praying to the almighty
——————Seema—–
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Rang birangi is duniya mein
kyun har cheez berang si lage
shahnayi ki mehfil bhi
viraan si lage
–Phoolon ke ghulshan mein
kyun sirf kaante nazar aayein
poonam ka chaand bhi
udaas sa lage
–Dard kyun itna badd gaya
ki aansu bhi sookh gaye
apno ke beech bhi
mann begana sa lage
–Yeh zindadil kyun
bas ek zinda dil reh gaya
itne sawaal ke jawaab kam lage
har jawaab ek naya sawaal sa lage
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Rang birangi is duniya mein
kyun sab kuch berang lage
shahnayi ki mehfil bhi
viraani chaya si lage
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phoolon ke khilte ghulshan mein
kyun yeh nazar kaanton par pade
poonam ka roshan chanda bhi
mujhko udaas sa kyun hai lage
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apno se ghir kar bhi mann
mehfil se begaana lage
itne hain sawaal ke jawaab nahin
kyun har jawaab naya sawaal lage
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dard kyun itna bada hua hai
ki aansu bhi sookh gaye
woh zindadil na jaane kyun
ek zinda dil mein badal gaya
ek zinda dil mein badal gaya
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At every phase of life we nuture a dream.some arent realised the way we want them to.but tht doesnt deter us frm dreamin.n when such dreams are fulfilled they leave behind some very cherishable n special moments.
It was a lazy monday afternoon. i was more nervous this time before takin the pregnancy test .my hubby was offerin his prayers at tht time. with tears rollin down my eyes i was waitin to convey the result of the test.with a tense look he came towards to comfort me.still cryin i hug him sayin tht im pregnant.in my crazee cryin i cudnt even notice his first reaction.as i excitedly talk to my parents i find him scribblin a note in his very illegible writin.still i could read the words very clearly ” my home is glowin n looks more beautiful at the thought of arrival of the new born.may god bless my child with the bst of health n happiness”. i chuckle to myself as he immediately went to take the pics of the pregnancy kit.
before i used to think tht when i disclose this to my hubby i would do it by giftin him a beautiful card or bake him a nice cake with the words - ”for the dad to be”. but now i understand tht real life holds much more intense emotions than we possibly can imagine.
last week i had my first scan .seeing the cute little one movin actively n the most funny scratchin its tiny head with its fragile fingers made for the finest experience of my life.i was overwhelmed with emotions as i heard its heartbeat n was awestruck at nature’s wonder.never knew tears could be such a major part of some of the greatest celebrations in our lives . im more than grateful to the almighty for blessin me with such wonderful moments.
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Today while talkin to him i realised hw growin time has strengthened the bonds of frnship we have shared for so long.its more than two decades now tht i have known him n he has come across as the bst pal i evr had n probably will ever have.
fortunately i have been blessed with many happy moments n very few sad moments.i may be the first to share my happiness but when it comes to grief , im not tht comfortable.its said u feel better when u share u sorrow , i never felt so . i hate sheddin tears in front of anyone , be it evn my luved ones but i could never hide them frm him.
i always look forward to his opinion.the whole world may appreciate but he sincerely points out my flaws.at times when theres unneccesary criticism he appreciates my efforts n tht means the world to me.
the first to know my hidden strenghts n weakness,celebrating my happiness n comforting me in my not so happy times hes always been there for me in every walk of life. “being myself ” is wat im when im with him,with never a need to explain anything coz he understands n cares for my every little feeling.
he defenetly is a true frnd n will always have a special place in my life…he is none other but my “heart”.
wanderin with diffused thoughts
treading towards unknown paths
am i searchin in vain
for a twinkle on a cloudy night?
dingy tunnels leading nowhere
making my dreams go despair
have the choices gone wrong
or my vision impaired?
shadows of pessimism haunting every move
now is the time to glide not crawl
have i roped my wings
or am i reluctant to explore?
seaching for the spark within to make my way
assuring myself to fear not the tunnel
for theres light at the end of it
and shall not the night be gone with the advent of dawn….
……………Seema……….
its been a couple of mnths now tht i have started to go for a walk n i never knew it would be so amusin.on a very positive note the day i started i gotta see a beautiful rainbow. felt like the heavens have come down to welcome me.
as i covered some distance i saw a lady walking dogs headin towards me.until then i didnt know tht walkin dogs is a serious profession here.frm my very childhood for me dogs = 14 injections . so i was dammm scared.they were 4 of them starin into my eyes n me into theirs . [felt as if the one blinkin first would be the loser].well my fear helped me win .as i went past them i had a sigh of relief . there was a tissue in my hand n i was lookin for a bin . i found somethin similar n when i went near, it was written “dog’s poo”. i was like god, yeh kutte toh peecha hi nahi chod rahe.[until then i didnt know tht there r bins here even for dog's poo]chucklin to myself i move on ….
as my enthu increased with each passin day i thought i shud start joggin nw . so there goes seema joggin n while returnin home she had to take baby steps .hehe……n suddenly one day she realised y not take stairs instead of the lift after climbin three floors poor gal had to take the lift for the remainin two floors. well well well im all very consistent now.
walkin past a canal i was engrossed lookin at the ducks .back to my senses as i walked further i found some bouquet of flowers around a tree expressin condolences .life felt so strange at tht moment.how evrything can come to a standstill within a moment .ah….an immediate cheer was brought by an old couple walkin hand in hand .many a hurdle may have come across their way but tht hasnt deter their zeal.
im learnin so many lessons along the way listenin to the chirpin birds n the sound of the waves .well there r milesssssssssss to go in other aspects of life .this is just an initial step towards tht unknown destination.
A tide of gloom has lashed my way
-n im tryin hard not to be swept away.
How i wish u were here
-to ease my pain n fear.
Evryone wonders at my state of oblivion
-but i feel not the need to express my deepest emotion.
Amidst dark clouds
-ur smile alone brings a ray of hope.
Adornin my drms with ur thoughts
-tht each difficult step feels so short.
Ur support is all i seek
-without which i feel so meek.
Ur care n concern echoing my heart
-doesnt seem we r miles apart.
At last i sailed against the wind
-only ur luv could take me beyond the horizon.
———-Seema———-
hi ya . now this is one of my old posts .one place which i luv talkin abt is dubai.i had taken a brk journey durin my vacation to india . so i was back into nostalgia. got to visit some new places like the dubai aquarium n underwater zoo which is the world’s largest indoor auarium. tunnel walkin makes 4 the close encounter with the worlds amazin underwater creatures on the planet. another grt experience was atlantis palm hotel . granduer at its bst.im sure very soon the rulers of uae wud award me 4 promotin one of their cities so much .
DUBAI DELIGHTS
As i was on my flight to UAE to join my husband after r weddin various thoughts were goin thru my mind regardin a new life, regardin a new place .Hmm… a new place .sounds excitin. DUBAI is one of the 7 emirates that make THE UNITED ARAB EMIRATES . as i entered the dubai airport i already was gettin the feel of the city which looked very classy n lavish . i was waitin to catch a glimpse of my hubby n wow he is in frnt of me equally elated . now we are on the way to our home zoomin in r land rover i m thoroughly enjoyin the sight of the city with an array of the date palms trees . vast well maintained roads with sky raise buildings burj-dubai being the tallest tower in the world n what is more appreciable is the greenery maintained even under humid conditions. dubai is a shopppers city with numerous malls caterin to ur needs . one of the famous malls is the mall of emirates with over 70 restuarents n the biggest skiing dome in the world known as the ski dubai .real cool fun to beat the heat .also famous is the Ibn batoota mall which gets its name frm a persian traveller . there r various themes made in the mall includin indian apart frm the eygptian , the chinese n various others .the mall is also a kind of mueseum with splendid roofs n chandliers also famous 4 its gold theres an exotic gold souk comprisin more than 300 jewellers. as u go around u can see all that glitters is gold gold n only gold. frm the bustle of the city to the desert of golden sand dunes .the arabian adventure - the desert safari is a roller coaster ride in the sand dunes makin u shreik n laugh as the car goes up n down the dunes .there r also camel rides. after the ride u can relax in the traditional bedouin tents ,try the traditinal dress n apply henna while enjoyin the arabian food beside a blazin bonfire with traditional cups of tea n dates . n ofcorse the beaches a good way to njoy the weekend everythin abt dubai was fantastic . a home away frm home . though we have shifted to ireland now but the 6 mnths i lived there will always have a special place in my heart.