Sometimes we think everything easily but it really isnot like that. Sometimes we think nothing, just done as natural or just like a joke. But it caused a serious result and very bad. It affected to not only ourselves but other people also.
Sometimes we knew we made mistaken.
Sometimes we feel take pity with someone and we think that we can do something to help them, but we again make mistakes. That is not the love. But we thought it is love. That is a mistake too. Coz in fact, that is just some emotions or the pity or share …like that.
Sometimes I feel hate the past. I really hate the past. Coz i dont wanna make mistakes again like ever done in the past.
Right now i feel regret about everything which happened. I feel hate that person, even as a friend i also dont want. I feel to be disturbed, i feel the bother really. Even now i really dont want to see that face again. I ever thought abt that person as a nearest person, a brother, or even as a lover….but all is faulse, these are mistakes.
Maybe, i am a play , a game for all guys. They just wanted to tease me and make me hurted. So funny. I am a foolish gal.

I hate the past. I hate this place. I hate this job. And i hate everybody here.

I want to leave far from this place. Far away from sorrows and unfair and bad people.
I miss you Viji.

Today is the birthday of the person who is very important with me. That is my grandmother.

I still remember this day of last year we was very happy in?your birthday party….All members of big family…together…jolly, happy, full of laugh sounds…..that day had a big cake for u, a warm meal and happy… That day my sister and I gave u a small gift, a moss-green headscarf. I was so happy coz that day u also worn a green jacket….very nice….

You did too manything for me and my family. Since i was born u always take care and care for me and beside me . When i was ill, u was the person worry for me much. In all of members, i am the weakest person so u always worried and find all way to cure me…u found many remedies for me, taught me many things in life.

I still remember the days i lived with u during few years when i learnt in primary school, that days i lived in ur house, not with parents. I still remember the time went with u to Pagoda daily or sometimes…When i grow up a little my parenst brought me back home to live with them. And since that day i lived with my parents , not with u, not in ur house. My house is very very far from ur house, but weekly or monthly on Sunday my family still went to visit u, And i really felt happy when was with u.

I still remember when i went to work, too far from house so u let me live in ur house. Once more time i lived with u, my dear and respect Grandma. U took care for me , feed me. I still remember u sit there and waitted for me come home everyday from office and University…

… Too much memories i cant and will never forget. You are really is very important in my family.

Now, u gone from this world but forever u live in my mind and my heart. Grandma,I miss u very much. I love you very very very much Grandma. Are u fine there in Heaven? Do u live comfortable ? Are u happy? and.. pls dont forget me , your granddaughter.

( by the way i want to?show with all of u an other blog of mine in rediffiland i wrote last year too, pls click to this link : http://blogs.rediff.com/beethoven2000)

Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round

Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down

Don’t dance so fast

Time is short

The music won’t last

Do you run through each day on the fly

When you ask “How are you?” do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores running through your head?

You’d better slow down

Don’t dance so fast

Time is short

The music won’t last

Ever told your child,

We’ll do it tomorrow

And in your haste, not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

‘Cause you never had time to call and say “Hi”?

You’d better slow down

Don’t dance so fast

Time is short

The music won’t last

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift….

Thrown away…

Life is not a race.

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

“If u need more love from someone… do love that someone more first…”
“Love don’t need to be pretentious. Express it!!”

Tree
The reason people call me “Tree” is because I’m good at painting trees. Overtime I started to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.

I had dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There’s one gal who I love a lot but never dare to go after. She doesn’t have a pretty face, doesn’t have a good figure, and doesn’t have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. I like her innocence, like her frankness. I like her cuteness, I like her intelligence and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I’m also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I’m also afraid other’s gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she’s my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don’t have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase after gals, and I have made her heart cries for 3 years. She wants to be a good actress and I’m a very demanding director.
When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & say, “Go on!” before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn’t want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody went back home, she was alone crying in the classroom.

She didn’t know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watched her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn’t like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she’s not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled with shocking sad tears. I didn’t care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.

The next day, she still laughed & joked with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she’s very hurt but she didn’t know that my heartache is as bad as hers. I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know who’s the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy, full of energy, is lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school. I can’t show her my heartache but could only smile & congratulate her.
When I reached home, the heartache is so strong that I can’t stand it. It’s like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn’t breath.

Wanted to shout but can’t. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn’t acknowledge her presence too? During graduation, I read a sms in my cp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven’t read it since then.It says,
“Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit.
Or because'
Tree didn’t ask her to stay”

Leaf

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not 'B-G Relationship' kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can’t be described by using a lemon. It’s like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal. I like him & I know he like me. But why won’t he pursue me? Since he loves me why he doesn’t want to make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he doesn't like me, why does he treat me so well? It’s beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.

You can’t expect me a gal to ask him right? Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It’s like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him.
The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I’m willing to let him have a small footing in my heart.
He’s like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn’t want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn’t ask me to stay.

“Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit.
Or because'
Tree didn’t ask her to stay”

Wind

Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she’s so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away.
When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him.
When he talks with gals there’s jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there’s a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. One day, she didn’t appear. I felt something amissed. I can’t explain the feeling except it’s a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled at her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

“Leaf’s heart is too heavy and wind couldn’t blow her away. It’s not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree”

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over.
I can’t remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn’t hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked,
“What are you doing? How come you didn’t want to reply?”
She said, “I’m nodding my head”.
“Ah?”
I couldn’t believe my ears.
“I’m nodding my head”
She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell.

During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
“Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit.
Or because'
Tree didn’t ask her to stay”

Vietnamese new year

Lunar New Year ( Tet) is a biggest traditional festival in Vietnam . Time : 1^st to 3^rd on the first month ( Lunar calendar). On the occasion of Tet, families usually get together to visit with relatives and friends to share and express their best wishes for the new year.The days nearly before New Year , they send greeting cards to relatives and friends

Tet and indispensable features :

Homage to Kitchen God Tao
Tet rites really begin a week before New Year'Day. On the 23^rd day of the 12^th Lunar month, a ceremony is held at home in honor of the Tao Quan( Gods of the Hearth).

Nguyen dan, the Vietnamese New Year is the time to pay homage to the kitchen God Tao. The custom associated with the kitchen God is observed a week before the New Year. Vietnamese believed that there are three gods represented by the three legs of the cooking equipments in the kitchen. The middle God is a woman and the other two are her husbands. In earlier times, it was customary to provide a carp to the gods on which they can travel. The carp symbolizes the second last stage of the process by which animals were transformed into dragons. Keeping the old custom alive, people buy the carp from the market and place in the bucket of water and placed on the altar of the house which was later set free.

Vietnamese New Year Food
Vietnamese New Year food includes a special rice pudding called banh Chung or banh Tet prepared beforehand. The pudding contains mung beans and pork. Other New Year delicacies include preserved sweets, chicken, fish, oranges, beef, grapefruits, coconuts and some seasonal fruits.

New Year going out, gathering luck and visit:

The time of the Xuat Hanh ( Going Out Ceremony), which usually takes place on the night of the New Year'Day or the second day of the year, is carefully chosen at the propitious hour in accordance with one 's birth date. Young men and women go to a nearly park or forest or pagoda to " collect luck" ( Hai Loc) , a branch of young leaves which symbolizes hope and good fortune.

Another dispensable feature is Xong Dat. The first visitor to the home on Tet morning is very important. Ideally, that person should be a happy, married and sucessful man, a man of virtue.

A tray of five kinds of fruits:

According to the ancient Oriental people, the universe was taken its shape by five elements_ called Ngu Hanh : metal, wood, water, five and earth.Ideology as well as the image of Ngu Hanh entered into the meterial and spiritual life of the Oriental peoples with many features. The Vietnamese people's custom of worshipping the Tet fruit tray is one of these features.

The fruit tray in the North is , as a whole, smaller than that in the South. It must have three kinds of fruits: banana, grape fruit, mandarine ( or orange) while a pair of water melons, and four kinds of fruits: custard apple, coconut, papaya, mango cannot be misssing on the fruit tray in the South. For Southerners, this fruit tray means the popular wish for a comfortable life _ the commonest demand of every Southerner in the new year.

With its multicolor, original shape and profound meaning the fruit tray makes the Tet livelier and more sacred. Morever, it shows the aesthetic, religions, philosophical meaning as well as optimistic expectation which every family brings to start a new year.

Mung Tuoi:

This is a custom of Vietnamese to congratulate someoneon advancing in New Year: health, lucky, learn well , work well, grow up fast, happy .. That is a present or money, but money is usual , that s why it is called Tien Mung Tuoi ( Mung Tuoi money). Usuall, Tien Mung Tuoi is given to children . Any adults people come to relationship'house or friends'house on Tet should Mung Tuoi children there.

To understand much more and detail about Vietnamese Tet ( New Year), you can view this link :

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/T%E1%BA%BFt

This year Tet will be started from January 25th to 31th in Sun Calendar ( international Calendar)  

Have u ever waitted for a smile of a person and then felt happy very much when that person smile'??
Have u ever waitted for a message line from a person and then felt really happy when got it '?
Have u ever come online hours to wait for a nick ID online ? And when that ID online , u just sitting there and just seen in silent ..? No Buzz. No Pm. Just looked only.

Have u ever written the name of that person down on a paper.. and sitting to read just that name only'

Have u ever wished a sulk question, or just simle reproach, ask from someone' ??
Was it happen when that smile was in front of u, but not in fact' just be virtual, coz really u couldn't see it'?

Was it happen when u read those messages then recognized that 'was an indeliberate apologise , coz they hurted you ?
Was it happen when that ID was online, while u saw in silent only , but that ID was chatting with an other person excitingly'.. And then , they logout, ignored u there alone, with them ur Id online or not they didn't care to know.
Was it happen when u wrote name of ur beloved on paper , then recognized that this name seems to be strange, just coz u and that person are differrent ..??
Yes , It was time ur heart sobbing

Yes , it is time u recognize that that person is very important with u,

But'.. You are not the person they care'

Viết cho 1 mình ta, viết cho ta, sẽ k l� viết cho ai nữa.

Cái gì gọi l� niềm tin? Cái gì gọi l� mở �'ầu? Cái gì gọi l� kết thúc?

Cái gì gọi l� yêu? Cái gì gọi l� ghét? Cái gì gọi l� khó chịu? Cái gì gọi l� chịu �'ựng… ch� �'ợi…?

� uh …vv..vv còn nhiều CÁI GÌ lắm nhưng ta nói bấy nhiêu thôi, dù gì ta cũng biết… 1 v� i ngư�i biết… biết CÂU HỎI …v� C�N có 1 câu trả l�i

KH�"NG BIẾT. Xin l�?i nhé, ta chỉ có m�?i 1 câu trả l�i �'ó thôi. Thế nhé. Ta chỉ có thể nghĩ ra chừng ấy thôi. Xin l�?i nhé, con ngư�i ta v�'n thế �'ấy. Đã bảo ta sẽ k ngăn cản, cho nên, ngoan c�' thì khổ, thì �'au… thì dứt khoát 1 lần! Dứt ra �'i.

Ta cứ phải lẩn quẩn… ta cần phải l� m gì… ta BIẾT. Ta biết im lặng chưa bao gi� l� nên… l� cần thiết c� ng k bao gi� l� cách hay. Nhưng ta vẫn l� m vì ta v� vì 1 cái gì �'ó…. Dù cho mọi ngư�i xem nó như thế n� o, dù cho tất cả �'ều bảo ta l� m sai nhưng ta có những thứ quan trọng… ta có nhiều ngư�i quan trọng… có những việc quan trọng …

Có những ngư�i quan trọng cần giữ lấy, có những việc quan trọng cần l� m, có những thứ quan trọng cần giữ gìn, bảo quản.

V� cũng bu�c phải lựa chọn giữa những thứ �'ó…cái n� y hoặc cái kia… [nếu k phải bây gi�... sẽ k thế n� y]

Ta nghĩ l� … ta sẽ k phải �'ặt 1 dấu chấm giữa chừng cho tất cả. Ng� y ấy v� bây gi� ta vẫn nghĩ vậy

Chỉ l� dấu phẩy, tạm dừng… Cho CÁI GÌ gọi l� … giữ gìn… cho CÁI GÌ gọi l� … tiếc nu�'i

1 chút gì �'ó, có thể l� m.
………..

K biết nữa…

Ta chẳng biết nữa r�"i. Ta k nghĩ sẽ như thế n� y… ta sợ… ta mu�'n khóc… nhưng ta k cho phép.

Có ngư�i �'ã bảo… nếu k tiếp tục �'ược thì dừng lại… �'ừng cho nó có nhiều kỉ niệm… �'ừng cho nó trở nên �'ẹp �'ẽ r�"i �'ập tan nó th� nh từng mảnh bởi tình bạn k có sự ích kỉ… k phải l� thế.

Ta sẽ chẳng l� m gì �'âu

Ta sẽ k níu kéo vì cái ta níu kéo �'c k phải l� tình bạn

Nhưng m� … cho dù nó có vỡ tan t� nh… vỡ vụn… thì ta vẫn sẽ yêu những mảnh vỡ �'ó..

Tùm lum quá… Kết lại nhé: Ta sẽ k níu kéo. Ta thả tay ra. Cảm thấy giữ �'c thì giữ. K thì cũng l� m như vậy �'i. Để cái �'ầu �'c tự do. Ta cũng biết �'au, ấm ức, bất lực… ta cũng biết phải giữ cho tay k nắm lại. Bây gi�… nếu có ai �'ó hay chính ta… thả tay ra thì…. ta sẽ k phải l� ngư�i kéo nó lại, chỉ l� ngư�i �'ứng nhìn…trong im lặng.

Quả thực khi k có ai �'ó, cu�c s�'ng của ta nhiều lúc thoải mái hơn thật

Nhưng… khi cái nhiều lúc �'ó qua �'i thì ta….,

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“I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye”

( Someone )

You came into my life
 Quitely, simply, placidity 
 And my word still stood
 I coudln’t express in words
 Or even in simple gestures
The secret I kept in my heart
 So I loved in silence
 Admired you from distance
 Dreamt of you from afar
 I wanted to say I love you? 
 I wanted to say I care

 I silence then I will love you
 I silence then I will care?…

Well , this is the pic that was taken nearly 6 years ago. That was my niece and I. This my niece whom I love very very much. Today is a very special day for her, coz it is the first day she goes to school. In my country children start to go to school when they are 6 years old ( start to learn in Primary school) .

I feel it is like just tomorrow when I still was holding her in my arms. Now she is 6 years old and start to learn at school. Wow, time gone too fast lah. Oh GOD, it means I start to be older. hahaha

My niece reminds me of my childhood, when i started to go to Primary school. That day I lived with my grandma and grandfather in a small house at the old street in Hanoi, my mother and father lived in other place abt 10km far us. That day I learnt in Tran Quoc Toan school ( now it is called Trang An?Primary school )?.I remember the first day I went to school I felt fear and cried coz of too much people, coz i was very shy and fear everything..now think again i feel funny..Oh , but actually till now i still sometimes shy and fear ..hahahah…My cousin brother and I learned together in a school and after each of learing periods we have time pause i used to come to my cousin class and played there. From my grand mother ‘ s house to school was very near, just abt 2 km , we often went?on foots my cousin brother and I. That day, i was always protected and love from my brother. And I always wished to have a real brother like that…

Stop?.. Ya , it must have been.. should have done this earlier.

Night?.. just alone?.. sitting in the very deep feelings.. Everything is quiet. And when around is quiet , no sound, silent compeletely.. that is really the time of heavy, thats the time?.. feeling solitary best. Weak and full of reproach..

Feelings of stuffy,uncomfortable ..concerns, sadness..can not throw them out. Try to have heart and feelings comfortably.. but still cannot..

If only.. didnt afraid too much. If only ..could ignore unreasonable gossips, struggle to all to rise.. only..could forget unlucky things in life to live happy.

Hatre.. man s?heart is bad.. Blamed to myself coz not have brave enough to rise or feel discontented , feel sad when be ignored and left ?alone by someone dont know how is hatred in me.No , but how I can hate I have no right to hate them.

Feeling of lost equilibrium. So oppresive as. Is it necessary that our ego or something else more to keep my heart not to cry, not cry out ??!!

?

Rain. I dont like wet?. but I like raindrops..Raindrops sometimes are soft sometimes hurry. All of all seem to stop for a while, calm down, vague. All seem like never ever been the truth.

Wanna find. Wanna blame, reproach.Wanna keep.Wanna cry on someone s shoulder. Wanna a minute of tranquillity. But all just be desire..

Dont know why now I often think of something happened?. all things, people, matters.obsession make me tired and more weak. Sometimes there are something make us smile , happy when think of them again. I feel throbbing pain in my heart.. Some times I suddenly recognize and feel fear coz I remembered too many things which I shouldnt ?and neednt to remember.Sometimes thought that ya I could forget, I am happy and I can do all, am strong but it seems not

Today is the Independence ’s Day of my country.

All the best to everybody my dear Vietnamese people!!!

Sometimes.. Standing among the streams of people quietly.. wanna continue to go.. step by step on my foot but..heart wanna stay..

Sometimes.. listen a song.. felt it seems like telling about me ..why it was sad like that ..why it was too bitter..

Sometimes.. I felt ..desire a tranquil soul.. a quiet of feeling in my heart..

Sometimes..wanna see the truth.. look in the face..but.. was afraid that truth had made me hurt much more..

Sometimes..miss someone very very much, but ..so sad then coz know very well that they didnt think about me , never ever ..

Sometimes.. wanna cry the happiness of tears, but..just be the sorrows of tears.

Sometimes.. wanna forget a person , but can not forget..

Sometimes ..suddenly look back and recognize that..noone is by my side in this life ..

But..

Really This life is still going on..

Really Such is life

Really? still hurt

Really? still cry

Really? still pain

Really still waitting each a day

Really still the spasms of pain coming to me

Really still be the truth and I never ever tell lie you

How? Whats everything? ..Sometimes I feel afraid ,I don’t want to come back again to read my thoughts again, I fear…I fear me myself…my thoughts… my feelings…it seems to make me sad more . I also feel afraid of reading when my friends ‘s entries that sad the same me…

Some friends ever asked me why all of ur entries were full of sorrows and sadness ?? Always  pessimistic about all…Why have u still now felt sad much like that ?

My dear friends…no, really I don’t feel sad now. I don’t. How can I feel hurt much more?? When all seem to be too enough for me. It seems coz of too much sorrows and unhappiness all make me feel nothing, it becomes the same malcontent and no need anything now….But if someone asked….ya , if someone say with me “ are u crazy gal ?” Yes I am_I will answer.I remember maybe there is a person asked me and I answered like that, but after that I looked down and tears dropped….I ever one time said to my beloved that I feel nothing from now, no jealous, no angry, no hurt, no happy, no sad , nothing…even I feel no pain both in body and heart either…all emotionless… but really deep inside my heart, behide the words I said to him I was crying… Even my tears now seems to not be able to shed coz of too hurt…I don’t know , I don’t know…. But now I am not sad my dear friends…

Really I am not seeking attention although I am really lack of it, am not asking for care either, I am not asking console when everybody know about me although I need … I afraid … I afraid and hate the feelings of pity from someone with me.

I also know very well that If someone come to me or talking or make friend with me and when they know my thoughts , my life, my sadnesses, even when I let them to read my blog, then surely that they leave me… They was maybe afraid making with a person like me. I know . And I also know I lost my someone…

Then just only blog is like the way I myself console me. Do u know there are manything we cannot or shouldnot say…..Should not expose them …our thoughts, our private things… But I did it.

Someone ur friends that really love u they can sympathize and console u.

Some others don not love u they will laugh at u.

Some one that hate u they will be glad when known that u are in such difficulies situations.

Also some others they feel pity for u.

Some others they just think : Oh my God, this person just always complain ( than than trach phan)….too tired to read to listen…this person seems to be crazy…”

Ya there are many kinds of people, many different thoughts, I know. Even some people can think that I am a crazy gal. Ya …good thoughts…bad thoughts from everybody. I know very well everybody’s thoughts. And when I decided to creat a blog in rediff I know I myself can write all the thoughts out, even about myself without shy. Because I always think that I never do bad things to anyone, never disturb anyone….just coz maybe I feel lonely a little, I feel want to share any feelings, or coz of am too sensitive about everything around me…And I donnot care everybody can laugh at me if they wish….

During the past time I received many emails from friends in rediff. They seem to be good people. Thanks again for caring all of friends here gave to me. I felt friendship, sincere and love here. That is a part of my happinesses.

By the way I am sorry with some of friends that I couldnot reply message or not accept to add as friends … but pls remember that I love all of you here, all of u are my friends.

I hate … I hate when u told lie me … i hate u….If that had been real friendship, it would not have been like that …..not like that…..I hate ….The thing I hate best in this life is tell lie , cheat u knew … not fair, my love friend …