I have this habit of seeing life as chapters. As I see it, every event marks the end of a chapter and/or the beginning of a new one. There may be no truth in this theory but it just helps me detach after I close a chapter and look forward to the next. It does get confusing at times though. For example sometimes when I meet people whom I do not necessarily hate and I do not see too often, I am not sure if it is the end or a beginning. There are these faces who pop out of nowhere after long periods of silence and you are unsure of their purpose in your life.
There is a period in everyone’s life when one is naive enough to believe in ’signs’ and then frantically look for them everywhere. So then these lollypops come up and you have a great time and think ‘yay I got the sign, I got the sign! so this is it, this is my destiny’, and then after some days the boat starts rocking and/or there is another lolly and you face a diversion on the road you thought would lead you to your destination. Naive that we are, we again believe this is the ‘right’ sign and that we are now on track but more often than not, history repeats itself. Which is what leaves me wondering if life itself plays carrot and stick, why blame our bosses alone? Also reminds me, two months to appraisal. Need to look out. That’s habit #2.