Why? Why? Tell me 'Everyday I miss u .When I wake up, u are in my mind first. When I sleep u are in my dreams. When I do something u are also in my mind always. When I see anyone I thought about u, imagine that was you. When I go on the street u are in my mind. In everywhere I have u in my mind'.Why ??
Why u could talk with anyone but me ? Why u could go out with those gals but me ? Why u could love them but me ? Why u could sms to them but me ? Why u could make a call to them but me ? Why u could attend their calls but me ? Why u could love and accept and wish their friendship but me ? Why u didn't make a call to me? Why u never ever sms to me first ? Why u never ever mail me first ? Why u never want to talk with me face to face ? Even u ever said that we are only friend , but even it is not friendship coz friendship is not like that. U ignored me always'.. Even we never ever meet to talk face to face once in our life. I wonder how long time we talked, it has just 3 mins no more when we met at that shop. You never ever care for me , never ever interested in me , never ever thought of me '.
I have nothing , I have no money, no job, no rich like them, no beautiful, no clever, no good , no humorous'. I only have sadness, I am few of words, I don't know joking, I cant make u feel comfortable and joy, I didn't know how to talk, I am a bad person right da? ' I forever will not be able to forgive myself and u as well. I cant forgive. I don't want to understand and answer the 'why' questions by myself.
But my beloved, you are the first person, u are the only one in this life I wanna share, wanna love , wanna closer. Only you can make me happy , only u can make sadness disappear in my life, only u I accept'.
Why ? Why?
I cant be the same any other gals, I cant . I cant live like nothing happened in my life. Coz u appeared in my life, U are my happiness but now u are also my sorrow. Time cant heal anything for me. Cant. I know that. I am not a gal like any other gal.
Is it the same a funny story da? Everybody laughing at me . You are laughing at me too.Ur mother ever told me about you, even about the gals followed u and the?gals u went out with.. It made me sad. It was not mean that you are the person the same ND said ever. You?are completely fine. And you could accept and love those gals…?
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Do u know I felt and always feel the feelings to be contempted, I am nothing to you, even only a friend. Why u never put u on my situation to understand how I am feeling'. Always when I think of u I cried, although I don't wanna cry but my tears still dropped coz I feel shy, feel hurt much much much much'.
Now everyday I only can know u still there exist when I check blog and see ur feed still acting'.I know u never know about my this blog in rediff, never known…. My beloved , I really wan to know how are u? How is ur mom ? How is ur work? How is everything? Where are u now ? Are u happy? U ever said me that u was in happy . I know you was in happy , I know u had a love with someone, a gal maybe'.I only can cry.
Why u could not save a litte time to understand me much more ? Why u could not come to me even only once? Why u could not think about me even only a little ? Why u was like that? What I have to do now? ? What I have to do now? I wanna talk with u , I wanna share with u only, I wanna be with you. I miss you very much always. I don not care what everyone say , I don't care what they think. I am me. I need you and love you all my life.
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