At the End of the Day….

At the end of the day when all work is done and u’r mind is left out in a sheer space where u find nothing – no thoughts, no happiness, no plan, no future…but just a blank line going in beep beep… just like a instrument which shows out heart rates in terms of waves and line, But u want to go home take rest.

But some where deep in the heart u always think that to talk to loved ones, liked ones, or at least the ones with whom you are comfortable with…just like that to spark some happiness in your mind….have a smileJ, think of next thing to do, To go to bed happy and make the next day joyful …all these thoughts would come across with just the thought of a loved one…well, I guess every human craves for some care at the end of the day…and I’m no different to it….But many a times I found my self just craving craving craving..there is no response, no delight, no talk

Why do I choose the way I do?? And why do I end up all the way into same thing again and again?? What makes u do this way?? Don’t you learn from mistakes?? Still give away to have this feeling which burns your heart…eats your brain…kills yourself??

All this thoughts leave me no where but still these thoughts get back to you haunting, cursing…I keep writing to keep distracted, to express, to share and there are lots of things L

But one thought, one hope….all this is going to end soon…and I will embrace a future which should keep me going…which helps me get wat I want to..which lets me express my self..which provides me something secure…I keep revisiting this, Still in a dilemma but in a hope. Finally some end appears where I should park my self and stay and live for the rest of life… But I wish I should get wat I look for..