i seldom think about rainbows

never been interested in them

well maybe …just once

when i thought i could see my mom there

as she promised when she left me

to look up there and find her

but it never happen….i lost interest again…..till now

i began to appreciate its colors

it reminds me of my ups and downs

my moods and my life…

my rainbow connection.

rainbows appear after the rain

is it the good news after a storm?

it has various colors

like those moments in our life

happiness and joys and those momentous ones

but like rainbows…they will appear

after the storm

maybe so we could appreciate more

the lessons it brings

but like rainbows still

they will just be there for a while

and u will need to get ready for another

storm to come…and so

a a song goes

i have to search for that rainbow

connection

the lovers …the dreamers…and me.

there are times like this

when everything else are not falling in their proper place

like when anything you handle goes out of bounds

like how matter you tried …things are getting out of control

because maybe…maybe it was supposed to be that way.

i hate complaining

thats the only thing im in control

i always felt it will really do no good

to blah blah of things that had been done

it will only add to the frustration

it will only complicate matters…..

things are not really on my side these past few days

i feel no interest in anything and everything

i feel the void again

trying to find what.. who and why is a forced reaction

it seems im tired ….as if im working my life with no direction anymore

as if im done….BUT……ON SECOND THOUGHTS

MAYBE IM JUST RESTING FOR THE NEW ADVENTURE COMING

JUST A HIBERNATION TO THINK OF THINGS

I FEEL ITS JUST A PHASE OF ONES LIFE

REACHING A POINT TO ASSESS ONES SELF

AND HAVING SOME KEEN OBSERVATION

READY TO MOVE TO THE NEXT LEVEL…ERR … THE NEXT PHASE MAYBE

i need to stop for a while

need some breather

should have gained enough strength to carry on

believing in life again

im not sad as sad

but im not befriending happiness still

i feel i need the interest …the motivation

to start all over again

my dramatic thoughts …are killing me again

JUST GETTING YOUR ATTENTION!

JUST SOME IDLE THOUGHTS.

JUST KIDDING AGAIN.

IF AT FIRST YOU DONT SUCCEED

TRY AGAIN

IF YOU FAIL AGAIN

TRY ONE MORE TIME

IF YOU FAIL AGAIN AND AGAIN

THATS THE TIME….NOT TO GIVE UP

BUT DO MORE PRACTICE

IF STILL YOU FAIL AGAIN……..

WHO CARES??? WE ARE ALL HUMANS

WE ARE BOUND TO MAKE BLUNDERS!!!

1.LAST MOVIE I SAW IN THEATER

FOREIGN….KUNG FU PANDA

LOCAL…….MY MONSTER MOM

2.BOOK IM READING

ANY SUSPENSE ..THRILLER TYPE OF SORT

WHERE THE VILLAIN IS A HANDSOME GUY

YOU NEVER SUSPECT …AND NEVER A LOVE STORY

3.FAVORITE BOARD GAME

SCRABBLE IN MY YOUNGER DAYS WHEN I WAS

MAKING AN IMPRESSION…BUT NOW NO MORE

4.FAVORITE MAGAZINE

THOSE WITH LIFESTYLES OF FAMOUS PERSONALITIES

AND MAKE OVER FASHIONS…ETC.

AND FEEL FRUSTRATED AFTER READING CUZ I COULD NOT

LIVE LIKE THEM..HA HA

5.FAVORITE SMELL

ITS THE EARLY MORNING BREEZE IN MY HOMETOWN

AND BLUEBERRY PERFUME ONCE IN A WHILE

6.FAVORITE SOUND

SAD SONGS ESPECIALLY WHEN IM FEELING

I NEED ATTENTION…HA HA

7.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD

WHEN I WAS DUMPED FOR SOMEBODY MUCH PRETTIER..

HU ..HU..HU(SOUND OF CRYING)

8.FAVORITE FAST FOOD

THOSE WITH CHICKEN NUGGETS

AND SOME NOODLES SERVED

9.FUTURE CHILD NAME

IF HE IS A BOY….SHAIJU

IF A BABY GIRL…CASEY

10.IF I HAD THE TIME IN THE WORLD

ILL SLEEP AND SLEEP LIKE U SUMMER

11.I EAT BROCCOLI

12.ANY HAIR COLOR

HAVE COLORED A PORTION OF MY HAIR BLUE ONCE

BUT DAD GETS HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE

LIKE TO COLOR IT BROWN

13.I HAVE LIVE IN MANILA FOR MY WHOLE LIFE

BUT VISIT MY HOMETOWN ONCE IN A WHILE

HAD BEEN TO SOME FOREIGN LANDS

BUT IF GIVEN THE CHANCE I WOULD LOVE TO LIVE

IN THAILAND

14.SPORTS TO WATCH

IM NOT AN ATHLETIC TYPE SO I FIND SPORTS

GAME SO BORING

15.WHATS UNDER MY BED?

MY SLIPPERS ..

16.IF BORN AGAIN

I WOULD LIKE TO BE MYSELF

BUT WITH MORE TALENT AND A WILL TO FACE

HARDSHIPS….NOT ESCAPING THEM

17.MORNING PERSON OR NIGHT OWL

IM A MORNING PERSON…I HATE THE FEELING

WHEN THE SUN SETS…I FEEL LONELINESS

18.IF I HAVE A LOT OF MONEY

I WOULD BUILD A HOME FOR THE AGED…THE ELDERLY

AND A HOME FOR GAY PEOPLE….THEY ARE THE MOST MISUNDERSTOOD

19.I DONT DRIVE FAST

I DONT DRIVE ANYWAY…BUT I LIKE MY DRIVER TO

BE A SLOW DRIVER…I HATE FAST DRIVING

20.I DONT SLEEP WITH STUFF ANIMALS

IM ALLERGIC TO THEM

22.MY FIRST CAR IS AN FX…HA HA

23.I LOVED SCARY STORIES

24.MY FAVORITE DRINK

JUST COLA AND PLAIN COLD WATER

25.FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX

MY BEDROOM…WHERE I CAN BE MYSELF

26.FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR

MANGO…AND UBE

27.MY DREAM DATE

MY MEANMAN

28.IM TRYING TO EAT LESS MEAT NOW

I HAVE READ SOMEWHERE THAT VEGETARIAN PEOPLE HAVE

FRESHER BREATHS AND LONGER LIFE

29.I SLEEP IN MY PAJAMAS.

OLD HABITS HARD TO BREAK…..(LOL)

30.HOW MUCH I SPEND IN DOING THIS?

NOTHING

31.I AM HAVING FUN DOING THIS FOR MY FRIEND

I FEEL IM BACK IN MY YOUNGER DAYS

WHERE I LOVE TO ANSWER MY SCRAP BOOKS

SO I HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO REVEAL MY SELF TO MY CRUSH…WITHOUT HIM ASKING….HA HA

32.BUT SUMMER…U FORGOT TO ASK ME MY IDEAL MAN….???

JUST KIDDING.

there is a saying that

if you are a man courting your chosen one

take a good look at her mother

because after some years or so

she will be more or less like her

in shape

in thoughts

and in deed (just sort of)

and if your a woman

scrutinize the suitor you favored most

he may be goodlooking

but if she doesnt have any respect for her mother

beware….you may eend up with an irresponsible husband

a guy who love her mother less

is not a good husband material

believe me (please i beg you to)

i have seen most the lives of my friends

and my life as well

its like a story being repeated

but with different set ups and venues

but its all the same story plot

others just have some sub..plot and revisions…..

but they have all the ingredients

to have been waiting there

for the right director

to say his light…camera…action

we have all our stories to tell

but most of them kept to ourselves

because no one will understand really

how we felt until they feel what we have been going through

and its not every day that somebody will just listen to us

sadly…we have our own burdens to take care of

its not that we dont care

maybe …maybe its because we dont have the time

for all we know…they might just be having the worse

as compared to what we are having

there is really no guarantee of a happy life

it has its own colors and pain

a happy face is just a mask

what is important is what we really feel

its easy to judge other people

to have an opinion and solutions to their needs

but when the problem is on us

its a little bit harder…its even more harder…

to advice ourselves as we do advice those that need us

life is a wheel

sometimes its up

sometimes its down….

but what if it got flat along our way

with us down under???

NOW THATS ANOTHER STORY!

i am moving on

got all these boxes of my life

one box full of memories..of my young life

my first smile…my first step

and my dad and moms first hug

my first adventure…away from them

memories of my school days with my few friends

got to put them in another box…they will be there forever.

another box full of memories again

of bittersweet teenage days

of love unreciprocated

and dreams so ideal

but were never realized….they remain as dreams

got to set them aside too

in another box

the box full of hurt and pains

to peep into once in a while

because they remind me of my struggles

that made me what i am today

those little souveneirs i made and received

still in thier faded form now

yet can make me cry once in a while

like my faded memories of them

this box is overflowing

but had to closed it now….ill open it once in a while…..

now another box is in my hand

half empty

like my present state of mind(just kidding)

had to think and plan again

of things to put in there

more careful now

more determined to arrange it the way i want

more careful not to regret later

because there maybe no more boxes left

to accomodate what i need to put inside

i am giving myself more time for this box

it will reflect my whole life

how i correct what has been wronged

and how i learned from my mistakes

how will i face the new challenges that will come

and face them with more willingness to win

rather than surrendering to the odds

taking care of my boxes

is not a simple one

i need them

really need them

and im not looking back

im moving on……yet there is another box left

a box full of prayers

that im doing it right.