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So sorry.

Have u ever felt u was like a deaf or dumb person? feel helpless , incapable of expressing ur thoughts by words. I start to feel i am like that.More and more i lost my English skills. More and more i recognize that I cant talk in English. My speaking and listening skill in English is getting worse. I feel sad , angry, uncomfortable when someone said something but i couldnt understand what they saying …

I feel guilty when I couldnt attend my friends ’s calls. I miss very much my friends, I also wanna talk, but i dont know why now it is really difficult for me much like that. I almost refused to talk or meet everybody.

Pls understand me , dont angry with me. Not coz I hate u or dont like to talk . Just coz I cant . I like u , i like u very much, i wanna talk with u much much sothat we will understand to each other much more , but I cant. I am so sorry…

Hoping that u recognize this entry and forgive me.

 

A Thank Note

This entry?I wanna “copy” completely an entry of my best friend - Lilia.She is a very good and special person …

Lilia, thank u for ur friendship very much… Really This is also the first time I can share my real thoughts on blog (althought I ever written on Yahoo blog) , but here in rediff only I recieved the cares ,loves, shareness and advises from all of u like that friendly and sincerely . Thank you very much Lilia,my best friend in rediff, it seems our thoughts always are the same , like we are one person… she seems to be instead of me to tell all of our thoughts.This is the first time a person understand my thoughts and has all of thoughts always the same me…. thank you very much Lilia. Thank u all of you?in rediff?too .All of you are my happiness, my smile…..

” ……

IN THIS MODERN WORLD OF NET

ITS NOT JUST EVERYDAY

WHERE EVERBODY CAN RECEIVE

SO MANY INVITATIONS

TO THIS AND THAT WEBSITE

I TOO SIGN IN FOR ONE OR TWO

BUT I FIND IT HARD TO COMMUNICATE THERE

I STILL PREFER REDIFF

THIS SITE IS WHERE I HAVE MY FRIENDS

WHO MAKES ME BE MYSELF AGAIN

NO PRETENTIONS

I THOUGHT AT FIRST I JUST NEED SOME ATTENTION

INSTEAD THEY GIVE ME A PIECE OF THEIR HEART

A PART OF THEIR EMOTION

A GLIMPSE OF THEIR DREAM

AND I TREASURED THAT

I AM NOT AN INDIAN

I WISH I AM

IN TIMES WHEN IM SO LOW AND BORED

I WILL JUST READ THEIR PAST COMMENTS

AND IT FEELS LIKE A CELL CHARGER

BRING ME BACK TO LIFE AGAIN

KNOCK MY HEAD TO THE TRUTH

THAT IM NOT ALONE AFTERALL

THEY ARE WITH ME

STRANGERS YOU MAY CONSIDER

BUT MORE PASSIONATE THAN THE EVRYDAY PEOPLE

I MET

THEY SPEAK THEIR MINDS

SO SENSIBLE …STRAIGHT FROM HEART

REDIFF WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF ME

ITS MY FIRST WEBSITE

ITS HERE I CAN POUR OUT WHAT I FEEL

WITHOUT INHIBITIONS

WITHOUT ESCAPING THE HURT OF EVERYDAY LIFE

WITHOUT MAKING A FRONT

ITS NOT THAT I WANT TO MAKE YOU SUFFER READING MY BLOGS

ITS JUST MY WAY OF SAYING

THANKS FOR THE FRIENDSHIP

PARTHA…SUNSHINE..INDER..THUY…

AND ALL MY ACQUINTANCES IN REDIFF

IM THANKING FOR THE TIME

ITS NOT EVERYDAY THAT SOMEONE

WILL SAY “YOU ARE A FRIEND”

AND FEEL IT TALKING FROM YOUR HEART

ITS MY HONOR…ALWAYS.?

…….? “_ LILIA

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Friendship or else….?

It s difference in everybody opinions about Love And Friendship. A real friendship , it means that they must understand to each other really. They trust to each other, listen, share , care, help , sympathy and love together. That is a real friendship. We cant tell or share everything with everybody , of course. We cant consider all as close friends . Sometimes u consider someone as ur close friend, ?love and believe in him, but are u sure that he also cares or consider u as a his dear friend? No. I think that . Coz it s easy to understand that his thought is not the same ur thought. There are different from knowledge, character, or caste… or simply it is dislike .
Sometimes there are people they think that intimacy and sincerity are force. I was really sad when they/ he thought like that. But their opinion is not wrong. Everybody has their own thoughts abt that . And have u ever believe that there are good persons in this life? I am not sure . But my friend said that ' Yes , there are''
I wanna tell u one example like this . A man who was born in a normal family, he had a determination to get over all difficulties , even lost manything , hoped and got a good life, happy, rich. Is he a good example for all?
But there are a few persons who have a rich life so they like to enjoy this life , like to go out…( like a play boy), dont care about anything .Their thoughts are too simple ? they maybe disregard all?They like to be praised much more than the sincere advises.
And there are the people they did all not for anything, just for feelings? between a man to a man, for love, for respectation. They can do all without needing the reply. They dont need money, situation or figure…nothing.
With them, maybe that is only: a jolly life , somewhere that they dont afraid to share all sadness or happiness or difficulties, a life that they can forget the sorrow there, a place that they can live sincerely, a life that there children respect their grandparent, son and daughter respect parent, younger sister and brother respect their sisters and brothers , there is the love there…, a life that there they sometimes recognize that they are small with the persons they love…..I say these coz actually I had the feelings the same like that. There, in that house' I saw that. There, I found that he was the best .

Happy and smile are the things that everybody wanna have.Everybody is looking for something that make it all complete. You can find it in the strangest places, which u never knew it could be. But someone find it in the faces of their children, some others find it in the lover s eyes, some others find it shinning every morning, someone find it in their solitary lives, or you also can find it in the works of others.Or someone can find it in jokes. And someone can find it when they share or find someone make them happy…


About me , I will feel it if I am with my love the person can make me happy, or in the works of others or when I see my dearest people are happy….I only need a simple life there it also can make me smile or cry.

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I do not know how everybody think about real friendship, but for me , I think like that. It is so simple right ? but ' I do not know why ' I hurted coz of it .To be a friend, it is easy. But to be close friend or have real intimacy it is difficul. Maybe I am a person of very few words or am a person who do not like talking, I do not know. I feel do not want to believe in anything maybe coz that I must saw and put up with too much sorrows and more'.This world, this life seems to meaningless with me from a long time. It is too difficult for me to start or believe in anything, anybody. Actually I wrote this entry since a long time ago, at the time after I had read an entry of my friend whom I love very much. Then , recently I posted this entry on reddiffiland in my mother tongue and received comment ask to write in English. So today I want to translate it into English my thoughts, hoping that all of u will not laugh at me coz as I told my English is very bad, sometimes I can write in English very well, but sometimes I forgot all English words and skill as well in my mind, even it was so difficult for me to express my thoughts in English.

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Thyjudeen.

 

To my friend Lilia

Friendship is that sheltering tree which covers you


with warmth when you are cold with sorrow,balms


your soul when you are hurt in heart and bandages


with love when you bleed inside.

This entry is just for a friend on rediffilland, she is Lilia. Thank you very much for all. Wish u all the best. Be happy !!!_ Thyjudeen.