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The Lost Self…

Dim light cozy atmosphere and antique furniture made room perfect for the candle night dinner. Rohit sitting on bed and going through the magazine. It’s Saturday evening and day to wake up till late night, Sunday being holiday. Time piece hand moving with its constant pace. A perfect silent, a perfect light, a perfect environment a dream a person can have. Rohit was proud of what he has. He has right things, he has right environment and right friends. Still there was deafening silence, darkness somewhere. Something was lost and it was YOU. It was lost some where, sometime in the process .


 


He slept while reading the magazine unaware of time. Sound of door key, broke his sleep. It was Rahul, his roommate.


“Sorry Rohit, I have been to Anil houses. He has given a surprise birth day party.


So become late. You had your dinner?” Rahul hugged affectionately.


“Yes had a beer, special Gobi Manchurian & tandoori. Your share is in refrigerator


Hope would not mind finishing it” Rohit in simple language.


“Yes why not” opened refrigerator and smiled. Bottle was yet to open.


He understood silence and give childish kiss to ease an uneasy environment


” We will have it tomorrow” Rahul


Rohit checked time it was 1 O’clock… late night


Both of them slept, there was an undercurrent in Rohit mind. He was not usual.


 


It was 6.00 pm. Rohit woke suddenly from deep sleep after work. It was winter time and sun has set. He jumped from the bed “What I am doing here “. Opened the door


And shouted at ward boy “two cup of tea “. This was quit usual, ward boy know where to serve two cup of tea.


 


Rohit had a quick bath with shoes pulled on and out to Vivek room. He has just come after his work.


“What happened today? Our people are hiding facts” Vivek ask


“What happened” Innocence is what was time demand and Rohit has. He know several things goes unlogged & he himself was sometime victim 


“Nothing is logged and by naked eye things are visible, how to explain. Why people are hiding”. Vivek little upset.


“Tell me what has happened in morning before 9.00am” Vivek enquired.


“I know nothing, it’s your section ..I am busy with morning reporting”


” You dump, your mouth is will not open, I will find out tomorrow”


Two cups of tea arrived, discussion and arguments ..


 


Sip of tea follows path to club. Club boy saw the two coming and was ready to issue


Badminton and T.T rackets. Badminton was Vivek baby and Rohit has to bit the bite.


before the start of game, vivek will challenge” You will loose with zero point.”


And he does sometime.


On T.T table it would be fight to finish with Rohit wining most of time. This was routine and was quit know.


 


An electrical pole in front of club in garden was place to rest. It was mystery, why this place was so dear to Vivek. After hours of sweeting .under electricity pole… usually Vivek will start “You know he had I will I am mad about”. After a few days Rohit relished that it was strategic point to watch on club, colony and road. He has eagle eye and makes fun of it. Each day will have new story a laugh…


 


Dinner table used to be full with many people. People sit probably it in a particular order unknowingly. There was no logic but it happens


 


Dim light in room, makes it dull and bright light makes too bright Rohit and Rahul discussion with open heart. Time force them to say good night if next is day working day.


 


Rahul “Good morning” and tap will woke everyday in morning and bed tea is


Ready to refresh you.   


Rahul “I can’t stand alone  … sorry to woke you up”   


Rohit ” I had a bad dream tonight .”


Rahul “You ever had good dream ”


Again the time piece force to stop conversation. 


 


Its Sunday Rohit got up and released Rahul has not come since yesterday.


“This is getting normal”. Deep sense of loneliness creped thought his mind.


Uneasiness has taken over his mind. Self as asking


“Do you like Dim Light?”


“Do you like dinner and bear”


“Do you like evening spend in four walls?”


“Do you like .”And a thing goes on


He relished two changes has taken over, over period of time. It was unintentional, may be natural and unknown


 


Rohit looked at alarm look. It was 8.00am. He smiled and get out of bed opened door and ordered”


“Send breakfast in room, will be out in half an hour”  


He worked with the speed of light, refreshed, shower, pulled casual dress matching


With holiday mood. Breakfast has arrived by the time. It was 8.20am. “Only five minutes” he speaks to himself. I have to run now to catch bus.


 


While coming out of building could see bus coming. It was time to test athletic skill…


A 100 meter race, a race with time, a race with bus speed .” I am going to win”     


Was the sprit he had and he wins .  


 


His breath was uncontrollable in bus, people have seen the race. Some acquainted smiled and asked “Today is holiday”


With enthusiasm “Yes”


“I am going to enjoy” was unspoken


 


Ganesh opened the door and spoke with exclamation “I can’t believe”


Rohit answered coolly with smile “It’s me, nothing wrong”


Rohit “Are you coming to movie”


Ganesh “I haven’t for long time, let me ask other they are joining”


And group moved to theater for chat . For ice cream and dinner at end.


 


 


Its winter time. Streets have deserted. By the time Rohit return to room was it was 7.30. His sixth sense has told “Rahul is in room”. On seeing Rohit entering room…


Rahul ” Where were you, we have been waiting for you so long  … ” he was little upset. Probably because it has happened first time…


Anil “Where have you been”


Rohit “Very near to your house… to see the movie”


Ramesh “Come have a peg… you are already late.”


Rohit “Only rum no cocktails ”


Rahul “Why not  …dinner is on way  … only bear is available now… would you like this combination”


Rohit “Sure, any combination that takes me off on first sip”


Rahul laugh “but don’t spoil room, otherwise will make sure you have to clean it”      


Rohit “I was not aware such wonder full evening is waiting for me, Otherwise would not have dinner after movie”


Rahul “You know every weekend we have .”


Rohit “I will have a wash before dinner  … hope my cocktail is ready by time”


  


Dinner arrived. A perfect dinner a person can have. Salad, papad with special masala, non and stuffed non, variety of vegetable in fashionable French cutlery. Rohit has no            


Apatite but till carried on with peg of rum and papad. Conversation moved to Ramesh preparation of examination, anils visit you native place, little bit of politics and office


Light chat.


Rohit broke conversation “My bear has not arrived, what happened”


Pressed the bell to call ward boy. “Bear is not available presently”


Rohit “I will try from club, can’t do without it.”


 


Vivek was on badminton court. 


On seeing Rohit coming to club Vivek called “where were you?”


Rohit “To movie”


Vivek “Will you play”


Rohit with smile” Today is Sunday”


Vivek “Hamm, you are different today”


And he signal with Thumbs UP           


 


 


       


     


              


   


        


     


 


   


 


 


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