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mixed emotions

once in a while in my not so busy life

i think of not so important matters

that sometimes i myself wonder…why im giving it a thought!

like pretending to be laughing outside yet crying inside

is it not a sign of insanity??

like believing that there is really a forever

but in reality there is only “for the meantime”

like hoping against all odds

even if the odds are against you

i really cant understand why we wish so hard

when in fact we know they cant come true

im not being vain

im just wondering

maybe its human nature…maybe.

like pretending everything is alright

when in your heart u know its not

its like embracing life as it comes

but still fears of the consequences that may come along with it…

its not really an easy path

its always been complicated

its always decisionmaking…a very difficult one

its like choosing your happiness

and those who you wanted to be happy

its like all the whys and the who

the what and the how questions everyone is facing

its not really a struggle for me

its my everyday life…getting used to it….hmmmmm

it may take sometime…..it may take a long time.

IM NOT KIDDING

I SPEAK FROM MY HEART.

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  1. parthasarathi basu says

    It will haunt me now … I never thought it like you did! Yes it happens to me too “like pretending to be laughing outside yet crying inside

    is it not a sign of insanity??”

  2. pdg says

    thats life…u live it ..u experience it…

  3. sajid khan says

    what a thought. kya sochati ho…

  4. Cju C says

    Ummeed pe duniya kayam hai…..mere dost!!!

  5. shals says

    wish i too had answers for the same…sailing in the same boat…when life has closed all the doors and good and closed ones have stabbed on the back…yet i am hoping against hope things will be back on track again…height of being optimistic

  6. Think Tank says

    This is life… we have to remain positive even things are negative… because we have a ”will”…

  7. PM ProfessionalAstrologer says

    Hello, As you described Human Nature….. Those who stand and wait. they also serve…. Hope for better future; is the Optimistic view of life. That is Life…

  8. Inder M VIG. says

    really really a great analysis done dear…thats from where the search starts,,and you i suppose are now out to search….answers will come from within only.no book no blog will answer these..name of the game is to stay unaffected from the fears of the consequencies…descion making you said???there is only one descion which needs to be taken,,what so ever comes is to be faced as if its a gift from the god…never dislike a gift..some times we get gifts which are actually useless to us yet we feel happy and thankfull when we recieve from some one….just tried to help you analyse further hehee and dear keep searching i suppose you are getting nearer now….nearer to your own self,,,,