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Depressed? Not any more!

The last two weeks have been , I think, one of the worst in my life. I hit rock bottom where nothing made sense and all the existential questions of who am I, what am I doing, where am I going, what is the bigger purpose had no answers. One word was like a constant refrain in my head - 'REPLACEABLE'. I was replaceable at home, at work, with friends. So, why? What more? What else? Sudden bouts of crying complete withdrawal from any kind of social activity and a feeling of absolute hopelessness.


 


This led to short spells of breakdowns in front of a close friend and my sister ' both of whom, fortunately, didn't molly cuddle me,  but got me to see some home truths about why my life is where it is.


 


The reason I'm sharing this here is that there is sense in the 'all for the best' saying that we keep saying. Everything happens with a purpose.


 


I needed to go through this phase of intense self reflection to look up and forward. After you hit rock bottom, the only place to go is UP. But, ONLY if you want to! I could have continued feeling hopeless and drowned in self pity - continued to go through the motions of life without actually living life but I consciously chose not to. I've realized that innately, I am an optimist.  I always see hope. There is a purpose to my being here.


 


 I am back and I am rocking ' ok, maybe just swaying for now but will get there.


 


In my search for hope and meaning, I came across a saying that I want to share with all of you The castles you live in were first built in the air Live your dreams Ariana Trinity

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  1. Amrit says

    GOOD GOING …ALL THE BEST ALWAYS

  2. Dhee Kar says

    Thats great spirit Priya!! Please keep it up!!

  3. Abha says

    very uplifting thoughts esp. in your moments of depression.

  4. narayani says

    Life is always a struggle. We have to win the life with self confidence and optimestic views

  5. Mohana Chandra says

    Dear friend Priya, Life is full of fears if your heart is full of tears!
    Life is full of Bliss if your heart is full of Happiness!
    The only thing you have to do - to be happy in life - is
    Be Happy & Be Happy ! Let any adversary not touch
    your Heart !

  6. Hemant says

    Hello Priya,
    I was searching for someone else when I accidently stumbled on to this page. I could not resist stopping and reading the entire page after I read the first few lines.
    You have hit the nail on the head. I can identify with what you have written cause I too am going through a similar phase.
    I like your attitude and your thoughts will probably give me the strength to look ”up” and get myself out of this situation that I am undergoing.

  7. Jay says

    You are right! I had some of those moments and answers come to me. The solution is getting “knowledge of self” and the best resources are Gita and Vedata study. Ancient wisdom shared by our ancient “Rishies” is invaluable and west is realizing this more than Indians’ and Asians. For us this knowledge is old and outdated and we follow western philosophies and materialistic ideas. Time to change the perceptions! Try yourself and experience the unexplainable bliss and live every moment of it.

  8. Kalpana Mishra says

    keep the spirit and the world is yours.

  9. Moe M says


    Glitterize Your Images

    How wonderful it is when the bright patch in life comes your way lifting away the cobwebs of gloom and doom and despair - ain”t it. Niiiiiiiiiiiiice

    Take care “))))