Question to my credibilty….

Haa….I woke up with this feeling now and came down here to
pen down the feeling running through my mind and heart….they are basically many
questions revolving…which I don’t have any answers

 Why I did I like someone…I never understood the rules of
attraction…I only knew one thing that if u like someone or love some then you
only wish to give..safety..comfort…luxury…ur mind…ur soul…every thing which
belongs to you….I tried the same…was that over dose of some thing?

I missed out that in every rule of attraction there is
always a thing called control..where you should not give every thing of yours….then
it becomes an one sided affair

Welll….I never understood why we start thinking about a
person when we are surrounded by 
millions and millions of ppl and there are lots of issues..happiness….thinking….altercations
going on around…Can’t keep pace with them? I would say one get’s use to some
thing which he starts believing that it is going to be with him life long….

I sound too frustrated right at this moment…as Im having
this feeling right now that I’m being ignored…aahhh here is it…it popped out of
my mind now…that I’m being ignored….uhhhh….shuxxx……this thing ….welll amazingly
helps realize ur control and work on it…but being it …feeling it…uff sounds herculean
task at times…but yes this is life again….u will get to know every thing…then u
know the thing which I talked about in the above paragraph..u start realizing
those things suddenly..it’s like you were sleeping and having a good dream and
now you suddenly wakeup to see the reality…

Well I’m seeing the realty now…that I’m a fool who keeps day
dreaming which will lead no where…I shud learn to accept the things which are
coming my way…

See there is a person who is coming in my life accepting me
all through the way I’m and am trying to run away from the fact…Come on man…grow
up and learn to live with the fact…

These things do happen in life and no one ever escapes
them..one shud always be ready for these challenges..

In the phase of life where one feels there shud be a partner…zooming
around in your career with lots of talented people around…pickup ur weapons and
start firing around lol…this is one of the sentence used by my manager…:P

The other rule is why is that the one you likes happen to be
liking some one else…uff this uncovers a lot of open questions…awww…my mind is
like a crawling baby…which knows what it is,…still keeps going to wards it
slowly….in the mean time others can pick it up….

Is there any credibility…here?