Posted in Love on 10/23/2008 07:35 pm by seema n
apne aashiyane ka jo tassavur kiya, khuda ne usse behtar nawaza. takreeban do saal ho gaye, ehsaas hi nahi hua kab aapse itni mohabbat ho gayi.tanhaiyoon main aap ki yaadein dil bahlati hain.yahan tak ki mehfil mein bhi nazrein aap par hoti hain.kitna bhi aap ka zikr karoon kaafi nahi lagta. apno se khusiyaan jitni bhi batoon kam lagti hai.yeh kya ho gaya hai mujhe.yeh kaise jazbaat hain jinse itni massarrat hasil hoti hai.
kabhi aapne chaand taare tod laane ki baat nahi ki lekin meri zindagi ko taaroon se zyaada roshan kiya aur us muskurahat ne chaar chaand laga diye.mohabbat luvzoon ki muhtaaj kahan..har subah jeene ki justaju bad jaati hai jab un nazroon mein apne liye beinteha mohabbat dikhayi deti hai.
aisa nahin ki aapse koi shikwa na ho lekin aapki masoom mohabbat saare gile door kar deti hai.dard mujhe hota hai toh takleef aap ko hoti hai. apni takleef bhi khoob chupate hain ,mera maatha choomkar muskura dete hain aur salah mein aasoon bahate hain.
shiddat se duva karti hoon ki aapki har arzoo puri ho aur mera har lamha aapke saaye mein guzre.ameen.
Posted in Love on 08/27/2008 03:59 pm by seema n
we were moving frm dubai to dublin.before going to dublin my husband n i visitd india. i was supposed to stay there for a mnth or 2 b4 joining him.due to some hurdles it got delayed by 5 mnths.
as i pack his luggage the thought of staying away frm him is haunting me . i go to the washroom n cry my heart out. as i return he asks me kya hua zukaam ho gayi. i said bas yun hi . lookin into my moist eyes n holdin my hands warmly he gives me a smile.he could hear wat i couldnt say n i could feel his pain even in his smile. yun hi dekhthi rahogi toh ja nahi paonga.at this point i couldnt hold on anymore . i hug him n cry like crazee…
dressed in his favourite color we head towards the airport to see him off. its time 4 him to leave , i cudn’t speak a word , cudn’t even say luv u. n he was talking so much - time par kha lena ,locks barabar karlena , phone karti rehna……….i was appreciating silently hw wonderfully he is camouflagin his sorrow.
after returning frm the airport as i enter my home the 1st thing i see r his shoes .i take a deep breath n wonder abhi toh ek lamha bhi nahi guzra n i m already missin him.
its r 1st weddin anniversary n we r not together.aur bhi suuna sa lag raha tha sab kuch us din. har koi mere saath tha lekin main jiske saath rehna chahoon woh nahi .i go to the terrace to divert myself lekin har raah udaas lag rahi thi .jaanti thi ki woh door hai lekin phir bhi nigaah unhe dekhne taras rahi thi.zindagi mein pehli baar laga kaash pankh hote…….
as i goto my room theres a surprise awaiting me - cake n flowers with a message “i m so happy to b sharing my life with u. u mean more than ever to me.” oh.. this has made my day . gazing at the beautiful red roses i smile to myself thinking ,for the world i m someone but 4 someone i m the world.ah!!!…..being in luv is such a pleasent feeling.i promise myself not to cry again n spend the hard days with the luvin memories.i close my eyes only to see his sparkling eyes n radiant smile.
the hard days r gone we r together in dublin nw.the day i met him, i hugged him n cried again.he started making fun - itna toh tumne apni shaadi mein bhi nahi roya.i start laughing while hitting him with a pillow.ah…there is so much comfort in this cry .i feel blessed to b living with my luv , my life.
shayad dooriyaan bhi nazdeekiyaan badane ka bahana hai.i thank god 4 evrything.
