Just thinking
I have this habit of seeing life as chapters. As I see it, every event marks the end of a chapter and/or the beginning of a new one. There may be no truth in this theory but it just helps me detach after I close a chapter and look forward to the next. It does get confusing at times though. For example sometimes when I meet people whom I do not necessarily hate and I do not see too often, I am not sure if it is the end or a beginning. There are these faces who pop out of nowhere after long periods of silence and you are unsure of their purpose in your life.
There is a period in everyone’s life when one is naive enough to believe in ’signs’ and then frantically look for them everywhere. So then these lollypops come up and you have a great time and think ‘yay I got the sign, I got the sign! so this is it, this is my destiny’, and then after some days the boat starts rocking and/or there is another lolly and you face a diversion on the road you thought would lead you to your destination. Naive that we are, we again believe this is the ‘right’ sign and that we are now on track but more often than not, history repeats itself. Which is what leaves me wondering if life itself plays carrot and stick, why blame our bosses alone? Also reminds me, two months to appraisal. Need to look out. That’s habit #2.
Chance and your ability to dance on it are the two things you can know for sure. Imagine yourself in space without any light from stars, planets, or galaxies. Now that is life for real. Thankfully, you have a small torch of reason and willpower to see what is happening a few meters around you. That’s all you have. To expect more is to remain a child and be angry why things are not to your liking. You try your best, but know at your heart that you are lucky in getting whatever you have. No god, no sign, no karma, no nothing can influence random chance. That is my philosophy#1.
But there is beauty. It makes you bigger than the rest, bloating you up, and giving you cosmic powers of feeling truly happy and being beyond yourself. “Pano korey robi shoshi onjoli bhoriya/ Soda dipto rohe okkhoyo jyoti / Nityo purno dhora jiboney kironey” That’s not really my philosophy#2, but felt nice preaching in public.
thx for the pep talk. v useful
Difficult to see life as chapters although we would love to as it makes life simple. The difficulty arises from the very fact you just mentioned, the interweaving and mingling of chapters. You can never be successful in closing a chapter and moving to next. But as homo sapiens, each time we long for a fresh start and hence we try to start a new chapter, a new beginning and look out for new avenues.
Loved ur post dear..i always had doubt about life as a book and closing and beginning of chapter..it seems every normal person thinks like that..love
i simply love the first line “I have this habit of seeing life as chapters”. it makes me remember how i’d always consider my life like a bookshelf, not that i know much, but that i have felt much from what’s been stacked at me
Yes, AR…..each person’s life can indeed by divided into chapters, not only of those who write autobiography etc. …..nice to see you here again, though as a blogging site, Rediff has lost all glory.
u got a category ‘philosophy’ too? jokes apart.. nice write up antz. wait for the ‘right’ sign to else u’ll get ‘left’ on the wrong lane.