You, Me, aur Blog
(iLand)
Second Inning ' Closing it to remain open
I had started blogging when I was in my job after engineering. I went through all phases of blogging experience, from the days when I craved for comments, to the nights I slogged to read all your blogs and thereby improved my typing speed writing comments for you :). I ate, drank and lived blogging. I kept myself consoled saying that blogging was a passion in my life, and there was no harm in a little indulgence. I had left my job to do full time MBA by that time, but the passion had no full stops. In between classes and on days when there was no class, iLand was happening in my already happening life. On personal front, I actually grew up with you all, and the gratitude is immense. I have been away from home since I passed my 12th, so there was always a void. I am an extremely homely person, and here I found so many father-figures, saw mother in so many of you and loved many friends, brothers and younger sisters. (I left 'elder sister' because I grew up fighting and competing with my own and I never thought she was elder to me. So I take time to accept it as a relation and normally I simply jump to mother) At that time I had noticed that blogging was eating up my time which I could have used in academics. But iland was real life, books looked virtual
Some time back when I was to pass out from my b-school, I thought if I should discontinue blogging Because of the 'open heart' person I am, I get into many iland controversies; and am happy to have cooked many of them myself. At this point, I also saw my life changing on personal front: my parents were looking for a suitable match for me, (btw they are still looking and I am waiting for the search to end :), and I thought when she comes how will she feel seeing her husband fighting on behalf of BJP on the iland :), just for example. The only way out was that she should come soon and help me in the decision. But that had not to happen. (Mother has always been against my blogging, asking me to use the time invested for resting or even sleeping, and not to write anything personal :) Then the second dilemma: what will happen if my boss finds out my political inclination, though I don't think I am so radical yet :) One way was to write only nice-nice writings and not to touch political and religious matters. But that kills the fun. It was a difficult decision, and hence I gave time to myself. In between, a new problem came up. Now I hardly had time! 12 hours a day would go consumed in my new job. So the frequency of blogging reduced. As if this was not enough, my over-concern for things came up as a big hindrance. If you read all my blogs and I don't get to read you, I feel bad. If I read some among you and don't get to read someone else, I again feel bad. This was a lose-lose condition and I had to come out of it.
Some time back I noticed that there is an option in iland by which I could make the comment page vanish! Blogging without comments? At one time, comments were life-blood for me too; blogging without anyone visibly reading seemed not worth it. Again, I gave myself time. Or may be an excuse to hang on And now I really think that I won't have much time to visit and read all of you regularly. I had started accessing blogs from office too and wanted to stop this bad habit. Then one day I will get married and I thought I should not be spending time on iland rather than with family. Even after all this I didn't want to stop writing. I write on many topics which are useful for all, and many times I have myself reached to my blog while searching for something on Google. I love reading, and when thoughts come out from different angles, writing is a great way of clearing the thought process. Also, I simply love writing and I don't want to lose it anyways. One of my dreams is to author many books, and till it becomes a reality, blogging is a good platform. (By this time you would have observed a millionth time that I think too much :)
So all said and done, the decision is that I am closing my comment page for ever. I will keep writing as and when I get time and if you find them interesting do keep visiting my blog. Guestbook will remain open and you are welcome to write in there, or you can always email me. Normally I don't change things so fast, and naturally I am loyal to everyone and to all that I do. I will also keep reading you, may be dropping in to read many of your latest posts on a single day. The change will break the excessive attachment that we bloggers tend to have for our blog and posts. From now on, I don't expect many comments on my blog, so my attachment with my blog and my posts will vanish. Secondly, I won't feel that much obliged to read all of you all the time with that much sincerity. It is needed for my happy personal life.
If you read me, it is not necessary to post a comment. But feel free to talk to me whatever you like. I will respond whenever I am here I will also read you all whenever I get time
I won't say thanks to you for what you all have been to me, because I trust you know my feelings very well
I will remember you, always
Stay in touch
(Kr. Rahul Tiwary)
Picture taken today, using self-timer of my own camera :)
