thyjudeen78’s blog

A day like every other days …. nothing special with me…. now i can understand clearly how the life is..who is good and who is bad…. when someone needs me, he was sweet to me and found all ways to get what he wants with fully in purpose… too bad… but now …when i need very much the help, console, encourage, love and care …but everybody leave me alone….such is life….all is bad….too bad….and i hate all…i hate everyone, everything in this world……

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P1Vf5_d7nOI

For you…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyGF7QtPr9E

Sometimes i feel tired of facing to all of matters. I dont know….. but right now in me those are the feelings of : shy, to be hurted, the feelings of myself-respect, the feelings of guilty, of the pity from that person, feelings of mistaken, ……….
I made a wrong thing, very big mistaken and i made troubles for myself and other poeple. And i lost a person who i really love. I lost a good friend who i respect and love very much……..
In my life, I always made mistaken and i always lose all.
The feeling i have now that is the regret. And i feel to be hurted myself-respect. The feeling must beg someone. I feel tired.

I hate myself. I dont know why i always behave to make everybody hate me and think bad about me.