nocomplains's blog

after a lot of efforts,many restless moments ,hours ,days ,months and years,an endless and painfull battle of thoughts between heart soul and mind  ,finaly it seems that now things are going to be ok with me,more ever with life .but suddenly i think even now it is not sure that every thing is going to be correct ,but the trurh is that now i have decided that no matter how things are going whether in favour or not ,i must try to understand myself correctly and should treat myself right ,and i will do my best for it,bcoz if i fail to do so then how i can i expect others to do the same with me. above all its my own responsibility to bring peace of mind and soul for me,and i cannot expect it from  anyone else to do this for me.

coming out of the shadows
of the past and reaching
to the light that is now
shining in its glory
i realized i am standing all alone,
with the whole world at my disposal;

i searched, i needed somebody
to continue the exploration,
or so i thought; how
naive and so dumb one can become;

wasting precious time
doing nothing other
than wandering through life
i became more confused than before;

unable to run anymore,
i sat down to take stock
and i realized  i got
me, myself and i;

learned a lot along the way,
and now my very own best friend
exploring uncharted territories
me myself and i
that’s all i got in the end
that’s what i found out
me, myself and i;

this is the time  in my life when i am  all alone in a crowed of  lots  relatives ,known and unknown peoples, collegues ,and others. away from all my friends. some time i wonder if i have realy any friend???? but truly saying i donot have any complaint  against this lonelyness.infact i really need it currently. i need some time to think about …….about my self, my life my thoughts…….i want to be truely me ………i want to speak only what i really think about the things      not  what people want from me to speak.      i want to be as honest ,as iam from deep of my heart.i donot want to only pretend to be so.
i want to feel honest happiness not only want to dream about. i donot want to fool myself about a happy life but i really want to make it so.iknow i have to wait and give my effort to achive this goal ……..it may take a long  time and may be i will never reach to my goal……..but still i have to try……..and i am doing the same………..and i want to say everybody around me to please let me try my own honest effort  regardless of the rules of family,society. plz donot force me to live my life according to what all people usually do in their life. because lots of things are different in my life in others. and let me find my destiny according to my own way………..but i cannot say that to them because i know thy will not understand me……………even i cannot be angry to them becoz  iknow they r doing every thing for my happiness only.
      so i becided to be silent for some time and not to say anything to anyone……..but now they think that i have made distance from them       but the reality is that i really  need time to think about me…….my self

Year 2009 …….an year that was one of the years that played important roles in my life. An year  when I leant a lot about life……the reality of life ……which will now help me to  travel rest of the journey of my life with honesty and truth which I  always wanted to  do but most of the time I found myself failed. Always there was a pinch of dissatisfaction. whenever I tried to find the cause….i thought that there were somewhere an anger inside me about  the society……people …..my  relatives and others…….but the year 2009 taught me that this anger  was not because of others but I was not  satisfied with me myself.. there were lots of questions unanswered …….i wanted the answers of these question from others ………year 2009 told me to   make my own  efforts to get these answers   …….

In year 2009  I decided to live remaining each moment of my life with all honesty and truth of my heart and mind and not to worry about others thought and reactions because all these things are not in my control.
            WISHING ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR AHEAD……….

Year 2009 …….an year that was one of the years that played important roles in my life. An year  when I leant a lot about life……the reality of life ……which will now help me to  travel rest of the journey of my life with honesty and truth which I  always wanted to  do but most of the time I found myself failed. Always there was a pinch of dissatisfaction. whenever I tried to find the cause….i thought that there were somewhere an anger inside me about  the society……people …..my  relatives and others…….but the year 2009 taught me that this anger  was not because of others but I was not  satisfied with me myself.. there were lots of questions unanswered …….i wanted the answers of these question from others ………year 2009 told me to   make my own  efforts to get these answers   …….

In year 2009  I decided to live remaining each moment of my life with all honesty and truth of my heart and mind and not to worry about others thought and reactions because all these things are not in my control.
            WISHING ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR AHEAD……….

my childhood was the time when i was innocent
when the world seemed to be fair
when my universe was around my toys

my childhood was the time when 9i lived in dreams
when everyone was selfless
when everyone appeared to be a friend

my childhood was the time when my life was full of colours
when sorrows never knocked my door
when smile was gift presented to everyone

my childhood was the time when love was pure
when there were no obligations
when tenderness prevailed

my childhood was the time which is long gone
tears flow from my eyes when i go back in my childhood
my childhood will never come back but
the child in me will never go 

                             My Childhood BY jahanvi      

                                                           ANJALI

How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
                                Can you reroute the course you have taken
                               And start over once again?

I don’t really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
                                   The times we’ve loved . . . the times you’ve left
                                  My heart says stay . . . but it’s my mind I must trust.
  We have shared so much together
 Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
                                       Yet sometimes we can’t turn back time
                                        We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy
And your soulmate you will find;
                                                     I  know we each have one out there
                                                  Even if for now . . . only in  our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God’s best come your way;
                                                    And on some quiet tomorrow
                                            You will realize things were better this way.