Friend and Lover

The period in time was 1908-09.

Aurobindo Ghose was in Alipore jail for a year. He had written  instructions to his lawyer for his trial.

But with an unexpected change,  Sri Chittaranjan Das,a friend of Ghose, stood there to defend him in the case. Ghose still thought it necessary to give him instructions. He  heard an inner voice:

". . . . . . .put aside those papers. It is not u who will instruct him. I will instruct him."

Ghose stopped speaking another word to his lawyer.

Ghose, soon after coming out of jail, in a public speech, recorded  in History as "Uttarpara speech" recalls that he had earlier never heeded this very persuasive voice .

A month before his arrest, he had felt a calling, to put aside all activity, to go into seclusion, and to look into himself.

Fully involved in India's struggle for independence, his work was extremely dear to him and his ego was such, he felt that if  he was not there, the work he was doing would suffer or fail and cease.

One month later Ghose was arrested and in confinement.

In the same speech, Ghose admits to having heard  that voice again and again:

 "I am guiding, therefore fear not. . . . Remember that it is I who am doing this, not u or any others. . . ..what I choose to bring about, no human power can stay."

That when he looked at the Jail that secluded him from men:

 ". . . . . it was no longer the high walls that secluded me; No, it was Him who surrounded me. I walked under the branches of the tree. . . .but it was not the tree. I knew it was Him, it was Him whom I saw standing there and holding over me his shade. I looked at the bars of the cell and again I saw Him. It was Him who was guarding and standing sentry over me. . . . . .Or I  lay on the coarse blankets and  felt his arms around me, the arms of my  Friend and Lover. . . .."

Ghose recalled that when he was brought before the magistrate: 

"I looked, and it was not the magistrate that I saw. It was Him,. . . .  it was Him who was sitting there on the bench. I looked at the prosecuting counsel. It was Him who sat there, it was my Lover and Friend who sat there and smiled,: "Now do you fear ?” He said ,” . . . . My protection is still with you and you shall not fear. The case which is brought against you, leave it in my hands. It is not for you. It is not for the trial that I brought you here, but for something else. The case itself is only a means for my work and nothing more . . . ." "

About his life before Alipore Jail, he said on the same occasion:

“. . . . I hardly had a living faith in Him. The agnostic was in me, the atheist was in me, the sceptic was in me and I was not absolutely sure that there was a God at all. I did not feel His presence. Yet something drew me to the truth of the Vedas,the truth of the Gita. I felt there was a mighty truth somewhere ……”

 

After Alipore Jail,  Ghose re-entered the world  “as a new being, a new character, intellect, life , mind,” and embarked “upon a new course of action”. 

He  later became Sri Aurobindo, the founder of the Sri Aurobindo Ashram at Pondicherry.

This is from the "Uttarpara speech"   with minor editing, but without change in the meaning.

The commemorative plate at the Alipore Court reads: