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" .And then what hppnd ?? ..ya, I kno u are eager to kno that but may be I m not the right person to tell u that .!!… how wud u like to hear it frm Adi himself ?? ." .

" Hi frnds I m Aditya .I know that u all know me well by now .coz this stupid lill bird of mine has been troubling u a lot for quite a while .!!! Its her big time habit to stretch the things like a rubber band actually ..

stop frowning at me rishita …c, she is getting angry now ;-)..

ok ok .no, but jokes apart, I know that her only purpose for being overwhelmingly explicit all this while was to make 'you' feel what 'she' actually felt in those moments .she jus wanted to relive every bit of it by sharing with u .!!

no rini..??….ya, c she's smiling now .!!!

Well, at the time when she was leaving I suddenly felt that .like I was being parted away from my own life, my own breath ..her each n every step away frm me started suffocating me .!!!….. n that moment of past flashed in my mind 'u wont forget me na' ..I wasn't mature enuff at that time to realize what I actually meant by those words ..

…I feared loosing her then n I was about to loose her again…!!

but thankfully this time I realized my feelings well in time wasn't too late .or was I rini ??"

“….no u weren’t….J ." .

"hmm So .no more stretching .to cut the long story short

I love her n we have been happily married for 1 yr 4 months now..!!"

"AAAddii man, u jus pray that that was a teaser… coz it was 1 yr 4 months 2 months back ..its 6 months now ."

"4 months "

"how dare u forget ???????????…..its 6 ..oh god ..aayiiiiiii and u ..u come with me .!!!"

"hey hey hey ..I'm comin, I'm comin ..stop pulling me ..ohh .ohhkkk .guys .well I guess I’m dead ..really gotta go .it was nice meeting u all ..hope to catch u smtime ltr soon bbyyye .rishitaaaa ..awrite awrite watever u say now let go off my hand girl ..!!!!!"

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Some queer glances arnd brought us back to the platform from an almost ecstatic world !!! though a few, but people were staring at us ..both of us felt a sudden gush of uneasiness n I balanced myself back .

" ..sorry that was I ..I just .slipped ."

"its .ok.."

Slightly conscious, slightly embarrassed I reached for my bag again, took my mobile n spoke home..!!

as I put the phone down he said, "rini ..I I ."

jus then a whistle cut him short ..the train..!! ..it had arrived .!!!!!

I was lookin at him, there was surely smthing he wanted to say very earnestly, I cud sense that restlessness in his manner ..

"what is it Adi .?? .u ok ??"

n I cud see clear enuff that words came restrictedly frm his mouth,

"y ya m fine nothing .!!…"

I wondered what was wrong with him….for there sure was something wrong with him .!!!!….

He called a porter n we stood there watching him get my luggage on the train .

It was time to go .. "so….time to go I guess .it was really nice meeting u aftr so long ."

"ya ..same here .hope to c u arnd !!"

"hmm .." ..I smiled .we shook hands n I set off to leave .

But as I started walking towards the train I felt as if I was leaving a part of me behind .I was terribly missing smthing .jus cudn't make out what ..but I was .something was burning inside me ..it was being so difficult to take each n every step towards the train . or may be .rather ..

'away from him' .

"yes, it was being so difficult to take each n every step away from him .!!!" …

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"train is on time " .he was back .

"gud "

He sat beside me on the bench silently ..but this time arnd, Silence was speaking, it was actually speaking volumes.. .!!!!!!

After a few centuries (moments actually which seemed like centuries) he said,

"when wud u be back..??"

"y ??"

"no .jus like that "

I was trying to read his mind . "well, cant say .may be in a week or so !!"

"all right "

why did he ask that ?? does he wanna meet me again ?? may be smthing is ..

I dint have any answers ..there was nothing on his face .or voice .n eyes .well, he wasn't looking at me..!!

"I'll jus make a call to nanny ." .as I began to stand to reach my bag, I lost my balance n stumbled .I sure wud have fallen if it hadn't been him .n .that was probably the first time I saw that 'look' in his eyes

he ..he .jus cudn't take his gaze off me, nor cud I ..felt like that time had come to a halt n I wished that it wud remain like that forever !! there I was in his arms, all senses n yet lost !!!….

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I dared not to rise hastily lest I awoke him ..jus slightly raised my head from his shoulder n looked towards him .his eyes were closed and there was a somber touch on his face .!!

Believe me, I wont ever be able to put in words the eternity which I felt in my heart at that moment ..it was intoxicating ..felt like giving a peck on his cheek n whisper a good morning wish in his ear ..!!

I softly removed his hand from my waist and treaded out of the bed ..went to the window, stood there for a moment, turned arnd to look towards him, smiled n murmured,

"I still love him " !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.. . ..!!!!!

Train was due in next 1 hour ..I was getting ready to leave and aayi was packing me smthing in the kitchen

"all set .???" Adi was standing at the door

"ya " I smiled .

"I'll come along, I'm expecting someone " ..

'hmm .." .I dint know wat more to say ..!!

I gave aayi a tight hug and promised to come over again once I wud be back from home ..I waved to her as we crossed the gate ..we reached the station well in time, in fact early ..

Adi went to the enquiry n I sat on the bench

my mind was all memories ..jus a few hours back I was sitting on the same bench having no idea wat was in store for me that night ..n now, here I am, again, but my lyfe isn't the same for me nymore !!….n don kno y but .smhow his manner seemed different too .!!!

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Though much to his discomfort, I was looking straight into his eyes so as not to escape even the slightest ex-pression, be it of surprise or confusion or hesitation !!

"I don kno " he said in a clear voice ..

Had he said 'yes' I wud sure have been disappointed ..as natural n honest as ever, I thought smilingly !!!…..we turned towards the window again

"such a lovely weather .isn't it ??" I said as I saw some water collect in my stretched palm

"yeah, it is…"

Suddenly, mischievously, I splashed it on his face n a moment later he was after my lyfe as I vainly tried to escape his tight grip on my wrist ..

"rini ki bacchi "

"aah aah…ok ok I'm sorry I'm sorry .leave me no Adi ." I wailed !! but he wont n I knew how he wud .. 

“aayiiiiii ." I screamed playfully n he let go off my wrist immediately .!!

n then we were in riots of laughter that was like reliving those college days again pure delight !! We settled ourselves on the bed talking abt the past, college, old frnds, studies, our jobs, families, future plans n wat not ..I have no account of where n how the time flew by .I never wanted that night to end .

"journey was probably more beautiful than destination" !!

When I opened my eyes, it was near to dawn, I cud hear chirping of the birds, n feel the sweet smell of wet earth thru the window, 'the rain had stopped' ..that was when I realized that smtime while talkin during the night we had fallen asleep ..my head rested on his shoulder n his arm held me around my waist !!!

"My hhheart skipped ahh beat" .!!!!!!!!!!

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I dint say nything, dint move at all ..after a few seconds he opened the door n came in .treaded softly towards the window where I was standing ..n there we were, together, quiet, at complete loss of words, at complete loss of actions .!!!…I was still looking out of the window n so was he..!!

"y dint u say nything ??"  it was he who broke the silence .

"I dint say wat ??"

"u kno wat .u very well kno ..all that while I kept talking to u n u dint say even a single word !!!"

"wat shud I hv said Adi ??  that hey, Adi, don't u remember me ..I m rini .ur best frnd dint u recognize me ??…..there was a time when u said, u wont forget me na rini ..so, may be, I expected better than this from u .!!"

He sighed n finally turned towards me, "I'm ..I'm sorry .!!"

I took a deep breath, turned towards him n said smiling, " u needn't be .Its ok..I understand !! "

The air relaxed a bit n so did we .!!

…..there was a lot to say, a lot to ask, but we jus dint kno where to start from !!……

"so .basketball coach haan ??…..nice"

"yeah n congratulations, I always knew u wud mk smthing big !!"

that was a futile attempt on my part to start a talk ..!!…..we were blank again .

After a long pause he said, "u have changed a lot..!!"

"so have you "

I cud sense a restlessness arnd !! Yes, I knew he wantd to say smthin more or may be confess, but I also knew that he wudn't .!! men will be men u see !!!!!

"did u ever miss me Adi .??" .that was 'me' at last .!!

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and Adi .oh god, u should have looked at him .completely haywire .almost bewildered !!!!!!

"ma, yeh .???????????????????"

"are . Its rini .!!! y r u behaving as if u don kno her !!" she said as we separated

"no, he knows, jus doesn't remember .!! Right Adi..??" I said as I drifted my glance towards him from aayi ..he was still in shock .!!!

We moved in, but he stood there at the door, astounded, perplexed, surprised .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I changed, aayi made my favorite ginger tea .meanwhile I made a call home n explained everything then we sat in the living room, chatting ..aayi was very happy n so was I ..n all this while Adi sat there silently, watching us ..or may be ..watching "me" !!……I cud feel his gaze ..an urge, an earnestness which wantd to say smthing to me, but jus cudn't ..!!!…..aayi wudn't let me go off, as if she wantd to talk abt all those 8 yrs in one go .!!!

After arnd 2-3 hrs I retired to the guest room, tired n exhausted !! It was arnd 2 o' clock now ..I opened the window n rain drizzled on my face .clouds were still playing in the sky, showing no intentions to take rest ..I cud feel the cold breeze n that slight shiver in my body ..smthing was on my mind ..wat..??  I don kno ..or may be .I don want to 'admit' .!!!!!

Jus then a 'knock' on the door ..I dint turn, and I wasn't surprised at all, just excited .may be I had already anticipated that 'knock' .!!!

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