I
just cant write now-a-days.Its tough to put the thoughts on paper.I was reading
a book but couldnt read more than five pages again and again.I tried to write a
book instead.I did better.I wrote ten pages.Then i gave up.Life seems to move
in 10 second ads.The movie has just begun…
" What do people do when they dont know what to do?" I stare
out of the window on a hot summer evening and think to myself.I try to bide the
time,wait for the cool breeze to come in and conjure fresh ideation out of the
over-heated brain.I”m sweating.Do people know that they dont know what to do?
I wake up from deep sleep.I shut my eyes hard.I want to
dream again.I”d rather do that than wake up to realize that the things in life
i really wanted to happen, never ever happened.Maybe, i”m just another
run-off-the-mill story and all the while i thought i was different.Does
everybody feel this way at some point of time, or maybe, i am different.I open
my eyes.
I walk through the grocery market in a
bid to lighten the thoughts. I see hordes of people.I”m a part of the
crowd.Everybody exists…So do I. When can I stop existing and start living?
The questions keep coming.”Fancy something fresh sir?” An old lady
holds out spring onions. “Bargain price, rupees 10." The inflation”s
rising and so is the mercury.It isnt worthwhile shopping in broad daylight.
Maybe it isn't worthwhile existing.
Earlier,I felt hurt when I saw someone in
pain.This was quite a while ago though.I've become numb.How can you not feel
pain? How can you chose to live a life as if in a crammed up train with no air
to breathe,no space to move and then you cant do much about it but stand as you
are… cramped… broken… hurt. Yet, I feel numb.
My thoughts keep running amok.The questions
don't let me sleep.Everytime I'm pushed to my limits, the mind asks for some
more.Who made limits anyway? This whole thing might sound useless,nonsense.But
I sense I've changed.Not necessarily evolved. Or else what you are reading
might have been different.
Each rising sun,each passing day, as I ask myself questions I”ve never
had the guts to ask myself before,I discover something more about me something
I've never known before something I've never realized… I”m a puzzle half
solved, and the clues keep changing.
Life seems to be stagnant, but not the blog…what an irony!.
the more one thinks, you either get the answer or you end up being more confused…..and the thoughts also have a mind of there own…the moment you try to capture them, they slip out of your hands….
Hey….lol that was a long time when I first commented on your blog!…thanks I”ll take your advice but sometimes it is hard to write what to put in a blog! :p
Vishy this blog sounds more lik a rock song man…compose a tune for it n m sure u gotta hit on ur hands:)
Hi don”t know if ya remember me I use to comment on your blog from my old iLand!
A riddle post indeed! I do have those moments quite alot where I think I don”t know what to do and I usually think I am different but when I question myself in different aspects I”m not really as different as anyone else…..we do vaguely know what we wanna do in life but does it ever really happen?
…..I do have the habit of wanting to go back to sleep though after a dream because your dreams allow you to do whatever you want in whatever limits even though it is unlikely to happen in reality!…..as they say life doesn”t always go the way you want it to!!
well well well…A very Good Morning to You.. shd i say that!?.. Morning bcoz u have woken.. Good that such thoughts r coming to your mind that might help you to understand urself better.. Once in a life we all pass thru such phases where everything seems monotonous, depressing & stale.. Hope the coming Monsoons would wash way all that has accumulated so that fresh new saplings of Hope would bud again.. Take care & keep smiling…
Hi Vish, reading your post was a different experience for me!
I liked the innocence in your writing, your candid & honest expressions!!
Yes indeed, life at times feels pretty stagnant & redundant but I guess that is just a passing phase!!!
not ur usual stuff buddy.. but then its good to write diff once in a while.. so that ppl call u ”versatile” … i am not gonna write any funny comment here or pull ur legs.. wotever it be or wotever is going thro ur mind.. let it be.. i mean let it pass.. every second we learn something new.. and yes.. lets ask ourselves.. and observe others too.. who knows, someday we may not have all the answers.. but we dared to ask.. some dont do that either..
OMG!!….this is turning contagious i guess…the bug is out and we r bit by it!…clueless….thats it!!…we r just so not sure about what we gotta do in life…its turning monotonous…and i hope this is gonna last for just some time!!….i dont wanna get immuned to it….wanna live life the way i had planned it
also, me is glad to see our old friends out here. i hope they come back to comment on the comments and turn this into a message board where we race ourselves to a 100 comments like we”d once done! ahhh…those were the days…that would cheer u up and teach you that there are better things to think of than to think what to think about!
actually, the second read was slightly better than the first one. i could conclude you are the one who is confused, and not me on reading the blog.
i wish i knew the cure… q:
Times are not the same any more, life has changed by leaps and bounds, people are same, yet something is ”missing”….ain”t it??? Man, did I confuse you all the more?? Don”t worry, just hop in the gang :-))
That sure was like a puzzle, Mr Voldemort. And yeah, I am clueless