Tangent talk…

September 11th, 2010


It is 0700 am and am working, well at work and for the first time really I do not have a patient to see. It might not last that long though and whatever little time I have I am savouring it and writing this. From the bottom of my heart I hate night shifts! When the whole wide world is tucked in bed and curled up on to thier soft pillows, we prod along. Come winters and it gets worse. Nevertheless, what keeps me going is the wide variety of illnesses that we encounter at night time. The number of senior staff tend to be far less and more or less you are on your own. You do something for the patient and once in a while if it works, By god you feel good. It is one feeling I have always cherished about my profession. That I have found what they are suffering from. That I have made someone feel better. That I could do something about a lot of things. The thought itself is taking my blues away that I have two more nights to go.

 

Speaking about gratification there is another thing that is immensely satisfying and which I have come to enjoy immensely. And that is sculpting. This is my third year at making the Ganesha idol. Not anything fancy but a very earthen one. It was good fun getting my hands dirty with the clay and all and just sculpting away and when the idol takes form boy, it feels good. I remember those growing up years at home when this was one festival me and my sister got hugely excited about. Mom would say that whatever we did today would stick with us through the year. So, like any other parent of that generation she made sure that we studied that day atleast for 10 minutes. I now wonder if that really is true. But it  has stuck with me. I definitely read an article or journal today, sometimes for namesake maybe! I wonder if I will tell my daughter to do the same. Well, there is still time for that. But, maybe I will.

 

It was also on this day that we would listen to all the stories related to Ganesha, something traditional I guess. I still do that and I don’t see the moon today. I wonder if it is the same in other communities as well. It is said that when Ganesha had had, his sumptous meal and was driving on his “mooshika vaahana” his tummy burst and all the laddus rolled over. On watching this Moon, could not stop himself from bursting into peels of laughter. At which Ganesha’s mother Parvati cursed Moon that whoever saw him on this day would have to be a part of ” Apaninda”. Even Lord Krishna wasn’t spared of this apaninda when he accidently saw the moon on this day. From there on comes the story of Satrajit and the Samantaka Mani and His marriage to Jambawati and Satyabhama.

 

I probably won’t see the moon today although I am not sure if it means anything. I don’t think it is about superstition, neither is it about respect. I would probably just call it tradition.

 

What else have I been upto…the usual working full time and looking after my little one…but I have never been more happier than now. Truly, motherhood is a blessing. Oh yes, I learnt Sri Sooktham with it’s full meaning. I love singing this one.

 

An hour to go before I can jump into my car!

 

Signing off from the tangent talk I have been upto. wish you all a very prosperous Ganesh Chaturthi.

 

Keep smiling..smile looks good on ya


But I thought…

April 15th, 2010

So, what happens when volcanoes throw up ash?
 
Flights get cancelled…but wait, I thought that only happened in movies..
 
So, what happens when flights get cancelled?
 
You don’t know what to do next, the flight officials don’t know what to do next…
 
So, what do you do next?
 
You look here, you look there, you look at the officials, you look at the other people, you look at your luggage and you bite your nails..


So, what do you do after biting your nails?
 
You wait for a bit at the airport, pay the taxi fare and come back home..
 
So, what do you do after coming back home?
 
You switch on the TV and see the volcano spewing the ash..
 
So, what do you do then?
 
You wonder…volcanoes only do that in movies or in Indonesia…not Iceland..
 
So, what do you do next?
 
You check the telugu calendar for the auspicious muhurtam to fly again..
 
So, what do you see?
 
You see all varjyam, rahu, ketu, ashtam, navam, amavas..
 ..
So, what do you do next?
 
You throw the calendar and ring the airline…
 
So, what does the airline say?
 
You see, the volcano is brewing a lot of ash..
 
So, what should I do next?
 
Please watch TV for further news…
 
So, what does the news say?
 
A major volcano is throwing ash in Iceland..
 
So, what do you think?


Iceland should have Ice and volcanoes only did that in movies….

 

So, what do you do next?
 
Err toss it..if not in the flight I have some in my shelf…time for a double vodka..


Musings of a newborn !

March 25th, 2010

I was born in the year 2009. It was a year when recession was at an all time low. A certain ” King of pop”  had died in his home in California. An economist from no political background had returned to complete a second term as the Prime Minister of India. A certain movie actor who danced like a dream, mom’s favorite had died of pancreatic cancer. Also, countless arguements and discussions were taking place as the most influential and powerful man on this planet was awarded Nobel peace prize apparently a little too soon.

 

But, oblivious to all of this I was growing in mom’s belly. My mom says she had eagerly waited for me to arrive. She was carrying my little brother too along with me but he didn’t make it after the halfway mark. She constantly worried about how things would turn out with me. Would I make it or have a similar fate as that of my brother’s, she often wondered. She had scans week after week and day by day I kept kicking and growing & she continued to keep her fingers crossed and prayed hard.

 

She was worried about bringing me out the natural way as my brother was still there lying next to me. She often wondered if I was aware of his presence. I sure was. After all, because of that naughty boy, I had very little space to move around in her belly. I had no option but to lie breech. The doctor who saw my mom continued to say that I would turn eventually and it would be a normal delivery further increasing her anxiety.

 

But, I had other plans. I stubbornly continued to dangle my legs downwards till nearly term and the doctor resigned to perform an elective surgery on mom. So, I was born on second of December 2009 in Prince Charles of Wales Hospital in St. Elsewhere in the borough of Darwinshire. I was very tiny and measley and weighed about five pounds and looked frail. One look at me and people would have thought mom was starving herself during pregnancy but then my eyes were wide open and I gave a really loud cry seconds after coming out. That’s when mom says she knew that I was going to be a fiesty little one.  

 

I was only little but I could cry for the country. I was born with quite a crown of hair. Often, mom says I would pull my own hair as a pastime and then would end up crying. On a couple of occasions as mom was very tired after the surgery in the hospital, I was taken over to the nursery for a few hours to be looked after so that mom could rest, but I was brought back sooner than expected. The reason given my cries were waking up the other babies in the nursery.

 

It turns out I was just a very hungry baby. I could drink (milk for now!) for the country too. So, much so that if mom lifted me up to kiss, I would think she was offering milk and I would suck her lips away. At which she would laugh and feed me again. When I came home, many people visited us. It made mom realise how many people cared about her. The old lady from across the street knitted a yellow sweater for me and mom was truly touched.

 

If am put on my tummy I look up these days. I can sit with support. I don’t cry as much now. I smile a lot especially when I see mom. My mom is so silly, I am growing by the day and she has to buy me new clothes often, yet spending all that money makes her so happy.

 

I gurgle, make all kinds of funny noises, squeal with joy and mom keeps watching me with a big smile.

 

Boy!! I am only three and half months old and I give her such joy…

 

How cool is that !!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 


Yak yak yak…

March 18th, 2010

My homepage is always set to google and at various times it comes up with significant days and occassionally adds the “happy” tag to it too. It reminds me of a very well written post by one of my friends on iLand,” Today is the lazy day!”
 
Sunday gone turned out to be one such day.
 
Frankly, apart from some special festivals and some close friends’ birthdays and anniversaries I am not too fussed about these special days, be it Valentine’s Day or the Cow appreciation Day.
 
It amuses me a great deal when people wish each other on various “days”. Not so long ago someone wished me,” happy nagapanchami“.  “Yes, thank you. I am about to play with prince python in my den, why don’t you bring your queen cobra along?” said the inner me.
 
That am a  complete wuss when it comes to snakes or for that matter centipede, millipede, metrepede etc etc is another matter. Needless to say,on being reminded of the great cobra I did do quite a snake dance.
 
But then it was mother’s day on sunday. I would not have thought much about it but for a couple of reasons. Firstly, amma had left only a week ago and I sure was not missing her. Ooops, typo! You see, we share quite a “Love-hate” relationship. I love her only when she is far away.That reminds me of  a saying that I have always thought is true, ” Familiarity breeds contempt”, to which one of my close friends always adds, ” and children.”
 
Secondly, I had gone to do my weekly grocery shopping to Sainsburys and thanks to the mothers of this world a bunch of white lillies ( they are my favorite, I tell you!) were being sold for an exhorbitant price.
 
So, grudgingly I made the phone call and apologised to her for my misbehaviour when she was here and asked her to overlook my faults. “That is ok, maaf kiya!” said she.
Amma, I have been so horrible to you, are you not forgiving me a little too easily?”
 
Don’t worry, Beta! it’s not your fault. It’s all those hormones playing havoc on you!!”, pat came her reply. Just as I was about to slam the phone down came her usual dialogue, ” when your daughter will trouble you then you will know how easy or hard it is to forgive them. I have always prayed that you have a saggitarian girl just like I have had and then you will know what the word TROUBLE really means.”
 
Sometimes, god really does answer your mother’s prayers, I tell you!
 
I recently read Jeffrey Archer’s A twist in the tale again. I have often felt that those books that you read while in growing up years tend to stick with you more than any others. Having said that I did read Arvind Adiga’s White Tiger last year. Quite a book that one is! I really liked the last line in that book, ” We drive technology forward!”
 
I took amma along for My Name is Khan whilst she was here. Boy, I tell you..My name is Mona and I am an idiot. That’s all I can say about the movie. One thing is for sure, however sensitive  the issue Karan Johar is bound to trivialise it. Speaking of idiots I saw three idiots and it really didn’t shake much earth for me either. If anything of the movies recently seen I liked Kaminey. It was quite “Tarantinised”.
 
Of late I have put on too much weight and being a south indian I think a thunderous figure is something that I think is the genetic make up of most females in all the four states. Amma does 12 cycles of suryanamaskar daily and stays extremely fit even today ( I wonder what is wrong with my parents generation. They are all so perfect. Case in point all the senior citizens of this iLand) Anyways, unfortunately I can’t do Suryanamaskar. Half the year there is no Surya in this country until after 9 and the rest of the year the Surya is out even before 0500. Both times am out of bed or in the bed.
 
So, I pushed myself to join the gym. It takes a heck of a lot of willpower to drag my “lemon on toothpick“  body onto the bike. Yesterday had a class called BLT. I thought it was only chicken BLT sandwich but apparently in fitness BLT is bums legs and tums. What a silly chick, I am. So, the lady kept asking  us to “squeeze, release” all through the exercise. I was pretty shocked at how blatanlty she was asking us to release the gases. It turns out she was talking about pelvic floor !! (cough, cough).
 
On a serious but a happy note I have always wondered if there is something called, ” A law of averages ” and does it change with every decade? What do you think? As for me the turn of this decade has been like turning a new leaf and this time I certainly do not want to screw it all up.
 
A very mish mash and a mediocre post but instead of writing something serious and well thought out I just felt like a yak…
 
Signing off for now friends….will be back with more yaketi yaketi yak…cheerios!

PS: Message for JoP: For some reason can’t read your posts, hope you will allow us to!
 
 
 


Changing lanes…

March 4th, 2010

I remember driving, driving in the car

The speed so fast; I felt like I was drunk

Life in the fast lane was just too good

And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I was someone, I was someone, I was someone

And then all hell broke loose. Fast lanes, fast cars. I got reckless. So, I had a crash.

I stopped at the hard shoulder. I wondered. Whatever had happened to me?

However inviting it seemed…thrills and chills weren’t my dream..

It was time to move…move to another lane…country roads and music serene…

I abandoned my car and rode a bike.

Life in the country was just as it should be. Painstakingly slow but reassuringly safe.

Many a times, I stopped by to check my abandoned car.
 
I would see footprints and notes from other mates,”Where was I? Why aint I in fast lane?”, ” Would I be driving again?”

Often, I thought, I should give it a try; maybe not the fast lane but a short and slow drive…

 

But then I was afraid…I was afraid to drive all over again…so I would check my abandoned car and leave with a deep sigh..

 

Now, tis’s been so long….life has moved and so have I….

Memories of the crash are distant and fading away..

Exciting things have taken place in the country life..

 

With some trepidation, here I am back again….

To paint my car and drive again….somewhere in the middle lane….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


India calling…

June 30th, 2009

Ma’s pickles, the famous biryani, the long evenings in front of hussain sagar, the lanes of Charminar, dad’s gleaming eyes beckons…

So, see you all in six weeks time.

I have not replied to many of my friends, once am back I will try and be more active on iLand ( obviously this is for those who miss me )

Till then happy times to one and all.

Ciao friends :-)


Reality Show- The drama unfolds.

May 16th, 2009

 "Bharat ka pehla Indian Idol kaun?? "

The tagline would shout out loud. After many weeks of scripted live drama, friendly judges  stooping down to the channel pressures for TRP ratings and making a fool of themselves on national television by engaging each other in rather demeaning and disrespectful manner, giving undeserving standing ovations at the drop of a hat, talking about X factor the minute a candidate sports a ethnic top and international brand torn jeans, a boy sporting long hair, a girl sporting short hair, tangled in piercing rings in the most enchanting of places, wrist bands, bangles jingling, everything orchestrated and rehearsed except for the singing sending the nation into a frenzy every Friday night which would in turn vote religiously to bring their favourite contestant back.

(Phew!! that was a damn long sentence, excuse my grammar there.)

Forget the singing talent, that contestant has the cutest dimple and smile, he/ she is the next Indian Idol.

Reality television arrives to stay.

 The "Mecca" moves from Marylebone to Mumbai. For a nation that religiously worships the one game that has raised a common man's dream to the zenith, it was only poetic justice that the Mecca moved our way. All this due to a man who saw the potential in television rights. If America can have NFL, Europe has EPL, Britain has its own footie clubs, India should capitalise on it's interest in cricket and so Mr M steals IPL from ICL.

Of course, playing only cricket would hardly be entertaining enough. Throw in celebrity owners, a few slaps to Sreesanth, some belly and lap dancers sans poles, a few bollywood dances, live DJs, create controversies (KKR's recent racial divide) and the TRPs but naturally rise.

It was pretty convenient that India won the first twenty-20 world cup, a win that leaves a lot for speculation. I would never know. I say convenient because one of the reasons IPL is so successful is the Twenty-20 win.

A time will surely come when Indian idols would lose people's interest. Even Shahrukh Khan's "Main hoon na" won't be able to salvage IPL.

I say this, as I believe too much of anything becomes far too predictable and boring. But, by the time the recipe becomes too stale for the audience these reality shows, cricket etc would already have made their money. They surely have nothing to lose.

As for me, my favourite reality show comes every five years, at times it has even occurred within a span of 2-3 years. Unpredictably unpredictable. A few more hours and some would bite the dust and some would rise from the ashes.  Just like monopoly the buying and selling will be reaching its' peak in the coming week. " Machhi Bazaar" is surely heating up.

Our leaders are extremely acrobatic, even more flexible are their ideologies, secular becomes communal and communal changes to secular with just a blink of an eye. Quotes become misquotes, interpretations become misinterpretations, meetings where foes become friends. If parties were selling tickets before the elections, now is the time for the small fish to ask for more meat at the centre. All doors, windows are being kept open. I wouldn't be surprised if they even begin digging walls to get in.

We might have media that does not always act responsibly but at least it kept playing the shoe saga non-stop and rogues were denied tickets. We may have to listen to the constant  harping of Barkhas and Chandras but at least we have people like Shekhar Gupta, Vinod Mehta in print journalism who call a spade a spade on their face.

We might have a urban voter who constantly cribs but shows a total indifference to exercise his right to vote but at least we still have the rural voter who believes that his vote is his one chance to exercise power.

However, I would like to believe there are still some honest leaders who have the interest of the people in their mind. At least, we still have a working democracy, leaders who do not need to succumb to the army. We have our own people making decisions for the country and even if the superpowers at the other end of the world try to exercise their muscle, at least we can stand firm and show them the door.

We, Indians work extremely hard to make our lives better. Each one of us wants to go that extra mile where his parents could not, each one of us is filled with hope for a better today, even better tomorrow and even brighter future and we consciously strive to make our lives worthy.

I think democracy is the reason why that can happen. Sure, there are issues, hopefully with time they will improve.

I would rather be a perennial optimist than possess a permanent scowl.

Wishful thinking!! Cynics would say.

Perhaps not, says the optimist in me.

 

PS: Another reality show is hitting us soon, I should probably say, hitting hard. After all, Miss Rakhi Sawant plans to get married and that too LIVE. What a show, I say!!

 

 

 


A year old

May 8th, 2009

“Akka, akka…” shouted my sister while I was engrossed in some novel or the other one fine day in those teenage years.

 

“What’s the matter?" I whined at being disturbed.

 

“Didi, next week there is an elocution contest in the school about "Man and his environment” and I have given my name as one of the participants."

 

 I was certainly amused when I heard that my sister had decided to enrol herself in a contest. The reason, I say, I was amused is because I knew full well that my kid sister had major issues with writing anything longer than 3 sentences. Nevertheless, I encouraged her and said that she should go for it, little realising that I was digging my own grave (something that I always seem to do).

 

"Ok, didi, so how many days will you need to finish writing about Man and his environment?” she asked me in a tone as cool as a cucumber.

 

Needless to say I was surprised, now even the book in my hand could hardly hold my attention.

“What do you mean? Why should I write? You are the one who gave your name so you go ahead and write, if you want I can make some amendments and suggestions "I offered.

 

"Please, please akka you write and I will mug it with apt feel and right pauses and vomit it out on the stage and trust me the prize is mine.”

 

After much cajoling by her and a promise that she would buy me a treat and another novel I reluctantly agreed.

 

So, I did write about the Man and his environment and my sister did go and speak on the stage and delightfully I say, she did receive the first prize.

 

What amazed me was her confidence, as although I would often write for others I myself never had the courage to participate. Public speaking isn’t my forte. I even forgot my speech once half way through and till date I panic whilst speaking in public.

 

However, ask me to write about anything anytime and I would be happy with that.

 

I am a bit of a story teller and I owe most of it to my parents. From the time I could remember dinner time was the occasion for interesting conversations and often my parents would regale the tales of the extraordinary moments in the ordinary lives of people around us.

 

Their pastime rubbed off on us siblings too and I tried my hand at writing.

 

The reason for these recollections, I turn a year old on iLand today. And what a year it has been!! I began writing to amuse myself and in the process I probably have amused some others too.

 

I have made a few great friends here, many acquaintances and possibly some enemies too. A year long stint probably warrants that.

 

I am touched by the affection that I and my posts have garnered with my friends. I guess it is this fondness that makes us probably want to write more.

Of late, a lot of the people I associated with a lot seem to be easing out of iLand slowly and that certainly is the reason for my not being so regular in the blog world too.

 

However, we all are bound by a common thread and  that is the need to express and as long as that want is there, we will keep coming  back to pen something or the other.

 

There are certain issues that are not so positive about iLand but I guess with time like everyone else even I have learnt to sieve the trash and acknowledge the good.

 

All in all it has been one enriching journey so far.

 

That's all from "winds of change "for now…more some other time.

 

Till then, happy times to one and all.

 

 

 

 


Catching Little Britain

April 3rd, 2009

” You alright mate!!” the chap passing by asked but left even without hearing, me mumble a groaning ..”yeeeeah !!! “
 
I often wonder why people ask if you are alright and all. I mean, what is the big deal? why the whole fuss if they are not willing to listen to the long answer that I have? And just because they asked, does it mean I have to blabber away?
 
I mean, do I tell them that I am alright when I really am not or do I tell them that I am really not alright, that I hardly get any sleep as I have to wake up atleast four times at night to take a leak ( doc says its’ me prostate), that even my rooftop ocassionally leaks, that my garden needs a mow and so does my mane but the maximum that guy would be willing to hear is a, “yeah mate, and you?” and maybe a few lines about the way England beat Ukraine in footie and all.
 
I mean, you know, don’t get me wrong, but I really feel am cheating the person who asks me if am alright by saying yes when am not and all.
 
I want to tell them that Linda Bennett, my next door neighbour she worries me. She really really does. She is like in her seventies, you know. She was very very active, I tell ya. She often invited me to taste her home made pancakes. She and her black and white cat, Lydia. Linda and Lydia made quite a pair, you know.
 
However, these days the milk bottles and the newspapers keep piling up for days together in front of her house. I like, even saw her once in the local shop with her robe and rollers on.
 
Her son Dave is in a high tech fancy job in central London. Central London, I tell ya, is really the happening place to be and all. All fancy people in their fancy suits and fancier gadgets. They are like so high tech that they can get in touch with someone from the farthest corner of the world in like a flash of a second but you ask them about their neighbours, nada, zilch, they wouldn’t know who that is.
 
So like Dave works in Central London. I wonder if I should give him a ring but I know what he will say. Don’t get me wrong he is a really nice guy. He really really is. He even visited her once last year, I mean that is so nice of him, to visit his mum and all. I, never really visited my mom when she was alive and now since she is dead and all, so no point in visiting her, really.
 
I think, I will give the social services a ring. They would sort out Linda sooner I think.
 
So,that worries me, so am not alright. So, now you know like, why I cannot say to the guy that I am alright.
 
The other woman who really worries me is Olivia Tucker, she lives in a nice little cottage right across from my house. She is a lovely little, active lady in her eighties. Yeah, you heard that right, she is in her eighties with no next of kin. Her garden looks much better than mine though. She recently planted neatly coordinated yellow and white daffodils in her lawn. She reminds me of Wordsworth, she does. Yet, she worries me that little one.
 
You would be surprised to know that she manages all this even while she continues to do her basic activities with the help of a 3 wheel walker, you know. She has real bad arthritis, her hands are all twisted in opposite directions and all. Her doctor told her that swimming will keep her fit and I love the cookies she makes. So, I volunteered to drive her to the swimming pool although she still has her driving licence.
 
She was so delighted at my offer. So, I drive along with her. Yeah, she doesn’ t let me drive. She does the driving and I like sit along and watch her swim and bring her back. That’s all alright you know but I would really not want to be the one with a car behind hers’ while she is driving. Because, you know, sometimes when cars come from opposite side, instead of firming the break and holding the steering she like, does quite the opposite.
 
She jams the damn clutch, speeds the accelarator and steers the car. We have been really really lucky a few times, I tell ya. She worries me, that little one, she really really does.
 
I think, I will have to tell her doctor about this or the DVLA, you know she has no family and all, right, thats why….
 
So, like that is why I am not alright.
 
The Sidebottoms next door worry me, they really really do. I think, they should change their name from Sidebottom to Bigbottom, they should. They are a young couple in their late thirties with half a dozen kids. Mrs Sidebottom is pregnant again and her oldest Bianca Sidebottom the fifteen year old, she is pregnant too. So like, mom and daughter both go to the same maternity unit.
 
Bianca sweet little girl she is, but she worries me she does, quite a tart she can be you know. She will claim benefits for raising the kid up. She doesn’t know who the father is she says. Can’t be bothered to figure it out and all is what she says. Poor little girl, I don’t really blame her for not actively trying to find out who the baby’s father is. It would be such a tough job, I tell ya. But she is a really good girl. She really really is.
 
The Sidebottoms don’t work. Oh no, they don’t believe in all that. Mr Sidebottom has been claiming disabilty allowance for being bedridden with a bad back for years on end now. Everything is paid for by the state, of course the money comes from the tax payers money like mine.

But they are really nice people. They really really are. Did I tell you like the whole family went on a cycling trip down to Cornwall last summer and they plan to do it again this year? Yeah, I know I told you Mr Sidebottom has a bad back. He doesn’t really have a bad back you know but he continues to claim benefits. Liar of a bugger I tell ya..
 
But they are really really nice family. The couple and their half a dozen and all. Their oldest Brian was recently arrested for shop lifting. He is only thirteen, you know. Poor lad, he was only trying to shoplift something for his mother for her birthday as a gift and those nasty people arrested him. I really really felt sorry for Brian. But now things are like alright. He has learnt to shoplift without getting caught and all.
 
They are a nice happy family of big bottoms eating takeouts and living happily…but  they worry me they do. So, I am not alright.
 
So, I take the easy way out by uttering the yeah, ofcourse, I am alright. Saves so much describing, I tell ya.
 
In contrast, there is the mongrel that I see every morning when I buy the lucky strikes and the bottle of cider. It would be all curled up but the minute we spot each other, it would awaken from its reverie…lift itself up, stretch…give a good shake to its body and run towards me,  just by smelling it would quietly ask if I was alright.
 
Like, it sometimes wags its tail and just gives me this look as if to say that I will be alright. It really kills me, that look, it really really does.
 
 
PS I would appreciate if this post was not used to do moral bashing. Each nation has many social issues and I simply borrowed J D Salinger’s Holden Caulfield to describe some of these characters and a few of the issues that engulf modern Britian. This certainly is not the whole picture.  


Pleasure…

March 19th, 2009

She could hear the suppressed giggles, the constant whisperings. A turn of her head and it would be stunned silence. As she would pour herself again, back into work, the hushed tones would resurface. She adored these people, that is why she had taken her first ever steps here. The multifariousness of her work had made her quite a darling, a rage within months of commencement. They liked her too, each with a different intensity and depth. She too invested heavily emotionally returning each one’s affection sincerely and unabashedly. Life, surely was invigorating. 
 
One  day she arrived late at work. One look at her face and hand and they were shocked.Their kindness overwhelmed her. It was hot steam from the kettle, she told them. Tears welled up in her eyes, yet the smile persisted. An irregular burn just near her left cheek had spoiled the impeccable and unblemished face. She concealed the pain, the visible scar remained.
 
Time flew. She had now become a regular. More mishaps took place. A bruise here, a cut there. She was so accident prone, she would giggle and tell all. They agreed. Although people were still in awe, they gave her affection very hesitantly. They took more than they would give willingly. A constant battle to give her and within her.
 
They would sympathise and say they empathised but she felt the restraint, the stinginess in the reciprocation. Their face often looked sad however their eyes betrayed the glint and gleam. She was no more the perfect one. She was not invincible anymore. Her affection, kindness, intelligence, simplicity did not matter. She had given herself away. She had entered a cesspool of trouble by confiding and considering them her own. They secretly took delight in her fall from heights.
 
Whether it was intentional or her own mind playing dirty tricks, she surely felt things were not the same.
 
She knew. Yet, she immersed herself in the only world she knew.

PS: Musings of a fictitious character. In 300 words. Wooohoooo J

     I am on holiday for a few days. Will ketchup with all once am back. Till then, happy times.

 

So long my friends, so long!!