Nightmare

Sriyesh sat on the Sofa holding his drink with the
left hand while sifting through the Magazine casually with the right. He was
restless. The total silence in the house added a gloomy ambiance to the scary
night. Priya and kids were off to Kerala on the yearly sojourn. Sriyesh could
not make the trip because of his preoccupation with the work. He has got a top
job with a MNC which ties him down, even though he longed to take a break to
get a feeling of his root.

As he leaned back and took a small sip from the glass his mind was racing back
down the memory lane. Like a movie, rolling frame by frame, events from the
past came running to fore. He saw a small village, three sides surrounded by
hilly ranges and the western side laid open to a vast track of paddy fields. On
the foot of the southern hills, he could see a small hut, bereft of brick walls
and cemented floor. The mud floor was smoothened with a splash of cow dung
liquid so skillfully applied by mother. In place of brick wall, two loosely
hung bamboo mats were tied to the poles that supported the roof from the four corners.
This bamboo mats acted as barriers from the two sides of the house. The back
side was closed with a mud wall with a wide gap in the middle that acted as the
door, while the front remained wide open all the time.

Sriyesh remembered that he was not the only child
in the house. He had three other siblings, elder to him with an age difference
of maximum two years among themselves. He was three or four years old, when his
mother used to work in the paddy fields of the neighborhood landlords for a
living. Sriyesh does not remember seeing his father for he was dead when
Sriyesh was only one year old. It was a hard blow to his mother. She was left
with four children who were all below ten years and without sufficient means to
support them. Above all, it was a new place for the family migrated from
another part of the region.



The childhood was hardly pleasant for the children. Neither there was enough
food nor good cloth for them. There was no toys to play with, no picnics to
enjoy, no stories to read but only sufferings to endure. The nights were always
frightening. As the young Sriyesh lay beside his mother, embracing her tightly
as the howling of the jackals was heard from the nearby bushes, accompanied by
strange sounds of the wild birds, he prayed to all the Gods that he had heard
of to take him to the safety of the day break. As the darkness of the night
grew, he would hear a harsh voice from a distance slowly growing louder in the
form of a folk lore. That is Pokken and his friend returning from the market
place after their quota of country liquor. After gulping a few drinks, Pokken
becomes an instant poet and sang loudly whatever comes to his mouth. Often the
verses were filthy and juicy, describing the anatomy of female body or on the
current gossips of the village. As he near the house of Sriyesh, Pokken’s voice
would become more and more shrill and his language more filthy. Sometimes, a
stone or two would land at the courtyard of Sriyesh’s house accompanied by some
four letter words.  Sriyesh would hold his breath and cling more closely
to his mother and pray till the dreadful fellow passed by his house singing his
filthy song. He never understood why Pokken always sang dirty songs in the
night while passing by his house.



Raman Uncle was the only solace in otherwise gloomy state of affairs. He used
to come to the house with few words of kindness to the children and
occasionally helped mother by lending few rupees to buy ration. What was wrong
in it? Sriyesh never understood. After all, it was usual practice among village
folk to visit neighbors and help each other at the time of necessity. Perhaps
visit to a widow’s house by a man might have been considered a sin.

Perhaps that was the reason for the great fury let loose by a mob of about six
or seven persons on the fearsome afternoon. Sriyesh was squatting on the floor
playing with the marbles. His mother sat beside him talking to Raman Uncle who
had dropped in to have a word with her. As they were discussing something
animatedly Sriyesh could see a group of six or seven men partially hiding
behind the corner wooden-pillar of the house. Sriyesh had gone numb on seeing
the fearsome face of Pokken glaring at him from behind the pillar. Other
fellows had also angriness writ large on their faces. Before Sriyesh could
figure out what to do or how to take shelter behind something or someone, with
a swift movement the mob had pounced upon Raman Uncle and Sriyesh’s mother.
Blows were rained on Raman Uncle’s back along with shouts and counter shouts.
Sriyesh stood bewildered and shivering. What was wrong, he never got to know.

Even after so many years, the scenes occasionally return to haunt him. It makes
him feel wretched and helpless. He felt guilty that he was a mute spectator to
his mother’s humiliation. He could not do anything to protect her from the
cruel hands of her tormentors. She was so humble and kind hearted. She never
scolded anyone, never quarreled with anyone and never made any complaints; but
still why she was tormented, made to suffer and denied basic human
considerations by the neighbors?  He never got an answer…

Now, inclining on the sofa, all alone in the dead of the night, Sriyesh felt
totally depressed, helpless and suffocated…

“Ting…ting…ting….” the mobile
started making noise. As Sriyesh reached out for the phone he would hear the
soothing voice of Priya on the other end.  ‘hey, Sree..what are you
doing?, why didn’t you call me?, have you had something yet? the questions came
rapid and nonstop. But the only thing that Sriyesh felt and cherished at that
moment was the soothing nearness of his beloved wife. He longed to hold her on
to him tightly so that he could drive away the disturbing nightmare.