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Moments of Happiness- A Joy Forever!!

Once again a new day, a new sunshine and a fresh new story sluiced with breeze from the sacred corner of lonely heart.

I feel that there is nothing as heavenly as one's honest heart. Honest to itself first and honest to everything thereafter. When I recapitulate my feelings, expectation, experience and agony of trounce of each night I passed for the last one year, I must be honest. 

I have built my career in Sales and Marketing. I am going hard, non-stop for the last twenty years to achieve the goals. Goals those are grown up and nurtured in the deepest corner of my heart. I dreamt to have a decent job. Fair enough livelihoods. Wish for a blissful family.  A home that is ever welcoming and sweet. I made it. I have achieved almost everything I dreamt. I got fulfilled every expectations that I had in my mind till last year.

As I use to keep changing job for betterment, I changed my job in the last year. I joined a corporate. I started afresh with different ambitions. I got them grabbed as my fortune was kind enough to fulfill my dreams. But something was missing from my life. I was forlorn though my achievements were more than the expectations. Yes, I was definitely missing something. Something was slipping out of my life.

Now, on précising the days I left behind, I found the cause. I found the reasons behind that gloominess. I started finding myself getting detached from my family. I found myself standing alone. I found myself a stranger while I am at home. The love which was flowered on each and every corner was gone dried.  This is nothing but the lack of time. The time could not find any space for family. These days, I am traveling extensively. I use to be more than twenty five days a month on my tour. This has turned my sweet-home a Hotel/Rest house for me. I use to stay there for 5-6 days a month. It was again distancing me from my other half. Now, a scratch on relation was getting deepest day-by-day. I was feeling ignored at home. I was getting deprived from the warmness of love. I was experiencing barred from the divine touch of her. It was everything that could lead me to the end of my journey. But, a strong hearted brave warrior cannot leave battlefield. I realized the responsibilities that I had taken while bringing her and making her my better half. Again, I cannot live without love. I started searching it. I started passing my nights sleepless. I started writing poetry (my second love) again.

Suddenly, everything has changed. I was happy enough with my new life without wife in it. She turned just a co-dweller at home. We went touch less month after month. It was my fortune that I found a platform to write. I found podium where I can stand and speak honestly. I found friends, philosophers and well wishers who can share their feelings with me. Yes, I started writing blogs. My each and every blog echoes my inner voice. The pain of truth encased my heart are widely displayed to the world. Thankfully, I was recognized by the organizers (www.rediff.com) soon. I got placed on their homepage and rapidly my life has got a real twist. It has re-defined my aims. I got unexpected number of wishes. I started getting new and distant friends. I started feeling honored. I started rummage around to know the means of life once again. My friends will definitely write and encourage me to know the truthful meaning of life that is concealed under every cover of Materialistic World!! I again like to share my delight of being on the homepage for the first time in my life. I again and again thank all my friends and visitors to my blog and for leaving their heartfelt messages.

I keep this moment of happiness till the end of my life, I enjoy the joy forever.

Always yours,

Kamal Nuhiwal

17^th July, 2008

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