She was strong headed. She was independent. She liked to live life on her own terms. She damn cared about ‘what people think’. So when she moved into the new colony, this 27 yr old just loved one thing apart from her boyfriend- her independence. So much that she didn’t care to acquaint herself with, leave alone befriend, anyone in the colony. She lived this way for 3 yrs..she didn’t talk to people around because she was afraid they may get ’sticky’ and then a hindrance in her independent, self styled schedule and lifestyle. They might join her in their group and make her a part of their bitching session against another group. They might make her feel less free about what to do, how to do, how to live. This was the newly found freedom of adulthood she savoured.
Now she is alone. Almost everybody around seems to have friends, exchanges casual chatter in mornings and evenings. They laugh together, sing together, and perhaps even back-chat together. But nobody talks to her and she to nobody. She is, an island, all alone, now that her boyfriend is working in another place. She is not very close to her family. Nobody knows what all she goes through. It begins with silence and ends with silence these days.
She tries to find out what went wrong or what can be corrected, only to be overwhelmed with tears.
No one stopped her from expressing her mind out in poetry paintings creativity….she appears a very intelligent person but her intelligence has got the better of her life ….let go all these baggages and accept the reality …the bird has flown and will not return as he has found his home…What is the girl searching for ????isnt it her “home” .Imagine if she were to die in next 3 months..then how were to use it…live in the present every moment cherishing it or lamenting in the past…Its all upto her ….like a writer who discards many pages to one best poem , she has to discard the past and move ahead her life is in her hands….once she crosses 30 there will be physiological changes that will make her completely introvert if allows herself to go on this way like a living dead.
This is the time for the girl to assess her inner feeling and what she really wants. for the mistakes she did or the judgements……..She spent some beautiful days that gave her joy and forget the world around……its her treasure .The true meaning of life of being together….So what if it went sour…..Its all in her power to relive that with a more acceptable partner who will be there somewhere waiting for her….She has to reach her hand out ……She has every right to lead a fuller live and not limit her life to that of borrow…….May be to begin with she can shower the uncapped love/effection that is busting in her chest on say her garden and plants .She could also get pets like love birds and share her time with them and see the magic of it …..She could also swallow her ego and just call her parents and just let them know how much she loves them and misses them……Independence is all OKAY ! but no one stopped her from smiling at her neigbours and sharing her cookings
who is she?interesting person to make friend.
nice post about the,” price of freedom ”
well…it sis not too late to change/.
just carry a smile and ahug with you and u can do wonders !
very touching .. it seemed to me .. I was reading my own story .. is it possible to correct everything that has gone wrong in the past ..? I”m not sure .. I keep asking myself exactly that .. take care .. all I can say is .. you are not alone ..