave another big sigh as she got up and murmured to herself, ‘guess another day.’ She started to walk way clamping her stick on the cobbled pavement noisily. He stood watching her and then saw her stop and turn around in his direction.


 


‘Thank you mister’, she called out cheerfully. It was the smile that did it. He was taken back by it. It was one of the most beautiful smiles he had ever seen. He continued to watch her as she walked over to two elderly women seated on bench and chatting animatedly. She said something to them and they all looked in the direction where she had her little accident. And the next second, all three of them were laughing heartedly as if nothing major had happened. Subconsciously he found himself smiling.


 


He looked behind him and noticed the flower vendor with his small stall. He realized this must have been the place where she must have purchased the flowers.


 


Seconds later, he walked to the three women clutching two of the best bouquets the man had to offer.


 


‘Hi’, he called out cheerfully.


 


The old women looked at him expectantly. The young blind girl turned around blankly. ‘Hi’, she replied back guardedly.


 


‘It’s me, your nemesis. I was responsible for your flowers back there. Remember me? He asked her.


 


‘Oh yes,’ she replied. ‘I kind of recognize your voice. Can I help you?’


 


‘Yes absolutely. Please be kind enough to present these lovely flowers to your beautiful companions. Mind you, these flowers aren’t as pretty as they are but then this is the best I could do.’ He told her with a regretful voice.


 


The two old women giggled as they looked at each other.


 


‘Oh my my, so we still do have admirers Esmeralda.’ One woman said to another


 


The other woman simply embarrassed by the attention directed at them buried her face in the palms of her hand.


 


‘Wait till I tell the other inmates at the aged home. They will be so jealous.’ The first woman added with a mischievous smile.


 


Hearing them, the young girl couldn’t help smiling as she extended her hand and took the flowers and handed it to the two old women. She turned to Jeeva.


 


‘Thank you mister. It’s not everyday someone is kind enough to bestow flowers on these wonderful women. Thank you.’ She said then added as an after thought. ‘It’s really kind of you but it was really my fault back there. You didn’t have to do this.’


 


‘Oh I had to…’ he replied with a smile. ‘And one more thing, this is for you’, he said extending a single rose and gently placing it in her hand. She wrapped her fingers around the stem and he gently applied a bit of a pressure on one of the fingers so that the single thorn on the stem pricked her.


 


‘Ouch’, she cried out aloud. She quickly put the finger in her mouth as a drop of blood flowed out because of the thorn that pricked her.


 


‘And that’, he added with a smile, ‘is payback…’


 


‘Payback?’ She looked in his direction, a puzzled expression on her face.


 


‘Yes, payback because your smile pierced my heart real bad and its bleeding.’ Saying this he turned around and walked away as their sounds of laughter filled the air.


 


A distance away, he stopped to look back at the three women. They were waiting at the signal to cross the road. Something one of the old woman said made the young girl look in his direction and then the laughter that followed reached his ears. He wasn’t sure who was guiding who across the road as the three crossed the street just as the light turned red, their laughter still ringing in his ears as he continued his journey back home with a smile. He had a reason to live.

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Office Banter by Ms. Teri and Mr. Ken

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And God said, “Let there be light…”

 


A couple of years ago while working for a major PR firm in the city of Mumbai (note that I am specifying the city), we had one our numerous year on in-house training sessions where we were imparted trainings to hone our PR skills. While in most cases, the sessions were fruitful and worthy and helped us develop our skills for the better, at times however, it was sheer boredom to go through the same nitty gritties that you otherwise learn through practical approach. Anyways, that's another side of the story.


 


To come back to the point, during one such training session, our in-house instructor gave us an exercise for the next to-be-concluded session that was a week away: to come up with a PR solution to sensitize the people of Mumbai on saving electricity and reduce the shortfalls that the city and the state at large faced.


 


Now why should I recall this particular exercise of all the things and that which happened a couple of years ago? Well these days, a lot of have been seen, heard, read on TV, radio and the newspapers about Reliance Energy's inflated electricity bills and the after effects of it, the violent agitations outside its office at Santacruz by the common man as well as the political powers that be, the MERC's involvement etc etc etc. So? Yeah so??


 


Well I recall that while creating the powerpoint presentation on the power issue, I did a bit of research and found that Maharashtra faced a huge power shortfall each year. In other words the demand for electricity was much more then the state could supply and this had triggered the first ever riot, a one of its kind in Amravati and a couple of other places in Maharashtra a few years ago. Power deficit! So? Yeah so?


 


Well the research also pointed out the fact that even in the urban city of Mumbai, a lot of people were not conscious of the fact that in their day-to-day life, they wasted a lot of electricity, either knowingly or unknowingly thus adding to the woes of power starved city and the state.


 


One of the ideas that I came up to sensitize the people to save power was to increase the power tariff which I guess Reliance Energy seems to be doing nowadays. Well increasing the power tariff had its pros and cons which Reliance Energy aptly learnt the hard ways. But Reliance Energy should be happy with the fact that one section of the society had accepted the notion of the increased power tariff and were ready to pay more rather than go in for a power savings mode and thereby bring the inflated bills down!  Well my research also threw this fact up. There goes the 'Save Energy' motto !!!


 


So coming back to the core reason for this blog ' electricity and its use specially in a place like Mumbai which can afford to pay for the power consumptions. Did I say electricity and its use? I guess I missed out mentioning electricity and its misuse as well. Well misuse and the rampant theft of power all over the city.


 


Power theft and in a place like Mumbai? Now isn't that a bit hard to digest. Okay lets lay bare a few facts.


 


Recently we had a few festivals in the city and across the state and the country where everyone actively participated in the celebrations.  There was Ganesh Chaturthi, followed by Ramadan, then the Navratri followed by Diwali and soon its going to be Christmas with it just around the corner. So what's with all these festivities? Well for one whether its Ganesh Chaturthi or Ramadin or Navratri or Christmas, a lot of pandals are set up, streets are decorated with decorative lights, huge lamps put up. Now obviously nobody is supplying the power from their own house. And obviously not everyone could or would arrange for power generators. So where do these mandap decorators or the mandal members get their power from? Your guess is as good as mine.


 


I live in a slum area and have witnessed this trend for a long time. But then this is seasonal and happens only when the festivals arrive. There is another source of power loss and that is through the huge power theft happening in the city. To cut down on hefty power bills, lot of people are opting for illegal power supply as the secondary source for power consumption. Most of these pockets of slums have power sharks that provide these connections for a fixed sum every month. And it's a pity that most of the power sharks are in cahoots with the Reliance Energy officials (in areas supplied by Reliance Energy) who visit the place for inspections.


 


So who is to be blamed for the shortfalls that the state face so very often? Is it us common people who opt the easy way out? Is it the power sharks that provide these connections, is it the religious festivities that force for elaborate decorations, is it the company officials who turn a blind eye to it?                      


 


Reliance Energy on its part should revamp its hotline complaint number. Most of the time its unmanned and if someone gets through, the complaints are noted down but not acted upon for reasons best known to the company.


 


But then I am equally to be blamed because even I am using illegal source of electricity. But then do I really care? Do I really have a choice? Do I really have a legal electric connection in the rented shanty of a house that I live in nowadays? Well no, but then God said, "let there be light " whether legally or illegally, that's another question altogether.


 


p.s. Tata Power can interchange their name with Reliance Energy in this blog J

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The Gods Must Be Going Crazy

The Gods Must Be Crazy… No, no, I am not referring to the famous comedy movie series of the late 80s but to our cricketing gods who had been reigning over the minds of us common people and who over the years had provided us reasons to bunk school, colleges, work among other things to stay at home and watch them play for the love of the nation, fame and for fat endorsements not necessarily in that order.


Yes, they deserve all the glory and the accolades and not to forget our undivided attention. So what if cricket is being played in just a handful of countries around the world? And why shouldn't a cricket world cup be called a cricket world cup even though just 10-12 nations are involved in the tournament?


In a nation of a billion people, nurturing and developing key 11 players to play cricket is a mammoth task and our BCCI and various other cricketing academies and associations have done the nation a huge favor in propagating this game from the grass root level and hence seeing players from small towns represent the country is indeed a major achievement.


I have been a huge follower of this game since time immortal. Okay okay, I am not that old!! The likes of Kris Srikant, Navjot Sidhu, Robin Singh, Ajay Jadeja, Kapil Dev, Saurav Ganguly, Yuvraj Singh, Mahendra Singh Dhoni, Gambhir, Rahul Dravid and not to forget Azaruddin has been some of my favorite cricketers who made this game worth watching, who made the bunking of college/work worth every second of the time spent watching them slog out in the middle.

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Bloody Relationship

(This story has actually being written in a novel format. You can read an excerpt of the novel under the last category on the right. I have just compressed it to make a short story out of it.)


It was the last hour of his life. He was soon going to die at a very young age of 14 and as of that moment, he had no idea about it as he slowly pushed the gate of the Muslim cemetery open and walked down the path with weary steps, his hands clutching one single rose.

He looked much older for his age, tall, lean, athletic and with a charming face with a faint trace of moustache. He somewhat resembled his late grandfather. Maybe it was the case of heredity. And like his late grandfather he too attracted attention wherever he went.

And maybe that was one reason why his neighbourhood Aunty had seduced him. She was the lone person who never forgot to smile at him whenever they passed each other on the street. She was about her mother’s age and had been her good friend when his mother was alive.

He often had secret rendezvous with his neighbourhood aunty since he had matured enough. But today he felt ashamed of it as he walked to the extreme end of the small graveyard.

He felt ashamed to be there with such an unclean thought in his mind, ashamed to face her mother’s grave, knowing that he had an illicit relationship with a woman twice his age and the one who had been his mother’s best friend.

A woman who stood by him through thick and thin, who held his sanity intact over the years and even after his mother’s death. As he walked past the graves, he slowly scanned each grave lazily till he came to an unmarked grave surrounded by simple whitewashed brick stones now stained with mud. He bent down and slowly placed the flower at one end. He then extracted the skullcap from his pocket and put it on his head.

Standing straight, his head bent down with his arms crossed across his chest and with his eyes closed, he slowly muttered the prayer for the dead as best as he could remember.

While he prayed, tears flow down his face as he remembered his mother’s dying days. He ended the prayer and after a few silent moments, slowly opened his eyes. He stood still and stared hard at his mother’s grave, his arms still folded across his chest.

The tears had dried up. He unfolded his hands and with his back of his right hand, wiped the rest of the traces of the teardrops away from his cheek. He then sat down on the ground, pulled his knees closer to his chest and with his hands wound around it, buried his head in between his knees.

He started to rock back and forth humming her mother’s favourite lullaby she used to sing for him when he was a kid, “Sleep of sleep my child, to thee I cry. You are my angel. You are my butterfly ”

It was exactly a year ago that his mother had died. She was just 30 when she had died of some disease, a disease so horrifying in the last hours of her death. Yet she had led her life fighting more than one disease. There were a whole lot of other diseases of this world and the worst of it was him, her own son.

And today, he felt sorry for her and for himself, sorry for giving her a troubled and unhappy life. He missed the warmth of her love she showered on him sporadically, her fighting spirit, her frequent outbursts, the tender look on her face in her dying hours. He was totally in contrast to her character.

How he wondered if he could get some of her characteristics in him. His thoughts went back to his early childhood days. He remembered the troubled relationship he had shared with his mother and with the world around him and he wondered aloud why everyone hated him so much Where had it all started? And why did everyone give him strange looks and treated him like roadside filth? Why, he wondered aloud. Why?

He then remembered the sealed envelope that was stuck in his pocket. He pulled it out. His name was sparsely scrawled on it in his mother’s handwriting. As she lay on her deathbed, she had handed over the envelope to him.

‘This is something that could break you or mould you to be a tough person. You have reached an age where you are old enough to think. But at this stage when death is waiting for me, I want you to wait till you grow a year older ’

She took a deep breath.

‘I don’t want my impending death and the content of this envelope to hit your innocent soul collectively . Cause this envelope answers the question of your existence of your coming into this world of all your uncertainties the reason for your troubled childhood.’

She paused. She was having difficult breathing. Her life was sinking fast.

‘Son ’ Her voice trembled softly.

And he quickly looked up at her. Her eyes were moist. This was the first time he remembered since he had come of age that her mother had called him ’son’. Tears flowed down his cheek. He quickly sat at the edge of the bed and looked at his mother lovingly as he held on to her hand. Her eyes were glued to his face. A lone tear flowed out of the corner of her eye and then time stood still for her

With trembling hand, he opened the envelope. There was a single sheet of paper. He pulled it out. There was a single line written on it.

‘You are my father’s son!’

His voice quavered as he read out the line aloud. And then the headline of a newspaper clipping he had found hidden in his house, flashed in front of his eyes, ‘Father molests minor daughter.’

He had the answer to his existence. He had the reason for his destruction.

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