When all your friends are married and busy with life…sometimes they are just not around when you need them…it is quite an unfortunate situation if you are not hooked yet…

I was infact in such a situation recently, for me its like I never found the kinda friends like in college…nobody to fall back on at your work place, although they may be sweet and nice, they would not take a stab in thier chest when there is a need to…I believe that I had such friends…the true ones, the special ones…but all of us have lost touch or have very little touch with one another…

It gets really tough, especially when you have grown up cocooned and dont open up to nybody so easily…

Have you guys ever faced such a thing…?

Best,

Priya S

Sometimes, you take people close to you for granted…you know they will always lend you a shoulder to cry on…you know you can always go back to them, you know you can be embarrassed & shameful in front of them…many a times this vibe does not come across to be appropriate…numerous times you would have hurt the person who cares for you…& is probably the only soul who will continue to no-matter what…

Sometimes, life seems so wierd…you dont get what you deserve…there are people whom you rated less capable than you…who are far more sucessful than you…was i being a narcisst in rating myself far better than the ones who are way above my stature today…? you never know the answer…atleast not the right one…

Life on the other side of the mountain looks fuller…they say…or atleast something that is said to that effect…it does look fuller & greener…

there were people i knew who have moved on…who have had high flying lives…who have indeed gracefully grown…who seem to have added more meaning to their lives…i for one havent found a definite direction for my life….am i incapable of deciding what i want in life or is it merely that they just seem to have succeeded more hence, their lives look a lot more settled & perfect…

Where’s life got me…what am i doing…what did i want to do…sometimes i feel i am stuck with a bunch of loosers…first of them being gizbo…i know i could do decently well…outside this well…but there’s something overpowering me…something weakening me…

The current place i am in sucks!! I have never felt the bondage i do at this place…which is what stops me from getting away from this place…

There are now people who are important in my life…who mean something…but I dont seem to trust them enuff…is it trust or smething else…?? I do respect them…i seem to be constantly running away from something yet not having moved an inch forward from the place i began walking from…i dont seem to understand certain things…i dont seem to control some of the emotions…have i grown weaker…have i grown more expressive…is it time to sit back & relax or is it time to gear up & move forward…so much of confusion…nothing seems to be happening in life…sometimes it seems so utterly meaningless…

i have always been a mediocre person with not many inhibitions or ambitions…but i seem to have suddenly stopped & life seems to have moved forward…people who were ones with me seem to have moved on…they have created their own identity in this world…but i lurk in the darkness of being associated with a company which itself does not seem tohave an identity…how long am i going to be here…nobody knows…??!! dont i deserve to know…i seem to have lost control over life & its course…

I leave it to destiny to chalk out its plans & take me in a rightful path…a life with more meaning…a life with someone to care & understand…