Call it ironical… coming from someone who chose to name her daughter Dhwani.. which means sound.. but I feel that the excessof sound in our day to day life is threatning to overwhelm the other senses..

And no it doesnt allude to the sounds made by my daughters,it is the jingling and ringing of the instruments and equipments that otherwise are a boon of modern day living. The various mobile phones,landline phone,internet telephone.. all vying for our attention …sometimes by ringing together.. while we struggle to find out which is which.. and not to mention the PSPs anhd the playstations which keep emitting some sound or the other…And who can forget the TV and the Fm which keep blaring 24 -7.

Gone are the days when the households had only one phone connection that too would be lyingdead most of the times..the only sound was the ringing of the doorbell  to announce guests expected or otherwise….now the doorbell hardly ever rings..but otherwise the house is a cacophany of sounds…is that the way we are filling up the lonliness in our life… the lack of human touch….by interacting more and more with the machine and through the machine……

I gather the courage to write after debating with myself for a long time…. though not a mumbaikar by birth we chose to make mumbai our home … there is no other city I love more than amchi mumbai and even though I have not been living there for more than 3 years my heart and soul still is in mumbai . And I am still to come to terms with what has happened … I feel  outraged , humiliated ,scared and shocked .. so much so that even after 8 days I wake up in the middle of the night ..

The blame game is on … we all are blaming the politcians , the intelligence.failure … but what I want to know as an Indian is what good is the resignation of the home ministers and chief ministers is going to do to us…even noe the major concern with our politicians is that who will be the next chief minister of Maharashtra… !!!!!!!!!We might as well not have one……what difference does it make?

Next time around if there is a terrorist attack in India would the terrorist do us a favour? Instead of killing the innocent could they please kill all our politicians ?

The politicians are a shameless lot and nothing  is of importnce to them as long as it doesnt translate into profit for their own selves… I was ashamed of their flippant remarks and callous attitude… because we have put them where they are…. so are they not reflecting ourselves in some way? are we  the people of India callous and flippant where human life is concerned? and this attitude has been named  The Spirit of our people….. because we keep bouncing back fom each tragedy that keeps befalling us…..but  is it truly the case?are we resiliant by nature and choice or out of circumstances….because we have no choice…..

My anger is not directed at one person or any terrorist or any country not even the politicians .. I am angry with myself… for being just a bystander .I am filled with a sense of impotent fury… a feeling of helplessness…. all I can do is write while my great country and my beloved city reels under terrible acts of horror and disgrace

Sometimes things start going wrong one after the other like a chain reaction and there seems to be no stopping them . (this has nothing to with my license, still awaiting the test date),the future seems bleak… but we hang on to a thin ray of hope and immense faith in God that things will improve and good days will be back again…Holding on to your faith in such times is a big challenge.. nothing seems to be working.. all plans backfire and a feeling of being lost takes over…

I pray to god that please let the ordeal be over, please .. give us our peace of mind and please never let our faith diminish….Peace to all.

Tommorow I appear for Signal and Parking test,which is called the internal test. After I pass this test, I shall have to clear assessments and then after completing the mandatory 20 classes Shall I be elegible to appear for the road test…..so my friends as we say    abhi delhi bahut door hai…translated as … long way to go ….here in this country driving has become tohionly because of Himugher than rocket science…after having driven in my own country… I am full of apprehension and doubts…. Is driving such a nerve wrecking thing?

Tommorow is just the begining of an endless journy… believe me I know people who have been in the line for more than a year.. and still havent got that elusive thing… the UAE driving license…. I think procuring a green card in the US would be simpler… well when I do get my license I shall definetly go to the one and only temple here and keep the license in the Lords feet because if I get it it will be only because of him

Yes… I did it…. Finally… after months of waiting…. I did what I so desperatly wanted to…. before all of you start imagining  things let me burst the bubble…. I started my driving lessons today…. now you will wonder whats so great about it… but if you are aware of the driving licence scene in U.A.E . you will share my euphoria…

After a long wait of six months I finally got a call to start my classes , today being the first of 20.. getting a licence here is a bigger feat than going to the moon… I know friends who have been trying for a year or more without success… my ordeal has only just begun… but still i am happy …if i am lucky i should be able to crack it in six months…..

But yes It was good to be behind the wheels after so long… there is the usual left - right  difference , many many more rules to keep in mind,…but it felt so nice… to be able to drive after almost three years…

Please pray I get my licence soon ….

Yesterday was my elder daughters 9th birthday,due to the summer break school is out and mostly all her friends are away, so she gathered the ones who werent and planned  to go for a movie..As a dutiful mom I agreed and consequently landed up with five preteens at the city center .

The movie they chose was WALLE , story of a robot who is left alone on earth after the last of the humans have fled the planet and no life remains except for a lone  ,yes you have guessed it right, cockroach….anyway this robot is cleaning up the earth for the past 700 years…when he stumbles upon a plant….

It was a beautiful film ,which set me thinking how actually possible it could be… but my only worry is that the significance of the film was lost on my daughter and her friends… when later I tried talking to them about it I was met with groans and moans and an admonishing glance from my daughter…

The way the human race is going about  nothing much would be left for us…..but noone seems to be bothered.. we keep misusing the only home that we know…how do we solve this problem ?

Visiting a blog site made me do some time travelling.. (I know I come across as the nostalgic types)… The nostalgia this time is musical…. listening to the likes of Carpenters and the Abba ,made me think of the time when we would listen to the radio australia..in late 70s and early 80s and hear songs like california dreaming….what a time that was…..

Nothing can recapture that magic again…. a song  spanning the continents… filling us with hope .. awe …and a sense of  magic….life could be what we wanted it to be,the whole life was waiting to happen… there was so much growing up to do…so much to see… the world was there waiting to be explored….

Explore I did…seven years of sailing has taken me to California and australia and every where else in between but somehow that magic I cudnt recapture….that is the power of music and music alone.

Well, I am coming back to write after a very long time. I have been around reading a lot of other blogs but never felt like writing in myself. Yet today just at the drop of a hat I decided to pen my thoughts…. if you can use that phrase …

Well here in my part of the world summer break has begun and it is good to see the children play and have fun all day.Everything is so relaxed and there are no mad rushes…. even the roads have cleared up ,the traffic has reduced… people have started leaving for their annual leave ….looking forwrd to visit India… hope to see a lot of rain … enjoy the monsoons….. its been a long time….